alright. reflection time.

i kind of realised in living i've lost my direction. somehow. i don't know what i want. and what i want is probably not going to keep me plodding on. all these years. i have been living with one sole purpose. to get good grades and stuff like that and in the end land myself a high-paying job, thus making you happy. but the thing is. i don't wanna live for you. i wanna live for myself. stop holding too tightly. i know you hate to lose control but you could let me make my own decisions, right?

heck, now, i think even making my own decisions are kind of hard. i tend to think with my heart and not my head. i go by gut feeling and not by logical deduction. i would never step back and take a look before going right in. what i do now is always to plunge right into the midst of it, only to realise later that i am heading in the wrong direction.

and i try so hard to be what i am not. damn.

i guess my life's screwed. but like andrea says. i gotta unscrew things that matter to me the most. and yeah. i kind of thought about it. first in line. studies. the standard. second. my health? lol. hahahaa. third. friendship. fourth. piano. fifth. ccas. yep. that's all i guess. i will just get these done and keep my eyes off other stuff. yep. that's what i need to do, i guess. yeeeahh. i will get out of this maze. soon enough. nothing's impossible, to conquer or to get out of. there's got to be a way out of this jungle.

alright. end of reflection.

so now some thanks to give out. hehhh. xD

first up andehh. hahaha. thx for that talk yeah. i would still be keeping it to myself if you didn't actually talk to me. everyone's gotta go through a rough patch once in a while. but i'll be out of it soon enough, promise. =) <33

next nik. heh. thx for the hug and for cheering me up. =) and don't worry too much about things too yeah. xD hahaha. <3 you loads

then suchin for that sms about smiling. AHHA. so the amusing. =) thanks for it anywayyy. xD hahahaa. dunno whether you come here or not but nevermind, i will just say thank you, in case you come here and read my post.

and serene for the nice nice tag. i will be positive lah. you also arh. =) you aren't failing lah, please. 38/40 for math test, who you trying to bluff? HAHAHA. okay lah okay lah. you work hard yeah.

ALRIGHT. HOMEWORK TIME.

adios

quote of the day
"i think my life's screwed."
"then you just have to unscrew the parts that matter to you."
dear andreaa. don't know what i would do if you didn't say this. HAHA. =)
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