everything's spinning out of control.
i seem to have my life in control to you.
but in truth i am struggling.
stuff are tugging me in different directions that i am near breaking point.
school stuff. relationships stuff. piano stuff. wtf.
i want them to disappear.
but i reckon nobody has a picture perfect life.
so yeps, i know i have to hold on.
otherwise i will lose the race.
i cannot lose it.
have to keep faith.
yeah.

school stuff and piano stuff, they are easy to take care of.
i know it's within my capabilities.
but relationships stuff?
i am not sure of it anymore.
i mean i don't know if i can handle it.
in case you haven't noticed, i've become kind of withdrawn from people.
and i am hating it.
but there's no way for me to be my same old cheerful self.
it was a facade i guess.
no matter how stressed i am, i learnt i have to keep the pain within.
smile and keep that happy attitude there just enough to show that you're alright, you're a-okay.

i shan't say anymore.
turning emo.
wtf.
still got work to do.

i am gonna control what i can (school and piano)
and leave what i can't (relationships).
for the time being then.

okay i gotta run.

-gab
3:58 PM