tomorrow i'm gonna fly off for uk.
1055pm flight. have to be there at 8pm.
yeppers.
hmm feeling very uhhrts how you put it - emo? LOL.
haha just feeling like i should thank god for people, no matter how bad term 2 was.
haha term 2 has ended and i guess i should and will forget all the bad times.
like someone once said, the key to happiness is a short term memory.
but i've got good memory so yeah, i will attempt at having stml (short term memory loss) and keep my fingers crossed it'll be permanent. xD

okay. would like to thank these people for making term 2 feel better in one way or another. haha in random order.

tablemates jiayue and jasmine. =)
-haha jiayue the sanity in gab+jas madness. thanks for the mathing times. we pro partners at math huh? lol. =) nice sitting with you cuz you lend me your jacket! xD HAHA lame but yeah.
-jasmine the dumbass, you make me laugh like siao. okay except when you call me gorilla. =.-'' haha but thanks for that sweet (okay that's the only time when you're this) sms. saved it okay. be honoured. (nono. be VERY honoured. cuz dumbasses like you hardly touch me. lol. hahaha. xD)

groupmates char, shuna and maria.
-char for tolerating my long long arm stretches. HEHEHE. haha and she laughs randomly. LOL.
-shuna! for being unfailingly funny and optimistic. =)
-maria for being nice and FOR PLAYING PEPSI-COLA WITH ME! hahahaa. xD

laasya the coconut, for being super funny. lol i can almost predict what you're gonna say cuz you are so friggin obsessed with coconuts and sausages. so when i call you a palm tree i just know you would call me a sausage tree. LOL. hahaha. generalisation but ahwell!

triyono("this is the way i am."), for being just the way she is. haha. she's honest and straight-talking lah. that's good isn't it. huan chin and her "in a blink of an eye" thing. bea and her chinese scribblings on the whiteboard. haha and this term i've been hanging around with yono, huanchin and bea more! haha three geniuses lah. wasn't hoping that some of that cleverness would rub off me. got inferiority complex when i see them chionging math assignments. 0.o the way they do it is like it's gonna be the end of the world in a few moments. freaky.

eileen! haha we always go home together leh. haha after choir concert sat on the same train. and we take 190 home together sometimes. =) woot woot. she's very nice to talk to anyhow. never seem to run out of convo topics with her. nice prefect. and oh she used to live in jurong west street 42 as well. omg. haha. so qiao.

suv! yeah. i think aftermath is cool. xD WOOT WOOT. yeah. but i think i haven't paid for it yet. 0.o how! shits. have i paid yet? haha just went to check with suv. suv said no. ahhh! okay nvm can pay when i'm in school for robotics camp. yeah. okay back to topic! suv thanks for the encourage the heart thing you gave me! =) haha i wrote for you and you wrote for me. that's really cool. haha. heart you. and rock on woman. and yes i know you're nuts about brazilians and you feel darn cheated that those people ain't "fricking brazilians". hahaha. xD OH YEAH! THANK YOU FOR PLAYING PEPSI-COLA WITH ME! xD HEHEHE. we kind of brought pepsi-cola into the class. HEHEHE. DAMN FUN RIGHT.

andeh. haha although we haven't really been talking this term, i'm sorry if i've been very pms-y or dao. i wasn't exactly myself this term. haha. yeah. okay i was myself sometimes but most of the time i would either be frustrated or pissed off at no particular thing. >< but anyhow i need to thank you for being there in term 1. i hope you're seeing this. yeah. heart you.

manda! haha yesyes thank you for the msn times okay. haha yeppers! oh and the GREAT WILL RISE AGAIN! WOOT. i can envision that. lol. lame lah. but jiayou woman you can do it! it's always nice talking to you, seriously. ohyeah and i will help you when you need help. heart you! haha. xD thanks for the encourage the heart thing you gave me. lol. sorry for not writing any for you. i seriously thought it was for people who needed encouragement asap. LOL. managed to write only for suchin my dear lab partner. lol. haha talking about suchin, funny woman lah. lab sessions have been fun! titration! woot. i still rmb the very first titration. lol. xD and yay! we did well for chem practical, both of us. xD i think. didn't ask suchin how much she got but i guess it's good. =) haha and oh yeah! the group blog (manda suchin amy nik and me) is getting stagnant.blog people. xD hehehe. ohyeah.
god bless manda!
god bless suchin!
god bless amy (oh yeah god bless amy's om team! hope they win something xD)!
god bless nik and your nose and your throat and your health! LOL. hahaaha. DRINK MORE WATER. don't tell me it doesn't work. and don't eat chocolate or drink milo! would only make it worse please. haha and no mudpie for you until you get better. lol. thanks for the wonderful memories. yeah, they were really good. perhaps the best i ever had. thanks for making term 1 memorable and for telling me i should not let go of important people or stuff too easily. thanks for showing me how great it is to have someone on the same wavelength, someone who would be there. yeah. thanks a gazillion. heart you. loads. things will work out man. yeah. =)

and there's still one more person to thank.
mummy.
haha although she won't see this, but yeah. she has been constantly telling me to keep up with my schoolwork and stuff like that, nagging about this and that. maybe that's what's making me do my homework. lol. yeah. haha. =) and there was one important lecture thing she gave me about life. guess life is a tough competition but i've got to keep everything straight and try not to see it as one. yeah. otherwise i get drowned in that. i'll try to stay afloat.

and at the end of it all, i guess i should give myself a pat on the back for surviving this gruelling term with all those murderous test marathons and hefty homework loads. never thought i would live through that and come out like that - alive (yeah duh, i wouldn't go and die for trivial stuff) and triumphant (i guess, cuz my gpa is satisfactory. my cca's are fine. my piano is getting along. my social relationships are looking up as well.). well term 2 was a test of pure nerve for me. i thought i would snap but i didn't. held on held fast and held out. thought i wasn't strong but now i think i can say i'm strong enough for anything. give it to me give it to me. yeah. HAHA. xD

okay i think i shall go do my physics assignment and do some co-ordinate geometry then i go and sleep! =) woot!

<3 gab

quote of the day
"don't try to act brazilian cuz you aren't fricking brazilians."
suv! during assembly today. omword i totally embarassed myself up there. lol and ms tan looked damn funny doing the thing. LOL. hahahaha. some senior went as well. pro-er than ms tan to tell the truth. HAHA.
10:38 PM



man. term's ending really soon. like in one day's time. crapzoids. that's really fast. hoho yeah. and i am flying off on saturday. gonna buy chocolate for manlun sion and faye, some random stuff for people in class! woot. =) yeah. i hope my 100 pounds is enough. haha i guess it would be lah. =) i am not a huge spender. yeppo!

today's been really good. haha yeah. really really good. chem wasn't too bad. just that yeah, it's a bit tedious and all...but I AM SO FRIGGIN GLAD IT'S OVER! so it's : BYEBYE CHAINS, HELLO FREEDOM! revision is out, and slacking is in. yeah baby. haha except that i cannot slack now, although i am now. LOL. okay i am not slacking. this is called effective multi-tasking and flexible use of time. haha what am i talking about.

anyway. then after chem it was english! yeah. me and shuna, braindead as we were, managed to finish the english essay outline thingum. we rock man. hahaha and slacked away the last 10 minutes. i must admit that outline was done in a haste but yeah it makes sense! completely. =) then recess! went down to eat. bought chicken stew and garlic bread and lucky me got the crisp garlic bread. i totally abhor soft garlic bread. it just doesn't have that taste. went upstairs and started playing the stretching again. it was the bridge version. hahas. yeah it was damn fun. but i bet some people got muscle ache. hahaha. i am lousy at scissors paper stone. HEH.

then it was bio. today mr lim very scary eh. first time see him so pissed off. 0.o and first time i heard him actually sounding like he's gonna scold someone. and first time i see him slam the door. bleh. then we were really guilty after that. ahhh! and then it was like we decided to make a card for him saying sorry. mag kindly helped us draw the card design. HEH. then geog was in the CLC. watch video again. haha quite fun lah. just sit there and wow at the landforms. hehehe. lunch i didn't go down at all. HAHA. was busy helping out with the card...and then went to play PEPSI-COLA ONE TWO THREE! WOOT WOOT. i love that game, totally. intro-ed it earlier this term but only actually played thrice? lol. hahaha. damn fun! reminds me of my pro pro partner and pro pro times back in P4! totally owned the game. HAHA. now skills deprove liao. aiya. very long never play. reaction time must be damn fast. HAHA. yeah. =) today played with manda nik hiutung and andrea. haha hiutung is VERY UNAWARE of her surroundings. kena kill two times in a row. haha and then in the end it was me and manda left. lol. haha manda's quite good. haha. =) but i won in the end. HEHEHE. okay ego ego. xD =)

mr colman chua came talked a whole lot about this and that. hahaa yeah! then test paper came back. haha okay lah. didn't improve. boo. but okay lah. good enough. HEHHE. 10 again. =) haha 3.2 but decent enough! woot. we were late for physics. and physics i was kind of stoned lah. haha. from all the fun during lunch. HAHA. okay lame but anyway. the ruler thing was quite dumb.

school ended and i was running around for so friggin long looking for mr lim to pass him the sorry card. ended up outside the CLC trying to wait for the teachers to come out but i realised they were gonna take a long long time so went down to GO to pass the card to ms veronica to help me pass to mr lim. hehehehe. our card is super funny! got a stamp that is 301 cents. haha pun leh! 301 sends a card to mr lim. 301 cents! lame but haha. xD i think we're being really nice to him. hahaha talk about ego-ness. went back to class to put down my bag. then went down for photo-taking. ahaha actually i brought my tie but i was kind of too lazy to bring it down. HAHA. then i told mrs leung i didn't bring it. HAHA. HAHA. HAHA. okay you didn't see that. and the dumb cameraman made me and erin go get ties. i borrowed one off a junior. you should have seen me. i was struggling to tie my tie on the bloody bench, then that guy kept hurrying me. go and die! i bet i looked damn funny in the picture lah. GO AND DIE. AHHH! ran back to class and got back 20 bucks so that i wouldn't be broke. HAHA. xD then yeah completed physics worksheet with the help of zijun. haha.

rain stopped then we went down to do the chem car thing. haha damn spazzer can. i sprayed that stinkin thing all over my pinafore. GO AND DIE. and i gonna smell like vinegar tomorrow. omgosh that stinks a whole lot. AH! and ohya! saw nik walking to and fro getting drinks and food from the canteen! lol so funny. three times eh. tsk tsk so easy let people bully one. HAHA.

haha by the time i started going home it was like what, 630? LOL. haha slept on the bus. looked damn funny with the white spots all over me. BLEH. hahah okay i better get back to work liao.

BYEYBYE

<3 gab

p.s. my bdae is in one month's time. EXACTLY.
9:46 PM



mugging chem in 8 minutes time.
i'm feeling strange. lol yeah.
i feel like i'm running away from something i shouldn't be running away from.
i shall stop worrying. haha. said that loadsa times but this time it's gonna be true.
not worrying doesn't mean i'm gonna let go.
it is much too special to lose.

ahwell.
today got back geog pt.
haha it was kind of okay. =)
A+ at least. yeppo! char got 141 out of 145. 0.o wahhh!
hahaha anyways. got 88% for the pt. =) 128. haha not very impressive but good enough! xD
yayyers and physics another piece of good rocking news.
the teachers have decided not to be mean and they are not deducting marks for SF! =)
hmm what else.
ah! class party. =)
the charades part was fun anyway.
mr lim was acting as a geisha! LOL should have seen man.
then he cheated in the mr & mrs smith one.
go and write "spy" when he isn't supposed to use any words.
hahaha. xD

okay i should be getting back to chem.
and i am flying off in three days.
wow. haha.
and shits i still have competition on saturday.
go and die.
got a dressing down just now from ms goh.
ahwell, it's my fault. ><
but really i was super busy.. shits no excuses.
have to stay back tomorrow. =.-'''

okay CHEMMING time.
time to hit the books baby.

<3 gab
6:30 PM



i got to have heart.
heart don't fail me now.
am pinning my hopes on you.
so yeah gotta stay strong.
(and doubt, please get lost.)
guess this applies more to other areas of my life rather than academics.
just one more test to go and lazy me am not revising one more time just yet. LOL.
i am lazy.
but anyway.
i reckon i should have faith.
faith in what?
faith in myself. faith in people. faith in friends in particular.
i always tell people to have faith, when in fact i should be the one having faith as well.
haha. irony of the situation.

faith in myself, cuz in case you didn't know, i am not strong. yeah. not very strong. just strong enough to hold on to life. one blow and i can get really caught up in feeling disappointed and demoralised. i have had enough of that. this has been with me since primary school. haha i remember brooding about not getting full marks for math in P5. looking back i realise it's dumb like anything. haha ahwells. i shall have faith. believe more and perhaps find out more about what i wanna be? yeah.

faith in friends. yeah i guess i need loads of this. i don't know how to go about doing this cuz i'm still in the process of learning. i need to trust. but thing is i don't trust people all too easily. i have to be reassured all the time. heh yeah. after thinking through stuffs on friday, i realise i have a major problem with keeping friends. bleh. haha. it's either i chicken out or it just disappears. haha but most of the time it's the former - i chicken out. like i said, i can't trust somebody like snap. sigh. doubt is a killer man. once i doubt, everything and anything that is bad would start happening, one after another - domino effect you know - until i don't know what to trust and then i chicken out. loserfied i guess. >< bah. major problem.

prolly that's why i am scared to commit. too scared of letting that one person down. too scared to take that step. this year i took that step but now, shit i guess i am regretting it. it could have been better off if i just did not take that one step. but to think of it. without that step i probably would not have so many great times. without that step i probably would not have met the most fantastic person alive. without that step i probably would have just ended up being a mask day in day out, being who i am not. yeah.

yet now, the sole reason why i am regretting it is cos i've been out of your life for so long i don't know how to get back in again. the feeling just ain't the same anymore. it's like something's gone from the equation. something i cannot subsitute. i don't wanna let go but even if i don't, what can i do? i don't know what to do. really i don't. someone tell me? i really don't wanna lose this, yet i feel like i am not good enough. sigh.

ahwell. enough of this. getting really emo. haha. shall laugh some more. HAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHA. okay i shall shut up and go mug chem like guai kia. i would be a chem expert tmr, i swear.

<3 gab
9:42 PM



okay supposed to bold the stuff that applies for me. haha. yeah. i am bored. ><

I miss someone right now
I dont watch TV these days (man i jsut watched two movies two days ago. xD)
I love olives
I own a lot of books
I wear glasses or contact lenses
I love to play video games (video games SUCK)
I have been in a threesome (huh?)
I have been in the psycho- ex in a past relationship (NO)
I believe honesty is usually the best policy
I curse sometimes
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me
I'm smart
I've broken someone's bones
I hate the rain
I'm paranoid at times
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free
I love sushi
I talk fast
I have lost money in Las Vegas
I have at least one sibling
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past
I like the way I look (haha with all the preaching we get in school that we should be proud of our appearances, i guess it would be I AM OKAY WITH THE WAY I LOOK.)
I've lied to a good friend in the last 6 months
I am usually pessimistic
I have a lot of mood swings
I have a hidden talent (like real. what you see is what you get. it's me, me and same old broing me.)
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I've had
I am currently single
I have pecked someone of the same sex (0.o you nut?)
I enjoy talking on the phone
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants
I love to shop (man i would rather go coop myself in the bookshop)
I enjoy window shopping (haha yes, i like)
I would rather shop than eat
I don't hate anyone, I dislike them
I'm a pretty good dancer (WHAT RUBBISH)
I have a cell phone
I've rejected someone before (lol no and that sounds like a good idea)
I currently like someone
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life
I want to have children in the future (fat hope)
I have changed a diaper before (yuck)
I have called cops on a friend before
I'm not allergic to anything
I have a lot to learn (about life mainly. lol. i am a noob at it.)
I have been with someone at least 10 yrs older or younger
I'm online 24/7, even as an away message
I have tried alcohol/drugs before
I enjoy some country music
I would die for my best friends (for the right reasons man)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
I watch soap operas whenever I can
I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it (AND JUSTICE LEAGUE!)
I have dated a close friend's ex
I like surveys (survey suck)
I am happy at this moment (let's just say i am momentarily amused)
I am obssessed with guys (=.-'' guys are a total waste of my time.)
I am punk rockish (immature)
I am preppy (juvenile)
I go for older guys/girls, not younger (dumb)
I study for tests most of the time
I tie showlaces differently from anyone I've met
I am comfortable with who I am right now
I have more than just my ears pierced
I walk barefoot whenever I can
I can't stick to a diet (don't need a diet baby)
I talk in my sleep (yeah if you're lucky i would give you a scolding and a beating as well. i have track record of kicking people in my sleep)
I have had a crush on a cartoon character when I was a kid
I only clean my room when necessary

haha that's all. my mum made so much friggin noise. piss me off.

okay go back to chem liao.
that was a brain defroster.

adios
11:32 PM



i feel strangely calm.
in the midst of all the chaos in this life.
this year i mean.
people breaking down all around.
and i don't deny i haven't but today, somehow i just feel like i should go along with it.
go where the tide leads me.
play my cards once it's my turn.
take the leap when it's time to do so.
go where the current takes me.
heh yeah. no use fighting against all that's gonna come.

i don't know what i am talking about exactly.
but yeah. should chill in times like that.
life isn't as bad as it seems.
keep your eyes open and you'll probably see a good thing or two.
haha not thing lah. mm but i don't have a better word. HEH.
i ain't a wordsmith. the title of wordsmith still very much belongs to shirlynn sham.
but anyhow, i shall look forward to every day, like i used to in term 1.
no use lookin back on the past day fretting about how it should have been lived.
maybe it was easier in term 1 cuz i felt optimistic then with that new brash confidence i gained after obs and a bunch of amazing people i met. hahaha. okay i make obs sound so all powerful and change inducing. LOL. but yeah it's true. xD

heh anyway. i have to get back to philo.
it's positively KILLING me.

<3 gab
10:16 PM



cause it's hard for me to lose
in my life i've found only time will tell
and i will figure out that we can baby
we can do a one night stand, yeah

and it's hard for me to lose in my life
i've found outside your skin right near the fire
that we can baby
we can change and feel alright

haha was about to type something but ahwells. i have to go help my mum pack my uk stuff. bleh bleh. okay back in a while.

haha okay now i have to go shower. LOL. okay. back in 10 minutes.

woot back.

gonna eat at 730.
have quite a number of stuffs to do today.
1. a Math ws
2. SMP stuff. 0.o
3. compile the geog mag
4. physics ws
5. chem rev
6. philo journal

ahwell. got back chem spa. was better than i expected it to be. xD HEH.
physics. bleh. shan't talk about it.
just that i am kind of relieved that my overall physics gpa is still a 3.6
hmm i guess i can kiss goodbye to 3.8 now. heh.

hmm academics aside.
today's been a rather sniffy day.
haha my nose was running the whole frigging day.
piss me off big time.
this morning i was so irritated during morning assembly, fidgeting here and there.
went to collect forms for the travel thinger. yeah.
waited for char to finish whatever she was doing then me andrea and char went up together. heheh yeah. =)
then later went down again to take photo.
lol honestly, i feel short.
it's like i see sijia's class the chairs and vchairs and seriously darn tall.
that includes sijia and she-kaye by the way.
then saw jacqueline ho (i think) haha from 315.
yepp mao mao dan's good friend. =)
saw 302 people heh and i can only remember one name: cherie.
there was wong ying qi. lol i used to think she was dao please. haha. but she's quite funny.
hmm then there was couple of other people i recognised. hahaha. yeah.
i was so afraid i was gonna be like second row or something but yay i was tall enough to stand like at the back! =) WOOT WOOT.
the informal was super dumb. we just like hooked arms at the back. LOL.

went up to class and continued with chem.
was bloody boring.
got back spa lah. relief man.
eoi i guess i should do my best to get like a good A or a borderline A+?
then at least spa can help pull up the marks. yepp. =)
yeahh.
hmm then the lesson kind of cut a little into our recess.
recess i didn't go down to eat.
nik came to school despite a cold.
sat around talking with her and manda for a while.
yeah. must jiayou for next term liao. all of us.
yep. then later nik and suchin went down so me and manda were talking.
been a long time since we just talked like that. haha yeah.

physics. bleh. my nose was like running.
and jasmine had to give me continuous supply of tissue. 0.o
heh sorry!
that reminds me. last year our flu quarantine we had a tissue fight.
then yingjing was like, "DON'T FIGHT ALREADY LAH. TISSUES ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO SICK PEOPLE LIKE US."

hmm then it was PHOTOTAKING for us!
damn fun lah. brought down tigger!
haha then we had formal picture, which in my opinion, i wasn't formal at all. I WAS GRINNING LIKE SIAO PLEASE.
then informal got our soft toays.
SAT ON THE FLOOR! WOOT WOOT. reminds me of my first phototaking session with 105'04.
haha yeah. sat on the floor.
to think of it. i kind of miss the fivians. heh. yeah. although there are some stuff i would rather forget, i would still remember some of the good times i had there lah. hahaha yeah.

it was over damn fast, then we went up to do english.
more like slacking.
very guilty eh.
was supposed to finish the stuff please.
barely scratched the surface. 0.o

nearly wanted to skip a math.
should i quit?
well they say winners never quit and quitters never win.
so i guess i should stay until they say i should go.
but i think i wouldn't let that happen to me.
i shall stick around like super glue. LOL. okay sounds damn extra.
but ahwell. to the end then.

math i was kind of dazed.
the nose and all.
shucks. i hate having flu lah.
it's always my frigging nose that gets all the beating.
hardly could do my math properly. 0.o
bleh but i realised co-ordinate geometry was kind of okay. =)

after school helped nik with chem, as in told her what to mug and stuffs like that. hahaha.
then i was a bit the buay song with the messiness of her worksheets, so helped her to tidy up her file. she had better start filing her stuff haha. her file is like bursting?
then nik left and i continued with a bit more of my chem mugging.
felt bored and went over to 302 and kept anzie company for a while. lol. i think she's funny.
she's very nice in fact. =) she thinks cantonese is cool. LIKE DUH. xD
hahaha. she asked me why i didn't become a psl...haha yeah. someone like me can't be a psl. i flunked the interview.
i still remember the question that KILLED me was : "what would you do if a junior stalks you?"
omg i was stoned there. then i came up with some lame crap answer lah.
worse still i was in a pair interview with stace.
obviously i wasn't the bouncier person. lol.
so yeah, i knew from then i would not be a psl. HAHA.
ahwell. i suck at interviews and that's that.
i flunked pit and psl interviews. LOL. hilarious lah.
i hope next time job interview i better not flunk them man.
CHOY. CHOY. TOUCHWOOD MAN.

anyway then went for golf phototaking.
damn i was super extra. the only one without the golf stuff. lol.
was wearing pinafore. HAHA. i wanted to pon it at first lah.
HEH.

the came home. haha.
slacked around and i just finished blogging.
lollers okay.
quite on time. it's 7:27 now.

adios

quote of the day
"i shan't call you dumbass anymore. i'll call you gorilla."
jasmine. wow. what a change. =.-'''
7:28 PM



woot!
back from my cousin's house.
man. i learnt so many funny things today.
moron means carrot in welsh. HAHA.
and when you wanna say i love carrots in welsh, it would sound like this:
"radiwee curri moron."
MY WORD.
hahahaha it sounds like "where do we carry the moron."
my dad said it sounded like "I LOVE BEING A MORON." hahaha I HAVE THE WORLD'S CORNIEST DAD. LOL.
HAHA I AM AMUSED.
i know how to say i love you too! hahaha
"radiwee curri teen."
haha these aren't the spellings. just how to say it. HAHAHA. xD HEHEHE.
my aunt taught me! woot.
ohyeah just on a very random note, i just realised my cousin is much much taller than me now.
GO AND DIE. i feel like a short ass beside him. =.-'''
he used to be shorter than me! eeks.
he is 178 now.
considering last time i saw him he was around 168, he grows damn fast.
and he's super lean now. haha last time used to tease him cuz he had a belly. lol.
he plays football i think. yeah. he does. and i guess he still swims.
man. I WANT TO GROW.
GROW SOMEMORE!
GROW SOMEMORE!
word i sound like the height-obsessed triyono.
oh and apparently, some girl in my cousin's school finds him hot. omg. 0.o
HAHAHA WHAT I CAN DO IS LAUGH. LOL. LOL. LOL.
okay lah, quite cute. but not hot. definitely not.
haha i still remember the scandalous kiss we had. correction: INNOCENT.
i bet we were forced to.
wanted to take a pic of him just now but haha he refused to.
lol. okay nvm!
oh yeah went there to pick up some gloves and jumpers for the uk trip.
haha. my aunt's from wales. WOOT!
that's how i know a few stuffs in welsh. xD

lalala okay i have to SHOWER!

adios

quote of the day
"I LOVE BEING A MORON."
okay that's from the corniest dad alive. hahaha i love being a carrot. LOL. HAHAHAHA. I AM RA. nono i am not r-rated. i am REALLY AMUSED. okay that was totally lame. =.-''' ignore me.
10:11 PM



man. i think i am falling sick.
i've been sneezing since this morning.
just ate my vitamin C.
haha hope it helps.
lawl. lame.

currently slacking off a little before continuing with chem.
chem is a braincell killer. BLEH.
anyway. my mum is cooking something weird again.
which means me and my dad's gonna have to drink that thing.
i totally hate it. i don't know how my dad drinks that kind of crap.
okay not crap. it just tastes like crap. 0.o
hmm to think of it, i have never eaten crap (shit) before, so this ain't a good analogy.
okay know what. heck.

bleh bleh.
okay CHEMMING TIME.

<3 gab
9:25 AM



just finished watching another movie.
omg. i should stop watching tv when my parents aren't at home.
sat in front of the googlebox for 2 hours straight.
OMG.
GO AND DIE.
but anyway. one good thing is i learnt something.
again.
it's about basketball anyway. like mike.
damn cool movie.
yeah.
be brave. that's the moral of the story. lols yeah. =)

okay i shall be brave and go do my chem.
and yeah, on a random note, i shan't curse.
anymore.

<3 gab
9:44 PM



okay another day at home.
mugging.
how sad.
what shit i haven't finished chem.
after the whole day of comprehending chem stuff.

having horfun for dinner.
how fun. =.-''
when i could be outside somewhere eating a delicious plate of the same horfun.
the big diff lies here. BLEH.
I WANNA GO OUT but i cannot.
scheisse.

anyway. gtg.
chemm. chemmmm.

<3 gab
5:27 PM



i'm sorry. i was jumping to conclusions. yeah i admit i did.
i just needed time to think. yeah.
you said it isn't okay to let go.
and i agree.
so i guess i'm holding on.
sort it out?
guess so.

i'm sorry again.

<3 gab
2:58 PM



just one major thing to say after "the replacements" movie.
maybe some people may think this is dumb or whatever but yeah.
just as a form of encouragement at this time of the year.
seen people buckle under pressure.
seen bad stuff that happen.
seen myself giving up at numerous instances.
so i kind of figured this might help.
if it doesn't, at least remember this.

YOU GOT TO HAVE HEART.

that's just about what i have to say to those who actually read my blog anyway.
keep going man.
haha that reminds me of something i came to know of during obs.
when the going gets tough, the tough get going.
kudos to nik.

alrights. chemming time.

<3 gab
10:00 PM



hey there.

haha this is one of the rare times i say hey there or something along the line of hi. but anyway. today's been okay. yeah. not exactly good and not exactly bad. and i kind of stopped worrying and dwelling on stuff that may not be changed that easily. regret is for sure but ahwell, that's part and parcel of growing up ain't it? i just have to live without that special someone, that's all. lol i make it sound trivial when in actual fact, it ain't that trivial. learning to cope, yeah. but i am still hoping it's not the end.

chem spa wasn't as bad as i expected it to be. my titration was kind of okay. WOOT. =) got the pale pink thinger. yeah. me huanchin and amy got the same result. yayyers. but smart me did last question wrongly. put the 13.4 at the wrong place. i am super smart. thank god it's one mark. HEH. okay nevermind! it's over. oh yeah. val and serena! cheer up! haha they may not see this but anyway...yeah.

chinese was kind of slacker. HEHEHE. chose our book and it's a wuxia xiaoshuo. haha. some book on a martial arts character. yep! my first time reading a wuxia xiaoshuo. prolly gonna bring it over to wales to read. can read on the plane! WOOT WOOT. hahaha when i am not talking and joking that is.

recess i went to photocopy some form and went up again. sat around talking to triyono, who was mugging her chem, and huan chin. hahaha. =) we were comparing leg lengths. and i realised my lower leg is damn short while my thigh is super long. i measured leh! 51.5cm. haha half a meter. that's like 51.5/166 x 100% = 31.02% of my height. haha. okay doesn't look too impressive but still. 31.02% of my height?!

then after that went for assembly. yeppers! people refused to line up properly. and triyono was like I HAVE INERTIA! like duh, i have inertia as well. hahaha. sat with bea and char. char was telling me that wiggling a pinkie on her leg is super itchy. HAHA. so funny. bea is very sensitive to touch. you pat her then she would jerk and turn around very fast. was bored during a huge part of the assembly. was looking through char's and serena's wallets. haha. pastime lah. gave up to the stupor that was coming over me after a while and starting dozing off a little. haha. and i caught nik sleeping. LOL. triyono was busy mugging chem. wahlau i tell you she's one big mugger. haha but a fun mugger. there are a couple of fun muggers in class anyway. like huan chin. she's nice. =) then got the six head prefect nominees. got xiner, yan han, hannah, kristen (sp?), ying (something), grace chan. hmm i guess xiner is the hot favourite. i still remember her as the 102 class chair. met her at french class. always had a good impression of her. haha. nice polite and helpful. she always gets her homework done, unlike me. LOL. HAHA. i am amused. anyway! i think i am voting for xiner as head prefect. YEPPERS. =) set. and on a random note, i don't really like one of the nominees. dunno how she became a nominee anyhow. =.-''' keeping my fingers crossed that she won't become vicehead or head. i would simply just swear a gazillion times.

RS was super slacker anyway. and haha i learnt some german stuff. WOOT WOOT.

i love you = ich liebe dich
f*** = ficken
shit = scheisse

i learnt a couple more but i dunno how to spell! HAHA. i know how to say i hate you. lol. bea refused to teach me and weifen was telling me how to say this and that. hahahaa. and bea actually said in german that magdelene's a stupid cow. LOL. omg. i wish i hadn't dropped french. then i can say stuff that people dunno! HAHA. okay i am mean. BLEH BLEH. laasya was trying to figure out what i was saying. lol. so fun! hmm french. what do i know?

i love you = je t'aime
(note: i like the french version of i love you better! it sounds more romantic. the ich liebe dich one sounds like a toddler talking eh! HAHA. okay nvm! both are as cool anyway.)
men in general are difficult = les hommes sont difficiles
how are you = comment allez vous
blockheads = lourdauds

WOOT. i still remember quite a bit. haha. i remember the first test. didn't study for it lah! but i scored highest in class or one of the highest. HEHE. I AM PRO. but i lost interest and didn't want to sleep those afternoons away...so yeah HAHA. quitted in march sec 1. xD

math. omg high tension. got back math paper. yeah. our class is freaky though. bleh. so yeah those people who didn't get above our class average, cheer up yeah if you guys are sad. yep. work harder mans. and plus right the math pt is quite easy to score...so yep! don't freak out. oh and manda. chill woman. you can do it. the great will rise again, no doubts about it. =)

hmm smp meeting was okay. and scheisse, i haven't done a lot of things.

AHH! okay i better stop talking here.

haha.

adios

quote of the day
"weifen is very nice to bully."
huanchin. hahahaha. YES. I TOTALLY AGREE.
5:46 PM



Bad Day

Where is the moment when we need it the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue sky's faded to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carrying on

Stand in the line just ahead of the law
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carrying on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carrying on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Sometimes the system goes on the blink and the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know that you could be well oh that strong
Well I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

- daniel powter
------------------------------------------------------------------
yep! that's the music that's playing. nice song ain't it. xD HEHE. =) hooked on it last year and i am hooked again. similar circumstances you see. haha. and on a random note, i just wanna say i love my blog. hahaha. xD not cuz of the skin but cuz it helps me record stuff down and in the process it's less painful sometimes. yeah. haha. so those who have been neglecting your poor blogs, please update your blog today. haha. it helps when you got something to say and you need to get something off your back. i would prolly just die if blogspot crashes. CHOY. and yesyes, BLOGGING ROCKS. hehehe. that reminds me of the SPD speech i made last year during class. and i think my half of SPD class remembers my dumb speech. haha but it was powerful okay. that's what des and ivy said. wahahaha. xD yeah i loved blogging that much and haha now that love is re-ignited again i guess. LOL. so lame. ahwells. heh.

but as always, blogging ain't enough man. sometimes my problems cannot be solved by just confiding in a electronic box-like device. and that's where friends come in i guess. hoho and i am still learning how to hold on to people i can become very close to. i still have a truckload to learn...but meanwhile. i'm happy enough. haha.

contentment is not the the fulfillment of what you want. it's the realisation of how much you already have.

okay i am thankful for that buncha people i've been hanging out with these two terms. haha. basically they're:
manda suchin nik amy(you guys rock my socks big time. =) haha. you guys better blog in the group blog thinger)
eileen (woot my angel!)
jiayue (woot mathing tablemate!)
andeh (haha you are a great listener anyway. =) thanks for all the talks and everything)
jasmine (no matter how irritating you get sometimes, you are a good joke)
suv (yeah fellow pepsi-cola-fed player)
triyono (HAHA ENTER THE BIG SWEAR-ER. amuse me all the time man.)

oh woot okay!
gtg and mug chem!

BYEBYE! <3
8:09 PM



okay i shall blog a bit before running off to do my work.
got tonnes to complete today. AH.
shit go and die.

anyway. today went okay, except for a scrape i got from the fall at the carpark this morning.
hehehe. yeah.
slacky day and i cannot deny my mind was wandering all the time the whole day.
got back bio spa today. was fine lah. wasn't expecting something like damn good.
cuz i know i screwed it towards the end. hehehe.
yeah. got a 17.5. decent? yeah, guess so. got my A+ for bio. woot.
physics i am prepared to die horribly.
chem i am gonna try my best. A or A+ would do.
haha. yeah. sciences.
MATH. ohyeah. i hope i get at least a 32 out of 35 lah.
yeah okay that's enough on academics.

sigh nowadays it's like i can't take waking up to all the things i have to face in school.
i know there's nothing slash no one to fall back on.
i cannot afford to fail or make a mistake, cuz i have to stand up myself.
and that is super hard. haha. yeah.
and this term i just happened to screw up like a typical asshole and lost a friend i could fall back on. i am not sure but haha i guess we need to talk sometime?
i know other friends are there to help yeah, but it's just not the same.
but thank you to those who helped anyway.
doing it all alone knowing nobody is there to give you some help is way beyond hard.
it's nerve-wrecking.
i kind of tried it before and it wasn't easy.
and i definitely do not wanna go through that again.
not now man. haha so gonna hold on tight for these last days of term 2, my officially worst term in the whole of my rg life.

ohwells.
i had a bad term but sure, i'm gonna stand up again.
i swear i am.
watch this space.
hahaha. that sounded so poser.
but anyway. yeah i am so not going down.
no matter how hard i'm hit, i am not gonna give up.
come on life. give me your best shot. i'll take it, all of it, and throw it right back at you.
but up to now, life is a bitch.
hey i got the right to say that since it pretty much screwed up for me. haha.

okay then.
back to work i go.

adios

you only learn to treasure someone only when you have lost him or her. or do you?

quote of the day
"bang chest kind of guy."
mr colman chua. omg i am ra-ed. hahaha. nowadays my two moods are amused and stoned. hahaha. yeah strange.
6:05 PM



GUESS WHAT. I FELL DURING PE AGAIN!
I SHOULD WIN THE FALLING AWARD. GO AND DIE.
GO AND DIE!
AHHHHHHH!

okay that was just about what happened this morning anyway.
partnered nik for the volleyball thing, played with yono and mars.
haha. damn funny please that triyono.
"no trespassing man."
WAHAHA. RA.

anyway. i just blogged in the group blog woot. xD manda go see!

yeeeeep!
haha
okay dunno what to type liao.
BYEBYE

<3 gab
11:02 AM



this is as far as i will go and as far as it gets, no more.
gotten to the end of the road. woot.
gonna find a new road to run along.
it had good times and bad times as for everything,
but learnt quite a bit from all that stuff.
haha not gonna elaborate.
anyhow, i don't wanna repeat the same mistakes.
yepp. only a dumbass makes the same mistake twice.
i won't.

ahwell. read a friend's blog.
erasing memories? yeah. only if.
if i could, i would have wiped out this term a couple of weeks ago.
sigh i guess now even if i could just wipe out this memory, i wouldn't.
heh serves as a reminder, no matter how painful it is.
losing something materialistic does not really matter.
haha i lost a gazillion of my stuff since i was young. xD HEHEHE.
and losing things slash people close to my heart matters a whole damn lot to me.
heh and i figure that would go for everyone else.

hmm i guess term 2 wasn't exactly good.
haha. occasionally i felt like school rocked cuz of some good times. hahaha. i still remember the two times we played pepsi-cola 123. like omg damn fun. =) hahaa I WANNA PLAY AGAIN. I DAMN PRO. xD HEHEHE.
anyhow. bad times were abound this term.
totally sucked. started around the killer pt period.
lasted all the way. and man, i was demoralised.
it really felt like a line in one of my dad's songs (haha laugh all you want)
"a lone man against the world"
haha something like that? LOL I CANNOT REMEMBER.
anyway yeah. it was the first time i felt so stressed this first half of the year.
it was like my legs were giving way beneath me.
bleh no exaggeration but i hit an all-time low a couple of days ago.
haha. i may seem alright, laughing and all that, but you know what?
this world you cannot just see the surface, you gotta go under.
and i just about found out that i could actually live through this.
so yeah, gonna keep my head up, cuz i'm gonna be alright, a-okay.
deep breath man. term 3's coming soon. hahaha.
okay gotta take june hols to kick back relax and enjoy.
and by the time term 3 comes, i'm all ready to go.
and i swear. term 3 is gonna be better. and term 4? best.

haha yeah. okay i talk a lot.
1.10 am now. 0.o

oops.

time to sleep.

<3 gab
1:11 AM



i'm having a water problem.
not necessarily a bad thing though.
haha water is good for health! as i realised.
i'm becoming a water tank to be more exact.
hehehe. yeah. drinking loads of water every day.
maybe cuz i'm scared of getting the flu bug.
had a really bad experience last year please.
was sick for a long long time.
haha i still remember the 205 flu epidemic.
there was even a quarantine corner and i was in it. HAHA.
me char yingjing and couple of others. haha.
the dripping taps, the sore throats, the flaming foreheads...all were there.
and there was one day less than half the class was unaffected by the flu bug.

gah anyway. get well soon people having flu. =)
DRINK WATER!
DON'T TELL ME IT DOESN'T WORK CUZ IT DOES.
that's if you keep to it religiously.
HAHA. good luck and GET WELL!

okay back to chem

- toodles. <3
9:52 PM



contentment is not the fulfillment of what you want.
it is the realisation of how much you already have.

hahas. yeah. got this off another email from natasha.
she seems positive all the time to me. LOL.

okay anyway.
TODAY WENT FINE! =)

first thing in the morning was geog.
and we were supposed to do the geog thing for the group work in the magic lab.
but ended up using the imacs to blog and do random stuff.
joined the group blog comprising of manda suchin nik amy and me.
YEP. hahaha. manda was the person typing and people took turns to talk. lol.
it's super amusing i tell you.
hahahaha. was just a bystander then, looking at the random stuff they were putting into the post.
lol. until i decided to type that i find it amusing. heh.
then blah blah recess came. went back to class for a short while then went down for recess with manda and nik.
quite dumb lah, actually wanted to get nasi lemak but then i saw there was no egg and the nuggets there aren't exactly very appetising, so went to buy mee pok.
yeah. and the mee pok standard lowered eh. 0.o

after recess was physics.
drowsified period. understood what he said but yeah like he says
"i am only as interesting as what i teach."
so topic is boring.
so is he. bleh.
he caught a couple of people sleeping. lol. and not forgetting our sleeping champ suvitha. xD HEH.

english ms low came in and asked us why we were so conked out.
hahaa and apparently the reply was physics.
started discussion and stuff like that.
then maria said something especially funny lol.
"it's like elvis presley saying something about the ministry of health."
HAHA. xD
i was yawning when i heard that and my laughter came out a bit weird, as always.

period ended and was about to dash off for a math when i realised i needed the toilet.
handed my stuff to jiayue and eileen then went to toilet. hahaha.
yeah. then when seating toilet was available, me and serene wanted it but yeah i was being nice and gave it up to her, lol. xD
lalala then after that went for a math. ran all the way until i saw jiayue and eileen walking there.
apparently they stopped for numerous times to talk to friends and seniors. tsk tsk.
a math i actually GET what mrs ban is saying. HAHA.
i hope i don't fail a math this time round.
ahwell, i shan't remind myself about it.

then bio was cool.
the plants looked gross growing up but anyhow, it was cool the way they can adapt so well against animals and insects and the rain.
but the pitcher plant and the venus fly trap. oh my goodness, SO EVIL can.
yewk.
the pitcher plant drowns the insect/organism...but the venus fly trap pours digestive juices on the insect/organism. omg ouch. ><
hmm but plants don't have a brain, so how do they do it? eeks.
the power of plants. don't underestimate it. lol.

end of school. was waiting for jiayue to finish wearing her guides stuff then i can check how much we had in class fund.
we are astoundingly poor.
haha. bleh.
ohyeah! jiayue's hat is cute lah!
and andrea, no i don't want such a hat for my bdae.
get me something practical.
and yes the hat makes jiayue looks like a little girl. HAHA.
i didn't see how it looked on me. HAHA.
but anyway. went home and slept AGAIN.
blogging here. =.-'''

okay i am gonna switch off my comp for the rest of the night.
not gonna talk on msn or whatever.
distraction! AHHH.

adios

quote of the day
"it's like elvis presley saying something about the ministry of health."
maria. hahahaha!
6:07 PM



wah lau. i am damn pissed now.
shut up. you don't bloody know me.
now you're telling me i am irresponsible and all that kind of shit.
i am trying to be positive about life when life is sucking so badly
and here you are pushing me deeper into this shit, pushing me way past my limits.
sometimes you ought to shut the hell up.
it's just a sleeping bag for chrissakes.
A BLOODY SLEEPING BAG.
A BLOOMIN SLEEPING BAG.
you said i lost it.
bloody shit i didn't even take it to obs.
like hello, who in their right minds would take their sleeping bags to obs?
what shit. i found it. in the frickin cupboard you searched just 15 minutes ago.
open your eyes man. think before you make me sink lower.

not gonna call you names cuz i do love you and i do respect you but wtf can you just get what's going on in my freaking fucked up life?
AH FREAK.
9:51 PM



tuesday without golf is like mudpies without chocolate syrup.
i miss whacking balls. oops that sounded offensive. 0.o
HEH. okay nevermind me. i am a bit cranky today.
stayed back for golf meeting today, but nothing beats the golf course. xD
speaking of which, i'm overall ic for interhouse golf.
and apparently we have an ahem raffles executive golf course.
no irons allowed, only pitching and putting.
how fun is that. =.-'''
the balls aren't even golf balls, more like air balls, according to ju khuan and jean.
2 flights per house and i hope sufficient people sign up for this.
otherwise i would pull my hair out in frustration. 0.o
okay not. hahaha. i'm not that nut.
i already have mental preparation and am ready to face a possible crisis. LOL.
i make it sound so serious. but ahwell. xD

okay backtrack to start of the day.

reached school quite late today.
heh stepped into the classroom at like 7:05am?
haha yeah.
then saw nik manda wenda and val sitting on the tables in the middle of the class.
apparently the new nike pouch that manda got for nik was the centre of attention. LOL.
and i agree that the shoe looks nicer than the pouch.
hahaha. the pouch is cute but it looks like a mouse. 0.o
manda suggested playing the stretching game, the kind where you do the scissors-paper-stone routine and if you lose, you risk getting muscle aches in your legs.
and wenda was like pro at scissors paper and stone, so she was like the champ. hahaha. xD

pe was fine.
partnered with chun yue.
hahaha and i was being a bit mean.
when i do the bumping thing to the ball, it doesn't travel in a straight line.
so chunyue had to run here and there. 0.o
sorry!
played with yono and maria, then suv and val, then nik and shihui.
and honestly, the best game me and chunyue played was when we were against nik and shihui.
haha the previous two games we were either too busy laughing our asses off or aiming the ball at totally out of bounds areas. LOL.
and volleyball's fun! when i don't fall, that is.
don't wanna fall again! stupid and painful.
after pe ended, me suv and maria ended up shooting hoops.
and apparently, with this hoop, i cannot shoot well.
cuz there's no net? hahaha, people aim at the hoop but strange me uses the net to imagine the ball going in. 0.o HAHA

okay then math period was kind of like FREE PERIOD.
since ms neo wasn't here again.
HAHA. nvm i shan't say anymore. otherwise she runs a google search again and finds my blog again!
i didn't know my blog was so google-lable.
go and die lah. what if marshmallow finds my blog.
that would be atomic bomb embarrassment slash humiliation in suv's words.
so math period i gave nik her bdae card+prez. then i was walking around the class, slacking and singing random songs to entertain jasmine, who insisted i cannot sing.
OKAY FINE! hmph.
hahaha i am gonna miss sitting with her, since she NEVER fails to make me laugh.
either with her childish, immature, juvenile behaviour or her quirky statements.
example: she would engage in a short fight with me over something as small as me drawing on her "goddamn table" (as she puts it) , with a WHITEBOARD MARKER (it's erasable. =.-''').
quote: "you look like a loser." "huh?" "ay! you are supposed to say oh really, you look more like one to me."
and yesyes, i will miss sitting with jiayue, the only sanity in the midst of gab-and-jas madness.
hahaha! she's like the only MATURE person in our row please!
and she's been a really great mathing partner. haha we tyco man.
ohyeah! and thanks for lending me your purple jacket. HAHA. xD
it looked bloody weird on me but anyhow, it keeps me warm. serves it purpose.
aiyah. both of them rocks my socks. =) tablemates of the front row. WOOT WOOT.

then recess! nothing much lah. ate only the panda biscuits and drank milo. YEP.
sat with suchin they all. hahaha and i got feedback that class exco is biased.
okay. will correct that. so chill.
and oh, ANDREA! if you're reading this, remember to give me the bdae list! xD
nik got a gazillion bdae sms-es please.
hahaha i still remember last year i got like only 20?
wahahhaa. but anyway, that was the past.
and this year, i prolly ain't gonna care so much, since my bdae is last day of june hols.

bio was in class. got the bio pt.
we discussed quite a bit on bio pt.
went to library just now to borrow something on nutrition.
quite cool. yepp. =)
doing with bea and manda. =)) double woot.
chinese. omg. i am doing with bea and huanchin!
hahaha. and you know what. the pt is frickin hard.
i better buck up for my chinese. this thing is a whopping 20%.

lunch. went down to eat with amy.
bought garlic toast and mushroom and cheese pizza.
the pizza is totally disgusting. chucked whatever was left of it into the bin.
it tasted like a piece of stale dough slapped with cheese and weird-tasting mushrooms.
i swear i ain't gonna touch another pizza from east and west ever again.
stoned for a while thinking about something way out of my control.
but ahwell. then snapped out of my daze just when nik asked me why i was stoning. xD
went up after amy finished her food and drink.
it was chao funny lah. we walked past psl board then nik stopped to take a look.
me and amy went ahead for a while before realising nik wasn't there.
then turned back. haha. amy was like, "NIKHI-LASE!"
lol cuz before that, nik called her amylase. HAHA. I AM RA-ED. xD

physics turned out to be in lab 2 and haha fun fact of the day: MR TAY ZHI YONG IS A STUNNING 48KG AND HE'S 174CM.
0.o oh my word. he seriously looks damn underweight. 0.o
ahh! how come he is so skinny?! scary. 0.o
then after physics, dunno why i was feeling a bit off-colour.
haha, the effects of the drastic change in temperature.
i am used to the aircon. xD
heee! PAMPERED with aircon. hahaha!
then before going for rs, was walking with laasya, bhubhu and nik.
laasya was indignant that mr tay is supposedly 174cm.
she was like, "i bet he counts his hair in."
HAHAHAHAHA. xD
and oh nik FORGOT to bring her waterbottle. tsk tsk.
naughty naughty. sick already still don't bring waterbottle.

went for rs.
quite slacker. but today, i was MOTIVATED to educate myself about electronics.
HEHEHE. BIG DIFFERENCE OKAY.
i am gonna do something about smp.
haha and today in the library saw xiner with she-kaye and apparently, they are smp partners.
omg i am slow lah. so many weeks and then now then i know they are in smp. 0.o HEHE.
wanted to say hi or at least smile at she-kaye but i don't think she actually recognizes me.
oh yeah i saw yajie as well. hahaha. and her being her wanted to hug me. 0.o
i escaped her clutches though. xD
after rs i guai-ly went to 404 for golf meeting. hahaha. and yep, that was the end of my day.

woot.
okay that was one LONG post.
hahaha. took me 2 hours to write please.
HEH. inclusive of slacking and eating.

okay better go play piano now.

adios

quote of the day
"childish, immature, juvenile."
jasmine. she KOPED this from me please.

do you know how much it takes to miss a person?
heh. i don't really know but i do know it takes a whole lot of love to do so.
they say "i love you" is the hardest thing to say.
but really, "i miss you" is the hardest to say and mean it.
7:51 PM



AHHH! I CANNOT SLEEP.
shit lah. shouldn't have napped just now.
tried to sleep from like one hour ago.
could not and crawled out of bed and flicked on the laptop.
and apparently my mum knows.
now she's hopping mad but i don't really care. LOL.
hahaha. heck care lah.
eeyer today i haven't done anything, except to plonk on the piano and attempt at doing the english mindmap.
i don't understand half what the article was trying to say. 0.0
okay and i realise i have more things on my hands than i thought i had.

1. eng mindmap (i am halfway done. i better finish it by the time i get tired.)
2. eng vocab list thinger
3. pre trip stuff
4. geog assignment compilation (?) [i think i am supposed to print as well, is it?]
5. philo journal (oh man. my brain's gonna BURST.)
6. smp stuff (intro, report, design)
7. interhse golf stuff (i don't know what there is but tmr after the friggin meeting i'm sure there is something for me to do)
8. class party at the end of this term (?) [hmm dunno. it's a bit rushed. maybe can put in like in the first week next term. that would be good leh. class comm would have whole june hols to prepare the stuff, games and things like that. HEH. xD oh class party isn't exactly our idea. it is ms low's. 0.o]
9. CHEMISTRY REVISION. red light alert. i stopped at KPT. AHH. go and die!
10. PACK MY UK STUFF. AH! ALTHOUGH I GOT EVERYTHING. I HAVEN'T PACKED YET! AND MY SUITCASE IS WAY BIGGER THAN 28INCHES. 0.o ahhh!

okay that's quite a bit to do. BLEH.

okay BYEBYE!
hmm i think i'll go online and see who else is online. HAHA.

<3 gab
11:30 PM



alright not exactly feeling hyper-ded now but just that i only have three more freaking tests left:
1. eng RETEST (shit you goddamn f***ing son of a bitch. AHEM.)
2. chem SPA
3. chem EOI

yep! and i haven't revised chem yet. 0.o

there's something i want to say but i don't know whether i should say. bleh. better not. it would be breaching my blogging code. my blogging code is kind of simple. personal life but nothing too personal. heh. yepyep! anything personal goes into my diary! woot woot. hahaha sometimes i wonder why i blog eh. LOL. funnehh. lalala. perhaps to write down totally random thoughts. (like what i am doing now. hehehe.) this is so not a proper post. no content. BLEH BLEH! BLOOP BLOOP. okay i think i am going nuts. =.-'''

sheesh alright. i shall go for a nap and blog somemore later and then perhaps i would find the mood for homework.

okay homework list so far:
1. english mindmap
2. english vocab list
3. smp stuff 0.o
4. CHEM REVISION
5. piano aural thinger
6. geog trip stuff

-temporary end of post at 3.45pm-

back. and i am feeling very refreshed.
ahaha. and i kind of sorted out some thoughts.
hehs yeah.

------------

regret

the way you walk the way you laugh
the way you talk the way you smile.
they're embedded in my memory all this while.
but now what i feel as i let you go,
is one feeling that i would never show.

it is what that keeps me feeling dazed
everytime when i'm alone.
it is what that makes me slightly crazed
as i try to numb the pain
with laughter and jokes - but in vain.

this feeling i get when i see you there
you're so near yet so far -
it's getting really hard to bear.
yet i can't say life's not fair,
cuz i started it - all of it - yes i did.

the most i can do now
is look back and say
that's a good memory, wow.
but there's a lingering feeling i get
and that, my friend, is regret.

------

ahhaha. it's been a long time since i have written something so poetic.
lol. it is a poem anyhow. yep.
just had to get it out.
please ignore me if you don't know what it is.
and don't ask me if you don't think i would tell you.
it's just something i have to get rid of.
that feeling.
yep.
okay i have to go play the piano now.

oh yeah. i have a birthday cheer to give out. hahaha a bit early but ahwell!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIK! AND GET WELL SOON FROM THAT COLD. OH REMEMBER TO DRINK MORE WATER! and this applies to manda too. xD lol. hahaha. =) <3
alright! piano time!
wooot.

adios

quote of the day
"not only does your trigo suck, your face sucks too!"
jasmine. this had suv in guffaws and i was left diao-ing for a while. LOL. but i was amused by it anyway! with people like jasmine in your life, no doubt it's gonna get colourful once in a while. hahahaa. =)
7:19 PM



OH WHEEE! I GET TRIGONOMETRY. DIE TRIGO DIE!
WOOT I CONQUERED YOU!
IN MY DAD'S CAR WITH MY TRUSTY TEXTBOOK AND POWDERFUL PENCIL!
HEHEHE. I AM GOING NUTS.
yay.

oh drats.
there's still chinese.
okay i haven't TOUCHED chinese except for during tuition.
i am so dead.

okay better go do some last minute chinese prac.
lin2 shi2 bao4 fo2 jiao3.
HEHEHE.

oh yeah. my trip to seiyu was quite okay!
walked around a bit.
tried to get my mum to get me a clock to put in my room, since ALL MY FREAKING CLOCKS ARE EITHER SPOILT OR JUST FUGLY.
she refused to. bleh bleh! I WANT A NICE CLOCK! <3

okay enough of ranting.
woooot! CHINESE. WO3 YAO4 ZAI4 JIE1 ZAI4 LI4!

adios

quote of the day
"falling in between"
some album i heard on the radio. one of song is spiritual man. haha funneh. xD
9:05 PM



quad functions. check. understood. yep.
functions. check. understood. yep.
trig. check. not quite clear. 0.o
shits. there's one question i dunno how to do.
ah frick. go and die question.
hmm. got it off some revision worksheet on the inet.

blehbleh.
okay gtg!
going out soon.
finally after two days of COOPING UP AT HOME.
0.o
hello, i even missed my grandma's bdae lunch just to mug math.
missed out on shark fin's soup and all those delicious food okay.
GAH.

okay nvm! at least i had tronky bars with me.
xD HEHEHE.

<3 gab
5:27 PM



practising math!
WOOT WOOT. =)
hahaha. i am mathing day in day out.
sigh still need to do a bit of chinese though. HEH.
my chinese sucks big time.
so yeah i better do chinese later.

ahwell. wrote in my diary this morning.
LOL. it's been a long time since i wrote something inside.
but yeah. read something i wrote before that made me realise i should stop worrying about things.
hahaha. and i should get this straight: life rocks a whole bunch if i care to look carefully, stop worrying about things i can't control, LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE! =)
haha reminds me of the ad song.
"always look on the bright side of life!"
-whistle!-
hahaha. i can whistle it. =) wheeee.

okay enough of the randomness.
BACK TO MATH!

<3 gab
11:20 AM



really should be sleeping now.
-looks at clock on the com: 12:58am-
0.o hahaha. i was blogsurfing after i brushed my teeth.
LOL. xD
anyway! i think my mummy rocks a big deal.
she got all my wales trip stuff already eh!
omg. hahaha. yepyep.

talking about wales trip.
i kind of realised. when i come home from wales, my parents would be overseas!
in shanghai i think. i think they'll be dropping by hongkong as well.
lol. shall get them to get some stuff for me. HAHA. =)
from shanghai can get authentic goods.
from hongkong, get those imitations from the pasar malam (sp?) like stalls.
HAHA. =) i am a big fan of imitation watches back when i was like p4. xD HEHEHE.
had like a gazillion pwetty imitation watches.
i still have one that is still working. LOL.
but i don't wear it anymore. xD HEHEHE.
(oh that gives me an idea. LOL.)
hahaha. imitation watches include brands like swatch, adidas and casio.
lol and they really look like the real thing, some of them. xD YEPPERS.

okay back to the problem here.
I WOULD BE HOME ALONE!
for three frigging days.
until it's time to go for robotics camp.
woot woot. i would spoil the washing machine i tell you.
and not wash the dishes.
and not take care of my mum's plants.
0.o crap i better do.
my mum'll kill me.
in return for her efficiency in getting all my wales trip stuff...

I SHAN'T SPOIL ANY ELECTRICAL APPLIANCES IN THE HOUSE; I SHALL WASH THE DISHES; I SHALL ATTEMPT TO COOK PROPER MEALS FOR MYSELF (OR GO OUT AND DA-BAO); I SHALL WATER MY MUM'S PLANTS; AND I SHALL TAKE GOOD CARE OF THE HOUSE WHILE THEY ARE GONE ON HOLIDAY!

YEP! HAHA.

okay i shall go sleep!

adios

lyrics of the day
"when it's through, it's through
fate will twist the both of you
so come on baby, come on over,
let me be the one to show you

i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues
just to be the next to be with you."
to be with you by mr. big!
1:11 AM



sigh. math. go and die. just go and die.
you are just another worry on top of many other worries.
chinese too. bleh. i wish everything can just go to hell
and leave me alone.
like they would.
life's having a go at me, i guess.
well. i'm not going down just like that.

and yes.
i am sorry.
for everything.
i started it, and i know it.
well, i'm sorry.
it wasn't exactly the best term.
it hurt a great deal, for both of us i reckon.
well. here's where sorry has lost its meaning huh.
i don't know what else to say.
but one thing is for certain.
i let you down.
and it's ridiculous for me to keep hoping it would be like before,
or is it?
sigh. i'm sorry.

bleh i better go back to work.
but i just can't help but feel like i am the suckiest person ever.
i am screwing everything up.
and ahhh frick.
i wish i never existed.

okay that was quite a bit of a rant.
so yeah.
cya.
4:06 PM



woot. just finished lunch. and i am chionging my chinese now.
shit. she's coming in an hour's time.
bleh. i think i'm gonna fail chinese.
POOI. no i cannot fail chinese.
i better do well for this.

quadratic functions eliminated 1/2 of my brain cells this morning.
argh. screw quad functions.

hmm.
oh yeah. saw someone's nickname on msn yesterday.
it read:
nobody dies a virgin because life screws us all at least once in our lifetime.

wow. how true. lol.
but it sounds sick. ><

haha. okay back to chinese.

<3 gab
12:55 PM



talking to melissa. 12 years old.
it's startling what a difference 3 years make.
12 years old i remember i was going through a particularly angsty stage.
haha. get pissed super easily and piss people off easily with my heck care attitude.
lol. though i was a ahem nerd in primary school. i was the nerd with the attitude.
yeah. no bragging. i was. heh. xD

13 and i was a bit calmer. not as angsty.
lol. yeah. i skipped the whole rebellious stage. thank the lord.
i was like a fish in the ocean, travelling on the turbo highway where the ocean current dictates where i go.
i followed this and that and ended up confusing myself.
so there went my pathetic first year as an official teenager.

then 14 rolled on by quite fast.
a few major changes and i was driven to get this and that, but this time it's my whim.
i refused to follow trends and stuff like that. was my own island for the first half of the year.
got the results that i wanted and the other stuff i aimed for.
until july. met my first bf after like 4 years (my previous one was in primary 4).
and whoosh the rest of the year zoomed by in laughter, tears and marathon chats.
hols came and i realised that my bfship was dying.
but i tried to deny it and i did, all the way till the end of 2005.

now at 15, i feel older and more experienced, now that i look back and summarise my secondary school life.
i've come to learn that facades are tempting to don but they are best avoided.
so i learn to wear my heart on my sleeve.
i've come to learn that i have to stop being a blind sheep following the crowd, cuz it's a serious case of the blind leading the blind in there.
so i learn to keep my eyes wide open.
but i guess i was too dumb to realise i've lost someone on the way.
and so i just lost her.
then come vday, i thought i found the answer.
and yes i thought that for another two months or so.
until now.
so i learn that i haven't found a way to keep friends and SOS, i need plenty of help.

just talked to vivien.
brought back some memories.
nice ones duh.
saw and heard her sing during choir concert last night.
dunno why but i teared.
haha. nobody saw, fortunately.
i just thought it sounded damn sweet.
it's all about you.
yesterday you asked me something i thought you knew.
and i told you with a smile,
it's all about you.
then there was another part in the chorus.
dancing on the kitchen tiles,
it's all about you.
hehe. yep. that's what i heard vivien sing.
nice one.
when she sang i just felt like she was my old tablemate all over again.
haha. and i am missing those times at the back with her in 205'05.
and i guess that means i am missing her too.

ahwell.
i guess for now, stuff should take its course.
i will leave it alone, see how it goes.
i guess.
i am praying very hard for a positive outcome.
cuz you know what.
i still believe.

oh check out melissa's blog:
www.juz-meli.blogspot.com
it's nice. haha first timer at blogging.
but ahwell. i think it would be a window through which i see childhood innocence?
lol. yes.

okay back to math.
i was taking a prolonged break.
HEH.
at least now i am totally DONE with trigonometry. that's a small component. BLEH.
i still have functions and quad functions.
ah frick.

<3 gab
9:45 PM



good morning!

hahaha. =)

yesterday was choir concert! it was quite nice actually, although it's a bit short and rushed. lalala. took pictures, but not too much. lol. lazy to post the pictures now, but eventually i will. hahaha. when the eventually is, I DON'T KNOW. lol. l

after the concert ended, we went backstage! hahaha. damn squeezy please. yeeeeah. saw val and we surrounded her in a circle. lol. she saw me standing quite unbalanced somewhere, yelled GABBY (or was it GAB?) and hugged me. LOL. I AM AMUSED. oh yeah! i chucked my champagne rose into the bin. it DIED on me. DIED! the petals looked damn pathetic. later when we were outside, jiayue bought some uhhrtts flowers (i don't know what type, cuz they don't look like roses at all). she gave me one to give my mum! LOL. hahahaha. i picked a light pink one. HHEHE. thx jiayue! then got a lift from kellie's dad. hahaa. yeah. OUR CLASS PREFECT IN CHARGE if you don't know. in class she looked totally dao and serious, then yesterday while we were waiting for her dad, she was kind of siao one. LOL.

yeahhh! then me and eileen ended up going home together again! hehehe. took from newton mrt. =) haha yeah! we were yawning non-stop on the train okay! lol. hmm when i finally reached yew tee, i was like HALF-ASLEEP. lol. it was like 11 plus then, cuz the concert ended at around 10. lol yeah.

reached yewtee and started walking home. then at the junction right outside the mrt, i nearly had an accident please. i didn't know the light hasn't turned red for the cars yet and started crossing. the cardriver stopped in time and honked me damn loud. wahlau damn scary. nearly cried. shits. >< didn't tell my mum though, she would have freaked out and started scolding me for not looking at the lights carefully. hmm but have you ever thought about who would actually miss you when you die? that's what i thought about when i was walking home. paranoid i know but really, how many people would actually miss you and feel sad, excluding your relatives? i counted and i kind of figured most people would feel a bit sad, but for those who would really miss me, i guess i can count them off within five fingers. ahwell. shouldn't be so negative. bleh. but thinking about dying is super depressing, especially when you just had a close brush with a possibly death-causing accident. gah. the near-accident taught me sth though: look at the traffic lights and yeah, treasure what you have, friends, moments, whatever, cuz you dunno when a ten tonne lorry would fall on you from the sky. (okay that's exaggeration. xD)

alrights. have to treasure TIME now. have to mug math.

okay BYEEE!

adios

quote of the day
"life isn't the number of breaths you take in a moment but the moments that take your breath away."
from anren's blog. lol yes desiree's friend's blog. hahaha. yepp. =)
9:54 AM



some things you just cannot put it in words.
but yeah. one thing i kind of figured in this trashy term is:
control what you can. leave what you can't.
no matter how disastrous this term was for me (you might not even know how),
i know i have to carry on, with or without whatever i had back in term 1.
i lost some things on the way this term and gained some.
i will never forget those that i've lost.
yeah never will.
guess it's time to give up on some stuff. yepp.

okay. guess it's back to math.

<3 gab
8:57 PM



bleh bleh bleh!
normal day.
nothing much, except that the stinking english paper was compromised.
go to hell and die, for goodness sakes.
WASTE OUR FREAKING TIME.

shits. i am broke and i am dead on cash.
doubt i would have money for anymore presents.
lol. bought a super lao pok pencil case for my 8 year old cousin.
a soft toy for my 14 year old cousin.
lol all my cousins are born this month man.
hahaahha. sheesh. bdae cards to write.
i guess i'll write the two cards today, but for maomaodan i think i'll write a whole load of gibberish eh. LOL.
fwahahaha. i'm short of cashhhh!

oh ya! today went to help the prefects and prefects-in-training to dethorn the mothers' day roses!
i was trying to dethorn my first flower then you know what!
smart me snipped off the leaves as well!
hahaha now the flower looks horrendously bare.
i wrote a sorry note on the wrapping of the flower lor!
"sorry for the bare flower. it's unique you know."
HAHAHA. xD i was so amused with myself.
jiayue and eileen were with me. hahaha
and jiayue told me that eileen had once randomly told her:
"i want to have a boyfriend. because i want to be loved."
LOL. HOW AMUSING IS THAT!
and eileen was trying to protest.
lol but sadly, she's so obsessed with saying that the flowers make her feel loved that i have come to believe she really does want a boyfriend. LOL.

lalala and me and eileen took 190 home together!
she's got that way of making me laugh my heart out, even when i'm tired and all after all that dethorning. LOL.
that siao woman. haahahaha! xD

alright. there's a ginormous load to clear tonight.
ahhh. tomorrow's choir concert and i am FULLY BOOKED for the bloody day.
okay BYEEE!
gotta go mug math. eeks.

<3 gab
8:02 PM



woot ss and eng are over!
ss was okay, though i am not exactly confident i would score well this time round.
the 10 last time was a stroke of luck - i actually thought i would have failed. 0.o
alrights, it's OVER and i shan't talk about it anymore.
and eng. hmm alright lah.
not as hard as i expected it to be. xD HEHE.
but i spent a fricking hour on the summary like wth?
lol.

lalala!
OH AND JUST NOW DURING THE BREAK.
we went down for food and stuff.
then suddenly a bunch of girls started to SCREAM.
scream shriek shout yell. whatever. they sounded like they just saw a rat.
i thought it was a rat please.
until i saw the real cause of the noise: an injured bird fluttering around.
poor thing please.
the tuckshop aunties were trying to catch it but eventually resorted to trapping it underneath the plate collection point.
and nik was like saying that she was so sure the bird had bird flu.
heh it looked like it anyway.
when it was sitting on the floor, it was panting really really hard.
lol and shuna ran into the bird.
but i am still very amused at the fact that screaming is something that can happen just by domino effect.
i reckon some people scream and don't know what's happening. lol.
following the crowd.
amusing just the same.

before eng, everyone seemed so relaxed please!
lol. nothing to study what!
then we were discussing what movie to watch.
funny lah! then later i was talking to people outside about our ahem future.
and apparently, i said i did not wanna get married and yesyes, people start saying i would be the first.
like real. =.-'''
PLEASE. look at me! hahaha do i look marriable? lol no such word but i just coined it. LOL.
hahaha and yesyes, i got reminded of twins! WOOT.
hahahaa damn funny. =)
oh nik was talking about wanting an adidas watch for her bdae.
and maria started saying casio was better.
haha yeah, casio is good, but it's only eileen's casio which is really nice. xD HEHEHE.
adidas cannot afford, unless i get a fake one. LOL.
no lah. something else.

hmm then after eng, we went for lunch, me amy jiayue shuna and shara.
OMG shara is DAMN cute. =) hahaha.
although shara is the older twin right, shuna is always looking out for and looking after shara.
shuna accidentally bought a cheeseburger from BK and then cuz she doesn't like the cheeseburger, passed it on to shara.
shara started munching away happily, but then later she started to complain that the burger was too spicy. LOL.
then she kept whining about it but in a cute way duh.
lol it's so freaking funny please.
shuna was trying to appease her by wiping away some of the spicy sauce using a french fry.
but in the end, they abandoned the half-eaten cheeseburger. wahahaha!

i really really am very envious of some people with sibs. hahahaa.
not in the negative way lah.
i just want a sib!
SIB SIB SIB! WOOT WOOT.
okay some people with sibs may think i am NUTS to want a sib. HEH BUT I DON'T MIND HAVING A SIB, NOT AT ALL.
all these years alone are dumb please.
my parents don't even know what exactly goes on in my freaking life.
don't even know who my friends are.
lol. yeah my mum does to a certain extent.
but my dad? he's freaking clueless. =.-'''
hahaha if i had a sib i want her to be my TWIN! or if not twin, older sis!
i cannot imagine the idea of having an older bro. =.-'''
he might just piss me off.
one male in the family is irritating enough. LOL. xD
my dad is super corny so yeah.
haha. older sis is impossible and so's a twin.
hmm if my mum is still ahem fit enough, i want a younger sis. xD HEHEHEHE.
she'll prolly kill me when she sees this. LOL.
hahaa not like she's computer literate.
in fact, she doesn't know how to use a computer.
all she knows is that i am blogging.
AHAHAHA!

oh shucks.
and i just realised.
I AM STRAPPED FOR CASH.
again.
>< damn. i won't have money for presents for maomaodan and nik.
ahhhh. choir concert ticket!
WHO WANTS!
I WANT CASH.

blahblah.
i am tired.
shall go sleep.
wake up later.
then start mugging math.
then sleep at 12 am again.
LOL. xD

<3 gab
3:33 PM



lol back again. i just went to yingjing's blog and there's this poem that sounds darn cliché but yeah, it's true lah. okay maybe this is what some people need. right now. =)

Success is failure turned inside out
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must- but don't you quit!
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometime learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up, though the pace seems slow-
You might succeed with another blow...
Success is failure turned inside out-
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt-
And you can never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar,
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit-
It's when things get worse that you mustn't quit!
Edgar A. Guest

woot okay. shall return to work.
6:43 PM



supposed to be mugging social studies like a guai kia.
bleh. but i kind of mugged everything there is to mug. 0.o
and i am feeling horrendously unprepared.
and i kind of realised our class has missed out quite a bit.
other classes have loads of worsheets and notes.
we have surprisingly little of that. 0.o
should have gone to photocopy some of the notes but bleh.
i didn't. AHH.

today went quite okay.
physics. no comments anymore.
hmm and then on 190 i was sleeping.
hehehe. came home and slept again for 3 hours straight.
i champ the sleeping competitions man.
but ahwell the nap was kind of refreshing.
my lunch was pathetic.
it comprised of 5 quaker bars, a glass of milk, some potato chips, a banana and some of the bak kwa my parents bought.
xD HEH not pathetic but unbalanced. lollers.

lalala. there are some stuff to look forward to.
dates to look forward to!
26th May -> LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. xD
27th May -> WALES TRIP! WOOT.
12th June -> CAMP CAMP CAMP! =)
25th June -> hehehe. my bdae and the last day of the june hols.
26th June -> first day of school! first day of a new new new term!

hahaha. that's just about what i can look forward to! =)
but that's quite enough for me to carry on.
yeppp! =)

hmm and just to add.
i think pap is quite efficient.
but they are dominating the political landscape in singapore.
hahaha. okay cannot say anymore.
otherwise i would be sued.

lalala. I AM BORED!
my msn status is busy but i really am busy doing nothing.
roflmao.
finished my grapes.
one less thing to do.
blearghx. i shall just go read my ss notes again.

alrights! byee.

<3 gab
6:36 PM



i am currently hooked on an old song by the eagles. xD
haha. here's a section of the lyrics.

i was standing all alone against the world outside.
you were searching,
for a place to hide.
lost and lonely,
now you've given me the will to survive.
when we're hungry, love will keep us alive.

woot. i like. =) an old song but anyhow, it's nice! xD

oh and my stereo is playing two steps behind by def leppard. =)
it rocks a whole bunch.

whatever you do i'll be two steps behind you
wherever you go and i'll be there to remind you
that it only takes a minute of your precious time
to turn around; i'll be two steps behind.

hmm i will make it 1 step behind for my friends. =)
lalala. okay i better go back to mugging. =)

<3 gab
9:46 AM



apparently, my piano teacher discovered i haven't been practising for days on end.
bleh.
ahwell, made an empty promise to her that i would practise.
sheesh.

promises. funny things aren't they?
when you make a promise, you feel like you can do it right away and continue doing it forever.
but when you hit a rut, you feel like giving it up.

i've made a lot of promises
and i've met most of them except for two.
one is to practise my piano faithfully.
this i've not done it well.
gah.

not fulfilling the other promise makes me feel like a total asshole.
i swore something to someone and i am not doing what i said i would do.
well. i am sorry. it's just me i guess.
bleh. well. i swear i would keep the promise.
please wait. life's been really hard without those times we had.

okay i shall stop lamenting about promises not kept.
have to go mug physics.
i'm sorta dead.

<3 gab
1:22 PM



today's been quite a nice day.
yeeah! =)
hahaa i think my tablemates rock a whole lot! =)
haahahha.

physics was quite okay...understood what mr tay was trying to teach us.
HEH! i think i understand. i need to revise though. ><
I HAVE TO DO BLOODY WELL FOR THIS.
hmt we went through the mock paper. haha was quite bad but anyhow, I DID IT VERY LATE AT NIGHT, so very understandable. HEEE. excuses excuses. tsk tsk.
recess. did not go down, was busy discussing physics. HAHA. xD
assembly, for the first time, we were kind of on time.
hmm the election part was okay, until mrs tan took over the mike.
her voice is like an audio sleeping pill.
i felt like sleeping. ARGH.
and guess what followed that? CONGRESS. omg.
i really don't see the point of congress when the school admin doesn't take into account what we say. for example prep time. we need the time to do our work...yeah we do. it's like we have heavy cca commitments and sometimes working at home into the late hours of the night isn't exactly what we want, do we? I WANT PREP TIME. 4 blocks per week would be sufficient, on monday, tuesday, thursday and friday, one block on each of these days.
HEHEHE. =)

mmm then rs was kind of slacky.
nothing much to do.
hahaha, in fact NOTHING to do.
read calvin and hobbes.
DAMN CUTE. xD WOOT WOOT.

-calvin was daydreaming-
teacher: WE'RE STUDYING GEOGRAPHY! NOW WHAT STATE DO YOU LIVE IN?"
calvin: denial.
teacher: ...sighhhh..i don't suppose i can argue with THAT...

hmm in case you don't get the punchline here, state = a state in the US.
and apparently, calvin is trying to be funny.

then it was MATH!
omg. i am so dead.
i have to revise like siao.

okay gtg and do my homework.

BYE! AND GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS PEOPLE!

<3 gab
7:22 PM



this is a random post. hahaha. xD
am supposed to be doing work but i cannot concentrate.
very tired sleepy and groggy.

anyway. i think i shall just enjoy what i have left of term 2.
haha. meaning. no more spacing out, stoning, dao-ing, sulking..whatever-ing. lol.
yeeeep!

alrights that was entirely random but true.

and oh. i just have to say.
i miss FUBAR! =)
fubar'05 rocks my socks! woottt!
note: fubar here = friendly understanding boisterous amiable responsible. hmm it might have been different but yeah, that's basically it. oh and there was an s too! sexy. LOL. xD
fubar'05 consists of ivy me viv des sham and yile. hehehe! =)
wooottt. miss them all.
here's a group pic we had. =)

from left: sham, des, yile, viv, me and ivy. =) yeppers! the fubars. =) hahaha.

man. am missing the days where i love to go "ewww disgusting" whenever my groupmates say something that seem M18 to me or do something that is totally wayyyy out.
also am missing the days they are thinking of giving me their own brand of sex education. =.-'''
missing ivy's drawings.
missing viv's ahem molestations.
missing yile's smile.
missing des's kukuness and fun.
missing sham's sarcasm.

HAHA. =) yeppp!
now i do realise i miss 205'05.

alrights. back to work i go.

<3 gab
11:50 PM



2.4 today was okay i guess.
didn't get an A as i would have liked.
but still. with a humongous stitch that came when i was in the middle of my third/fourth round, 15:05 is quite decent, considering i have such lousy stamina.
B, but next year i swear it would be an A.

term 2's ending pretty soon.
and what can i say?
it hasn't been the best term.
in fact it's the worst so far.
i don't know why but it just seems that things are going into a complete mess,
ever since term 2 came along.
academically (meaning chem, ss and english), socially (meaning friendships), cca-ly (lol, dunno how to put it) blah blah blah.
EVERYTHING IS SCREWED, BASICALLY.
this term i was insecure and totally dreaded going to school. BLEH!

bleh. and today just before chem, i was stoning outside class.
felt bloody miserable somehow.
gah. this term sucked like hell.
well there's always next term. xD
HEH! =)
and my bdae to look forward to, regardless whether it's during hols or not, i don't care.
just that it's like a fresh start.
hahaha yep. one day before term 3.

okay i shall start counting down to my bdae. lol. however early it is to do so right now. xD
one month and 21 days! =)

alrights. gotta go do my homework.
and revision.
bleh.

adios

quote of the day
"draw a vertical line that is almost vertical."
ms neo. hahahaha! HOW CAN A VERTICAL LINE BE ALMOST VERTICAL?!
8:00 PM



Today's a normal day.
LALALA!
Okay.
Let's see.

Chem titration.
I finally got a reproducible result.
YAY.
Physics.
I realised I have a lot to revise.
And I am quite dead.
Recess.
Nothing special, in fact quite quiet.
Geography.
Freezing up front and nearly dead at the end of the block.
Went out to defrost.
English.
I was stoning until the vocab game we had.
Was game master for a while.
Then went back to play. xD
Bell rang and I went out to defrost again.
Yeah then went back in.
Quite interesting CLE lesson.
Got to write notes to people who need encouragement.
Did not know that i could write to friends and ended up writing to people i think who needed encouragement.
When I finally realised I can write to my friends I only wrote suchin's. =.-'''
I am so smart.
Yes I am wayyyy smart.
But if i had enough paper and enough time, would have written for nik manda amy andrea and eileen as well.

YEP!

okay back to work.
oh shucks there's 2.4 tomorrow.
i better get an A.

adios

quote of the day
"i cannot imagine sleeping with you."
charlene. sounds horrendously wrong. what she means is that she cannot believe we are roomies for the uk trip. triple-sharing per room. so it's me char and nik. hahaa and she says she'll prolly be affected by our craziness.
8:30 PM



"i'm related to people i don't relate to."
- calvin.

LOL. kind of true. calvin is freaking cute. okay disclaimer: this calvin is from calvin & hobbes. don't get wild ideas. okay xD HAHA.
lalala! he has a load more quotable quotes.
hmm here are some:
"i'm not dumb. i just have a command of thoroughly useless information."

"i quit doing homework. homework is bad for my self-esteem."

hobbes: "your self-esteem is enhanced by remaining an ignoramus?"
calvin: "please! let's call it 'informationally impaired.' "

calvin: "it's a crass culture, hobbes. shoddy and quick is all anybody knows."
hobbes: "artists always suffer."

calvin: "i've concluded that nothing bad i do is my fault."
dad: "oh?"
calvin: "right! being young and impressionable, i'm the helpless victim of countless bad influences! an unwholesome culture panders to my undeveloped values and pushes me to maleficence. i take no responsibility for my behaviour! i'm an innocent pawn! it's society's fault!"

calvin: "i take a passive entertainment and extend the passivity to my entire being. i wallow in my lack of participation and response. i'm utter inert. i can almost feel my neural transmitters shutting down."

alright. that's kind of enough. lala. i think nobody's gonna understand these quotes until they read the comic. ohwells. xD

--

lala okay update about today.

fine i guess.
pe was kind of okay. yep.
volleyball today was okay again.
hmm paired up with nik and we played a bit lahs.
last game i swapped partners and paired with bea.
hahaa. xD

then english. was nearly gonna fall asleep.
watched pretty woman till 130am please.
xD hehehe.
ms low was asking me why my hair was standing up.
okay it's unusual for my hair to stand up today.
i didn't even cut it. =.-'''

alrights and recess the pressure was on.
everyone is freaking about the SPA please.
wtf.
freaked me out as well.
but bio SPA was okay i guess.
though i didn't do very well.
so i guess it's byebye to an A+ for my bio.
woot woot and my 3.8 gpa.
sweet things never last.
hahaha weird. i've always been an advocate of positivity but somehow i have decided to be ironic for once. lollers.

hmm then chinese i wasn't paying much attention.
damn.
hahaha and i just found out jiayue was supposed to have a twin sister!
haha. hmm imagine if i have a twin. LOL.
that would be so fun.
somebody to talk to at least.
bah. the woes of being the only child.

lunch was spent doing titration.
and woot woot i managed to get something close to grey. xD yay!
gonna do well for titration. it was first run okay and it was something close to grey. xD
whoooo! XD
missed a bit of math as a result of trying to finish a second titration.
hahaha. math today was a chore.
never seen it as one before.
only today.
i was so freaking tired i fell asleep right under her nose.
nice ms neo didn't scold me.
but i feel darn guilty.
okay i swear i would stay awake for all my math lessons in future.

rs was another guilt and frustration causing period.
gthad! AH!
i should do more for smp. i feel like i am doing nothing.
okay correction i AM doing nothing.
it's like i don't have any interest in what we are doing.
okay i shall GENERATE interest. LOL.

but anyhow. GOLF WAS FUN.
with kimberly-ann tan a.k.a. MAOMAODAN around.
hmm she is nice. =)
yepp. at first i was hitting the balls like a piece of crap.
then she told me not to focus on hitting the ball.
focus on the follow-through.
i tried to woods right after she told me that.
and oh my freaking word.
i hit a darn good ball.
even luke said it's good. HEH.
alright!
i have at least some motivation to do my best for every golf session.
hmm i need extra practice.
yesyes.
hahaha and we did FIVE holes today.
and yes i lost a whopping grand total of FIVE balls today.
TWO met their ends in the water hazard.
THREE either got lost in a tall tree or hit against a tree and flew off somewhere else.
woot! I CHAMPED THE LOSING-BALL CHAMPIONSHIPS!
xD

cuz we did 5 holes today, me and jessie had to RUN to the bus.
nearly died man. hahaa i am gonna die for 2.4. darns it.

okay gtg and do homework.
bah no matter how much damage it causes my self-esteem.

oh shucks. there's meeting for wales trip tomorrow.
gah. now i am not looking forward to the trip anymore.
bleh. what's come over me?
gthad.

adios

quote of the day
"gardening."
to describe the accidental scooping up of grass and soil with the golf club while attempting to hit the ball; basically the upturning of vegetation with the clubface.

p.s.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY 205'05! <3
9:23 PM