doing chem now!
i shall be attempting my chem pt... in a short while.
HOHOHO. xD
tchr's day was quite okay.
the celebrations were rather bland.
and emcee-ing was uhm really bad.
i don't mean to be mean, but really. 0.o
that's the worst emcee-ing i've ever seen. 0.0
okay enough about the emcee's.
i felt the performances by the jazz duet was quite cool.
and i don't really like the dance items. HEH.
and and and. THE GB PLAY IS TOTALLY KEWL.
HAHAHAHAHA.
AH BENG BIO TEACHER.
TCME LANGUAGE TEACHER.
THEMONTHBEFOREJUNE/THEMONTHAFTERAPRIL TAN CHEM TEACHER.
PAULA HUANG THE LIT TEACHER (and there was another pun. mei3 SHI2 JIAN1 le! = si jian, ms huang's name! HAHA. I'M AMUSED.)
BUT. COLDMAN THE SS TEACHER TAKES THE CAKE DUDE.
HAHAHA. TOTALLY LOOKS, ACTS, WALKS AND SOUNDS LIKE MR CC. ZOMG!
ZHENER WAS EXACTLY LIKE CC.
ZOMG! HAHAHAHA. I WAS LAUGHING MY ASS OFF WHENEVER SHE LAUGHED THAT FAMOUS CC LAUGH AND SAID THOSE FAMOUS CC WORDS.
LOL. HAHAHAHHAA.
ZOMG! I'M STILL ROFLMAO-ING INSIDE. HAHAHA.
and and! PSEUDONYM WAS GOOD.
hahahah BEATLES POWER. dude. xD
they sang stuff like hey jude (which became TEACHERS in the song. and there was the part that went NANANANANANANA! so it effectively became SODIUM. NA you know. xD HEH.)
yesterday (about their GPA. xD HEH.)
help (basically around the same...hmmm)
baby you can drive my car
yellow submarine (something about the school... 0.o cannot rmb! zomg my memory sucks.)
let it be (letter B!)
ack. cannot remember! 0.o
overall, quite fun. xD HEH.

was sitting in front of triyono, who was SUPER displeased with the emcee's HAHA.
and i was sitting between xiaofei and nik. blehbleh.
the first part where the dance was taking place i was leaning backwards most of the time on triyono's knees. HAHA.
it's a rare thing she didn't turn verbally violent like she always does.
vulgarities. HAHA. she once said, "THE BEAUTY OF LANGUAGE LIES IN THE FACT THAT PEOPLE USE IT TO SPEAK VULGARITIES."
HAAHAHHAA. sage triyo.

anyway. HAVE TO GO DO CHEMMMM AND MATH.
dang! i shall finish my math, then my chem pt. HEHEHEHE.

BYEBYE!

<3 gab
3:48 PM



playing battleon/dragonfable, blogging and doing math.
woah. HOHO. i'll take some time to finish my math..i think. 0.o
LOL.
today's been okay.
and i realised. i did not even say a word to her today.
the initial feeling was sour, almost bitingly acidic.
it melted away.
so i guess, yesterday i was being emo. =.-'''
okay ahwell!
i shan't mope.
moping won't help will it.
hah.

lol. term 3 just ended like that.
everything just wooooooshed past.
one more term, and byebye sec 3.
it's sec 4 next year, dudes.
zomg.
i feel old. SIXTEEN.
dang!

and i totally DREAD going to JC.
what if people aren't nice.
what if people mug like siao there.
what if people change beyond recognition.
i hope not. BLEH.
graghh. i shouldn't be worrying about that just yet...
can leave it to next year, exactly around this time, when the EOYs are over for us.
now. i have to worry about the state of my bliddy graphs.
i can go and die.
mr ang can teach if it's like face to face.
but one person to all.
zomg. no no. his method of YOU DISCOVER IT FOR YOURSELF is so not going to work.
we may generally be okay at math.
but dude. people like me need to be taught before i learn anything.
true, people like huanchin and bea don't need to be taught.
but not ME!
=.-''' pissifying.
i have to EDUCATE myself.
ahhh. MS NEO. I DESPERATELY NEED YOU BACK.
but ahwell! HAVE A GOOD REST. =)

nevermind that, i shall continue math..
i will add anything once something comes into mind. LOL. HAHA
meanwhile, i'm listening to my mp3 too!
wheee me = multitasker!
me = pro. xD HAHA.
ego lah. dang. it's been a long time since i've been ego.

okay back to work...
toodles!

<3 gab

- 5:42pm.

cut at - 8:05pm

hmmm. nothing much.
still doing my bloody math.
finished smp poster editing (again =.-''') just now.
and had dinner.
i wonder why those people i usually talk to aren't online!
hrrrmph.

okay byebye!

<3 gab
8:06 PM



missing from the equation that used to be.
i thought i was well over it.
but i guess i am still not.
i was numbing myself.
i cannot seem to forget.

everytime it's recess or lunch.
i see people pairing up, people going in groups.
going downstairs just to have some time eating together.
and i'm alone trying to hook up with someone to go down with.
cuz i know you'll be going with someone else.
then i realise: i am friends with these people i know in this class
yet i'm not on the same wavelength as they are.
nobody has really been.
as much as i've talked to some people in and out of class.
except you.

i know all of this is too late.
and i just wish i can put all of this behind.
erase memories? no chance baby.
so i guess that's what's holding me back.
i can't bring myself to forget everything.
it's just too hard.
i told myself it's a lesson learnt.
yeah it is, but it's still a memory.
a memory stuck to the back of my mind like a wad of gum.

i reckon.
whoever i meet now along the way have their own wavelengths.
each and every one something different from mine.
a different frequency.
i wonder how long it would take for me to find another.
it took me 5 years to find you.
after my p4 best friend.
it's painful.
excruciating is too strong a word yeah.
but if you want me to put it in one word.
painful.

i just read an online message from claire.
thanks yeah. and i send lots of love as well.
i know i shouldn't be moping.
but. i can't help but do so.
it's a PMS day.
so. DANG.
what a lame excuse.
now i'm damn emo. DANG.
shall get back to work.

<3 gab
8:10 PM



PMS DAY!
but i'm fine now.
i guess.
hoho.
pe was fine, just that i don't get rugby. =.-''
math, as usual, i was surviving pretty well on my own with evelyn and huanchin and whoever who wasn't exactly paying much attention to ang.
but i did a question on the board and got a CHOCOLATE BAR! <3
wahh. free recess dude. xD
and chocolate's my fave. wheeee. =)
recess basically, i was catching up on math and stuffs.
so i didn't go down. HEH.
bio was up next.
it was kind of slackkkk. watched the video!
the male whale is very very uhm. well endowed, if you ask me.
the ______ is like 12 feet long.
0.o'''''
and the perverse thing is.
a couple of males try to force the female to mate.
then the female relents. =.-''
no comments, really. 0.0
chinese...was slack again.
tingxie is tomorrow.
whoever told me it was today.
GTHAD.
i wasn't here on friday, you see.
so yeah.HEH.
LUNCH!
and i ate a lot. as usual.
i decided not to care and just eat. HAHA.
then go run/swim.
when i feel like it. xD
okay then after that.
i was a bit PMS about some weird thing.
i went up to class, only to realise the shooters have left our class netball in the netball cage.
DOWNSTAIRS OUTSIDE PE DEPT.
zomg. i kind of lost it.
i was like talking kind of loudly.
and to think of it. i think i was DUMB.
i really should sms shihui an apology for yelling.
okay not yelling, just sounding angry and pissed.
which i honestly was.
but still, i shouldn't have lost it.
bah. my temper flares really easily, esp. around this time. =.-'''
ANYWAY.
i was frigging late for chem.
0.o
amanda helped me take my stuff! whee <3 you.
haha. =) thanks yeah. xD
mmm then i realised. MY BLACK PEN WAS IN CLASS!
after ms chun finished explaining, i made an excuse that i wanted to go toilet.
the lab was on the second floor, and to go to class, i had to pass by the backdoor of the lab, which would be ahem, suspicious.
and now i still cannot believe what i did for the pen.
i took the toilet way, ran up the stairs to the third floor, then ran towards the third floor staffroom, took a turn and went down the central staircase.
2nd floor and i went back to class and got my pen.
and i took the same route back.
no-one was on the lab corridor, so i slipped into the toilet to wash my face and make myself look less flustered.
just when i came out, i saw MS CHUN.
wah, close shave. 0.o
to think of it, i must have been nut.
but that run made me calmer about being pms.
still, I THINK I WAS NUT.
thank god i understood todays experiment! WHEEE. xD HAHA.
rs we just sat there and listened to presentations.
it was quite comprehensive and enriching.
lol i like wong yingqi's machine thing. SO COOL.
and the bulletproof thing. the silicon carbide coated with epoxy.
it's actually COARSE silicon carbide that's better. the fine one shatters easily.
epoxy has different kinds and the one that they used was HP 112, if i am not wrong.
epoxy is made from animal waste. LOL. and we use it quite a lot during our SMP model building. HEH.
LOL. but anyway! our poster looks less wordy than huanchin's.
but huanchin's one looks chimmer.
FERROFLUID! viscosity thing. higher the temperature, the lower the viscosity. xD
ahha yeah.
then i went back to class.
the stupid PMS bug kicked in again.
nik wrote a fake booking message.
and i sort of believed in it.
so when i realised it was fake, i was all irritated.
and yet again, when i got to the bus stop and mulled over it, i realised again, I WAS BEING DUMB.
sheesh. dang it lah. so just sms-ed sorry.
bleh, whatever. my pms days are just so sucky.
but ahwell, there are nice times!
hohoho.

dang. i don't feel like going to school from tomorrow onwards.
but cannot!
i have to go.
there's lsl meeting with mrs ban tomorrow!
pt's and rev for the hols:
1. SS PT (killer dude. i hope i can come up with something nice)
2. PHY PT (alamak. i have to get my ass down and read ultrasound)
3. CHEM PT (one hour pt, should be fine. xD)
4. MATH REV (my test is on 13TH SEPTEMBER)
5. CHEM REV (i'm quite behind...)
6. BIO REV (info overload.)

yeah. 0.o
this is what i have to do in...let's see.
i still have hse camp, golf farewell camp and njrc competition.
hmm meaning.
i'm gonna be living in school for three days!
cuz hse camp is from 4th to 5th.
and golf farewell camp is from 5th to 6th. xD
HAHA. two nights.
njrc at singapore sci centre.
not involved...but i'm going down to support. HAHA. xD
meaning. i have only thursday and my weekend before and after sept hols for work.
this is hell!
but ahwell. CAN DO IT.

okay i shall stop talking.
hoho. and do work.
tingxie tomorrow! HMPH.

byebye!

<3 gab
5:56 PM



FRICK.
i think i'm having a major problem with my body image. 0.o
my mum's been telling me i'm fat.
it's the first time in ages she's telling me that.
DANG.
it's seriously making me not feel like eating.
i didn't go for recess today. period.
it's quite unlike me to do so.
ARGH.
just now i was gonna eat some rice crackers.
but my mum was like.
"you are fatter now you know. that shirt used to be loose on you."
LIKE WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. this shirt i'm wearing, i wore it in p6?!
and besides, i still fit into one of the shirts i had back in p2 okay.
yeah i was chubby and round when i was younger, bothering on overweight.
but now. DANG.
okay i just typed the eff word just now and erased it.
hrrrrmph.
i'm just super pissed.
telling me i'm fat + time of the month = super bad mood.

SHIATS.
I SHALL GO RUN ON THE TREADMILL AFTER DINNER.
dinner shall just be like two scoops of rice or something. 0.o DANG. I'LL DIE OF HUNGER.
shiat. nvm. i shall just eat and go run at 830. 0.0

ALAMAK. GABRIELLE NG. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU.
YOU NEVER USED TO EXERCISE OR OBSESS ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT.
ZOMG.
0.0

okay i shall chill.
dang.
i'll go run later.
set.

okay. bye.

ahh. I FEEL MISERABLE. 0.0'''
5:30 PM



supposed to be doing math like some maniac now.
but. i cannot help but think that people's the hardest part about living in this world.
there are so many things i've experienced in 3/4 of this year.

one thing for sure, is that there is no forever to anything in relationships.
forever would come to an end, one day, some day.
so best friends forever is bulls***. best friends for long time is yeah, understandable for some rare cases.
nothing lasts forever.
it'd die one day. i think.

and yeah, nobody is really who they seem until you spend time to go look underneath the surface, the masquerade that people kind of inevitably put on to go to school.
they never show how they are inside.
me included.
you might think i'm just some person who laughs a whole lot and talks very loudly and whatnot.
but seriously, i'm an emo kid with tremendous mood swings whose periods can match those of jasmine's 2000Hz screaming.
and whatever i tell to some people is just the tip of the iceberg to who i really am.
you can never give someone all of you, cuz there are some things you cannot tell that someone, be it your boyfriend or best friend.
anyhow. you can never fully understand someone.
and i cannot either.
there are so many gazillion things you never know about your friends.
be it good or bad. (and i hope it's the former for all of my friends. lol.)

anyway.
there's still the same old thing about balancing your social status and stuff.
like not being bogged down by a clique.
not becoming an anti-social.
and not becoming a yappy fake crowd pleaser.
(yes i hate crowd pleasers, who go with the flow.
it's like they have no minds of their own.
and do things to maintain their perfect image.
come on. no-one's perfect/unstained. )
avoiding becoming all these, is HARD.
keeping your own identity and individuality in this society is so difficult.
you cannot do it without offending someone.
as much as you want to make it hurt-free.
but dang. being a part of this society is just full of perils.
like. you do something out of the norm or something that some people cannot tolerate.
zomg, be ready for some backstabbing.
i've been part of backstabbing before.
and i've been a victim as well.
so i've been there, done that and experienced that.
and the feeling is guilt, more guilt and even more hurt.
so backstabbing is seriously off-limits for me.
if you want to talk about someone, please, go tell the person what you really think.
before things get out of hand.
and one fine day, you experience the feeling of people talking behind your back, you won't think it's a zi4 zuo4 zi4 shou4 thing. you'd feel unjustified. it's more than you ever thought of.
cuz i've been there before.

and gragh.
here comes the most confusing one.
i don't know how to phrase it.
but me and manda have discussed it numerous times.
we have many many intellectual talks.
and lol, really serious ones i mean.
where we talk and reflect and come up with theories and conclusions.
and sometimes we fall out but somehow weirdly be able to patch up again.
okay maybe that's cuz we have quite a lot in common.
1. we are both straight-talking people! (yay. hurray for straight-talking)
2. we are emo kids.
3. we tend to get a bit judgemental (i only began this year. =.-''').
4. we get pms-y sometimes and get really snappy and mean.
5. we confide a lot in each other, though we aren't best friends or whatever.
6. we can complete each other's sentences.
7. we never seem to be able to leave the past behind.
8. we both say we don't care about something anymore, but deep in our hearts, we know we do.
9. we had quite a number of similar feelings and thoughts about some people.
10. we don't believe in forever.
hah. this is just the few i can think of now. and it's already 10.
LOL. hohoho. manda's not really my best friend or something, but we talk a lot to each other.
and what do we have here? a weird friendship which may just be able to last for a long time.
until something really bad splits us up. 0.o i don't want to think of this just yet.
okay back on track.
well this thing i'm thinking about. it's related to everything we discussed.
but it's something i thought about when discussing.
hoho.
i know i've said i've given up on best friends, but yet again, the stupid syndrome of saying i don't care, but i actually care comes back.
so.
how do you know if you've found him/her.
i use to think it's the feeling.
so just run along with it.
but i guess the first feeling of liking for that person may not last.
and the real liking feeling only comes later after some tribulations and exultations.
yet, sadly, i've not really experienced the later.
haha. so i'm basically.
blind about this.
dang. and because of that, something i thought would last didn't, cuz i jumped into it.
literally.
it's like whambang, after 1 short month, we're best friends.
it was quite impulsive i know.
and now i'm in the same dilemma.
but i guess i'll take my time with this person this time round.
otherwise, like i said before to andrea i think, it'd be like getting married too soon.

ahwell.
guess it's back to math.
bye!

<3 gab
12:49 PM



DANG.
i'm feeling pissed.
at everything.
suddenly.
I DON'T WANT TO PMS.

okay i'm sorry alright.
whatever i said, i just meant it like i said it.
nothing more than that.
so just ignore me for a good few days.
not a good time of the month to come tell me such things.

graghh.
9:03 PM



HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUV & TRIYONO! <3

hahaha. it's their birthday today! LOL.
we had netball training early in the morning.
i could hardly wake up. DANG.
but i still did.
was listening to my mp3 all the way to school.
got the netball from class and went downstairs to wait for the people to come.
nik dropped by to run us through some drills.
then we played street netball, meaning, there aren't any positions.
haha and i shot 3 goals. xD WOOT.
then we took a break before continuing with proper netball, although we were short of GK's on both sides.
my shooting got a bit erratic but ahwell, fatigue. 0.o
and i tried my hand at being centre.
BUT ZOMG. my stamina died on me.
good job to everyone.
wenda's good at passing and catching and blocking.
maybe she should be centre. LOL.
i'm just thinking. HEH.
i am comfortable with GA.
can move around + shoot. HOW MUCH BETTER CAN IT GET. xD
hmm and chunyue observed that me manda and xiaofei have good chemistry.
lol chunyue was like some netball assesser. okay she is.
she was like hold a notepad, write our names and see what we're good at and what we aren't.
then she comes up and tells us.
LOL. xD HAHAHA.
it was fun really.
though my legs are aching.
and so are my arms.
0.o anaerobic respiration!
ahahahaha. lactic acid!
okay, i am not a bio pro;
i'm just spouting phrases that i learnt from bio lesson.
hahahaa. and laasya knows how to shoot now.
SO I GUESS. she'll be GS! along with suv that is.
and i can safely be some other role! WOOT.
i was stuck in the GS position for TWO years.
so yeah, you can imagine the feeling of being able to be something else.
GS is stressful dude.
and i don't want to get all dirty-mouthed over a miss.
ahwell. so i guess and i hope i'll get GA!
bea has to learn to be less violent. 0.o
otherwise, we'd be dq'd in no time dude.
and ouch for wenda, as manda says.
hmm and manda said i was like a dictator.
and that i didn't smile.
well. i'm sorry if i sounded like i'm bossing you guys around,
cuz i was just trying to get things started.
and that i didn't smile, cuz i was just. into the game.
maybe i should stop being so serious about things.
okay you know what. WHATEVER.
i shall just smile more next time.

after netball. slacked around in the canteen till it was time to go.
mich from uk trip came around to talk as well. hahahaa.
we ended up throwing milo cereal balls into the air and trying to pop them into our mouths.
I WAS PRO OKAY.
mich was trying very hard.
but she only got one in, with my help HAHAHA.
i got to my piano teacher's house like 15 minutes late.
but i made up for it with my well-practised one section of piece C, the whole of pieces A and B.
WOOT.
then...went to IMM and bought the bag i was saving up for. HAHA.
so accomplished okay.
was bored so i went to the bookshop and sat there reading some dumb old book.
claire was sms-ing me about tall shoes. hmm. hahaha and how singaporean guys are short.

danggg. and came home after dinner!

sheesh.
got work to do.

byeeee!

<3 gab
8:53 PM



maybe i was just delusioning (is there such a word?) myself.
i cannot keep up with this.
not academics but something else.
dang.
why can't relationships be clean-cut.
but if they are, they wouldn't be interesting anymore.
sometimes, you get all high and happy.
at other times, stuff will get you down just like that.
i don't know if this might be real.
and i don't know if ______ thinks the same.
and i don't know if i am making ______ a substitute for someone i lost.
i am probably not making much sense.
but ahwell.
have to get this out.
meanwhile. i'll stop being hypersensitive.

dang it, i crave my bed.
but i've slept for 4 hours straight in the afternoon.
I should really sleep anyhow.
okay bye!

<3 gab
12:44 AM



woke up earlier than i intended to this morning.
got to school at like 645.
THAT'S MUCH EARLIER THAN I USUALLY DO.
i usually reach school at like sayy 7 to 710. HAHA.
the latest being 715 once, because the bus was stuck in a jam (not the one you eat).
got to class and dozed for a moment or two.
then read the letter claire wrote before chionging a reply in a record time of 5 minutes!
couldn't have done that in a test. LOL. HAHAHA.
but anyway. went downstairs with the rest of the 301 people.
passed by and saw claire so passed her the letter.
anyway. suchin was being ego about her arm hair again. LOL.
she says it's stylo. yes yes. =.-'''
hahaha.

hmm. first lesson.
SS. WAH. THE PON STAR DIDN'T COME AGAIN!
=.-''' bzzk.
but i did productive work alrights! i did my MATH!
WHOO.
HAHAHA. I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED DUDE.
anyway.
then chinese. left halfway. wahhahaha.
and prgs golf tournament was kind of funny.
we were there just to stick stickers on the golf bags. HAHAHA.
then there were ALL KINDS OF WEIRD NAMES.
and i'm proud to say, I STUCK MRS CARMEE LIM'S STICKER ON HER GOLF BAG! hahahaha.
she knows how to play golf! coolio. xD
then saw mrs tan as well. HAHA. xD
the lunch there was quite good.
the chicken rice is heaven.
alyssa's mum sent me to the mrt! LOL. HAHA. alyssa looks just like her mum. zomg. HAHA.
carbon copy. 0.o

anyway. have to go do some stuffs. DANG.
bye!

<3 gab
9:25 PM



Went for my first MUSTAPHA (pronounced "mustafa") today.
In case you're wondering what is that, it is Monthly Ultimate Super Tantalizing And Power House Adventures, aka Monthly House Comm Meetings.
Yes, the wonderful creative invention of the richard capts.
It was quite okay.. just that, there are so many sec 1's and 2's.
0.o

Anyway. I was PMS-y today.
For the WHOLE DAY.
Dang. Official PMS day. 0.o
PE was kind of okay.
But when chem came, I was irritated easily and yeah, basically, pissed off with everything.
Became super snappy and cursed like the master herself, triyono.
AHWELL.
then recess, i calmed down a bit and visited my blog to check for the post!
hahahaha thanks claire. xD HAHA. <3
hohoho. yes you invaded my post. xD
anyway. then it was uhhh. GEOG. yeah geog.
Ms Foo wore BLACK today.
HEH. and cream pants. HMMM. not so much of frumpy farmer today.
I was kind of tired duuring geog... so when she was explaining chem weathering, i was falling asleep.
But I still managed to take notes in my semi-awake mode.
I'm proz alrights.
english up next and i was totally struggling to keep my head straight on my shoulders.
but when it was like 10 minutes before lunch, hunger pangs struck and i was wide awake staring at the clock.
HOHO. xD i'm such a glutton.
gah, i have to watch my appetite.
i cannot afford to gain anymore weight. ><
i had a temptation to eat a mudpie just now, but i'm drinking water to drown out that craving.
high metabolism rate isn't gonna save my ass this time round.
puberty has finally taken its toll on my weight.
dang.
on second thought, I WANT TO GROW TALLER TOO! hahaha THREE MORE CENTIMETRES.
and zomg, 170 is mine. HEH.
I WILL GROW.
MILK MILK MILK!
but i won't be like triyono who is ABSOLUTELY NUT about being more than 170m tall. 0.o
she has all the updates on how to grow taller.
HAHA.

lunch i went down.. and realised. I'M NOT POOR. just that i'm saving up for this bag i saw at mini toons.
FIRST thing i'm saving up for alrights. i feel so proud of myself, but i starved during lunch. BLEH.
went to check class tray, which was STUFFED to the brim. zomg.
HAH. but anyway. went back to class and discovered the dumb teacher was there alr.
math was a total flop.
first time in rg history, i DID NOT pay attention in math.
i was totally doing chem calculations under my table.
HAHAHA. and i'm proud to say, I'VE FINISHED IT.
hohoho.
then last lesson, BIO.
dang, at least a GOOD LESSON to end off this pms-y day.
hahaha it's hilarious alright!
here's the story we heard:

One day, PM Lee and Dr M (the PM of M'sia last time) were together at some place. PM Lee was controlling the fish in the fish tank, making it swim left or right just by forcing it do so using his eyes. Dr M, curious about this phenomenon, asked PM Lee how he did it. PM Lee simply said that the more brilliant mind controls the weaker mind. So, Dr M tried to. But in the end, he ended up opening and closing his mouth, just like the fish in the tank.

HOHO. this is a harmless little joke.
HOHO. no innuendo intended.
HAHA. JUST HILARIOUS.

basically. it was then MUSTAPHA.
then robotics.
then home.
zomg it was quite embarrassing on the bus.
i fell alseep.
and i knocked into this young punk's shoulder. 0.o
DANG.
i was so embarrassed. ach.
0.0

anyway. i should go play the piano.
byeee!

<3 gab
7:35 PM



I think today’s been really weird.
It started out being dumb and all.
Gah. What do you expect?
An intriguing chem lesson? Rarely.
I couldn’t get some of what Ms Chun was saying.
And I felt immensely dense.
But SS lightened me up a little.
It was hilarious, really.
We were talking about BOYS.
Yes you saw it right. BOYS.
DANG IT. It was the stupidest thing to talk about .
But a welcome change from talking about hydrogen ions and dibasic acids.
We listed stuff like. IRRITATING. CHAUVANISTIC. DOGMATIC. IMPULSIVE.
Many more but hahaha. I CANNOT REMEMBER.
My memory is FAILING me. Danggg.
Ahwell. Then. It was recess!
Was talking to CC for a while after SS was over.
He said something that was sensible: “If you have nothing good to say, then don’t say.”
Hmm. Guess so. I agree. For the first time in history.
(Oh it rhymes. I AM A POET.)
And Chinese. ZOMG. SLACKY. =)
Then hahaha career guidance I had absolutely nothing better to do.
So I was there writing in my new journal book which I got from UK! (I MISS UK)
And reading my oral speech.
And irritating jasmine for the fun of it.
And later I got suv eileen jasmine and nik to write on a fresh page in the journal!
Hohoho so fun!
That reminds me of the times when I was a primary 6 kid.
I was asking around for the data stuffs of people.
It was all in my mickey mouse book.
Each data entry consisted of the name, age and you know that kind of thing.
Even had fields like “gold friends”, “silver friends” and “bronze friends”, to start with.
IT WAS ABSOLUTELY HILARIOUS.
How naïve we were.
LOL. BUT ANYWAY.
CLE I took char’s place at the peer sharing thing.
It was quite inspiring.
I WANT THE VIDEO.
WOOT.
And the sentence that I remember the most is:
“Don’t give up on anyone.
Miracles happen every day.”
=) YUPYUP. Miracles do happen.
But I guess for the matter on my mind, even the world’s greatest miracle wouldn’t revive it.
I AM ready to move on.
Yeah. I am not going to worry anymore.
It gives me tumours in my brains.
OKAY. CHOY.
-And touches wood

ORALS WERE GREAT.
HOHOHO. MR JTOH ACTUALLY SAID I WAS GOOD. xD

Anyway.
Life’s good so far.
I am generally happy.
Although sometimes I still crave for a someone in my life.
GAH. I really shouldn’t be.
Cuz I’ve sworn to have given up on it.
OKAY NVM. I SHALL GO CHECK ON CLAIRE.
See if she found the journal thing yet.
HEHEHE. Okay cya.

<3 gab

Quote of the day
“SLEEVELESS BLUE UNIFORM.”
Mr colman chua. =)

HI I LOVE CLAIRE SHE IS POSTING THIS FOR ME.
(ha ha LOTRs win at life. I have just invaded your post, Gab :D <3)
8:39 AM



Here's two tests thingers to take up the space.
hahahaa. before i get into the blogging mood.

Test 1:
Have You...
[x] hugged someone in school?
[ ] gotten a detention?
[x] cried in school?
[x] made new friends?
Total: 3

[ ] gone to a dance?
[x] watched a football game?
[x] watched a soccer game?
[ ] watched a baseball game?
[x] watched a basketball game?
Total: 3

[ ] watched a tennis match?
[ ] watched a softball game?
[x] watched a track meet?
[ ] watched a volleyball game?
[x] stood up for someone being made fun of? [long long time ago though]
Total: 2

[ ] broken up with someone during school?
[ ] argued with a teacher?
[x] got a 100% on a test?
[x] walked to school? [when i was in yewtee primary, it's right opposite my condo. xD]
[x]drove to school / driven to school been driven?
Total: 3

[x] got dropped off at school?
[x] heard a rumor about yourself?
[ ] gone to school under the influence?
[x] did something illegal at school?
[ ] missed school when you weren't sick?
Total: 3

[x] failed a test? [A MATH. xDHEHEHEHE. my two failures in secondary school life are both a math tests.]
[ ] failed a class?
[x] made up an excuse for homework not being done?
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ] crushed on a teacher? [HAHAHAHA NO. HAHAHAHAHA I'M AMUSED. HAHAHAHA.]
Total: 3

[ ] hit on a teacher? [oh dang that's WRONG.]
[x] hate a teacher?[OH HO HO. MARSHMALLOW IS A TOTAL MORON. you don't have to know who marshmallow is. xD]
[x] was involved with a sport?
[ ] on student council?
[ ] in a club?
Total: 2

[x] got a scholarship?
[x] got an award? [in primary school for being a model prefect. HAHA. i give you permission to laugh. on some days, my socks are so low they disappear into my shoes.]
[x] fallen asleep in school? [DUH. JUST DID TODAY. AHHAHAAHA. TPP'S LESSON ON LIGHT IS BORING.]
[ ] gotten into trouble for falling asleep in class?
[ ] had your phone go off in class?
Total: 3

[ ] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class?
[x] eaten lunch in the bathroom?
[ ] missed a week of school or more at once?
Total: 3

Do You/Did You/Will You?...
[x] enjoy school? [cuz of the friends, the teachers and sometimes the lessons. LOL]
[x] excited for summer
[x] taking summer school?
[x] have a summer job?
[x] going somewhere?
Total: 5

30 x 2 = 60.School is 60% exciting. aw come on. i'm sure it's more than just 60% exciting for me. LOL. HAHAHA. this is just a test and has its own limits. XD LOL I'M CRAPPING LAH.

Test 2:
What does your name mean?

trying this out LOL. patience. for a long name like mine. DANG.

G: You are very friendly and understanding
A: YOU'RE A HOTTIE (=.=)
B: you are loved by alot of ppl (not really. LOL.)
R: Someone loves you (well. must have one de lah. otherwise damn sad-ded.)
I : Love is what u are deeply in (hmm... =/)
E: You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people (yeah yeah sure! i miss uk trip!)
L: You always make other people smile when you smile (OF COURSE! MY TEETH SO NICE.)
L: You always make other people smile when you smile (and there are other people whose smiles are nice and may or may not be contagious!)
E:You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people

N: your love is unforgettable (i hope so. yeah. i don't reckon i'll forget anything that's got to do with love in my lifetime. HOHO. so i hope my love is unforgettable for some people in my life.)
G: You are very friendly and understanding

X: You never let people tell you what to do (yeah of course. never dictate what i do. HAHAHA.)
I: Love is what u are deeply in (probably.)
N: your love is unforgettable

H: You have very good personality and looks (HOHO personality yes but looks. 0.o)
A: YOU'RE A HOTTIE (=.=)
N: your love is unforgettable

C: you're wild and crazy (hoho when i'm high)
H: You have very good personality and looks
E: You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people
R: Someone loves you
Y: you make every experience great (YEAH!)
L: You always make other people smile when you smile

HERE ARE ALL THE ALPHABETS! go piece your names together. LOL. xD
and claire. go look at the letter "O". ZOMG. HAHAHA. IT'S HILARIOUS. HAHAHA.
and manda. LOOK AT YOURS TOO. lol. xD HAHAHA.

A : YOU'RE A HOTTIE
B : you are loved by alot of ppl
C : you're wild and crazy
D : You have trouble trusting people
E : You are always fun when it comes to meeting new people
F: People totally adore you
G : You are very friendly and undestanding
H : You have very good personality and looks
I : Love is what u are deeply in
J : Everyone loves you
K : You like to try new things
L : You always make other people smile when you smile
M : You are handsome, and sexy
N : your love is unforgettable
O : You love foreplay
P : You are very friendly and understanding
Q :You are a hypocrite
R : Someone loves you
S : People think you are so sexy
T : You are one of the best in love
U : You are really chill
V: Your friendliness attracts people
W : You are very broad minded
X : You never let people tell you what to do
Y : you make every experience great
Z : You're Super cool

okay anyway.
i've got to go wash my dinner stuffs.
brb to blog. xD HEH.

hmm. today's been pretty okay.
pe. went down to netball courts and saw some people playing with netballs. AHH. I WANT TO.
okay nvm. saturday can play le. LOLLERS.
yeah! XD
went up to the hall to do aces day prac.
the dumb music was SCREWED i tell you.
hmph. and the air con was mysteriously malfunctioning.
but anyway. saw claire in the hall. HAHA. that bobohead was still wearing her prefect badge and her name tag. LOLZ.
talked for a while then lalala went for touch rug.
zomg. HAHAHA. SO DUMB. i am not into the game now. LOL.
but it's still fun lah.
although we keep not being able to score anything. LO. xD
FWAHAHAHA. xD

math. and ms neo wasn't here. 0.o
met the new math teacher. ZOMG.
he is un-understandable.
i NEED ms neo back.
he keeps asking us to solve the problems ourselves and teach ourselves.
hmph. his method of teaching may go down well with math freaks.
but not me. gah. i'm lazy to think.
okay maybe that's why my a math is horrible.
normal math at least sometimes i think and i get it.
ahwell. i hope i wouldn't die for math for the rest of the year.

recess and i went downstairs. lalala. had milo DRINK and milo CEREAL. xD HOHO.
me milo machine. xD =)
hoho i sound like some milo crazed fan.
hey, i'm not the only one! PEIZHI is a milo pok as well.
then it was... BIO!
hoho interesting as always.
mr lim's BDAE!
HOHO. SANG HIM HAPPY BIRTHDAY. =))
lalalala. and he brought coffee today.
zomg the smell of coffee makes me SLEEP.
so i was struggling to stay awake.
><
CHINESE WE HAD A SLACKER PERIOD! =) XD
wooooot.
basically re-watched the best of the chi pt presentations. xD
but still got homework. BLEH BLEH.

lunch and i went down with manda.
didn't know what to buy. LOl.
stood there for an age (i am joking) before going for milo + hello panda + watermelon.
HAH. i'm lazy to queue up la. NO PATIENCE.
claire was at the nasi padang stall buying tofu rice and something else. hmm cannot remember. LOL.
went back to where the bunch of 301-ers were sitting.
and started to eat.
lol and triyono is funny, as usual. HAH.
next lesson spells boredom and more boredom: physics.
zomg. i fell asleep.
and rs. spent most of the time at the DUMB talk in the CLC.
hahahaha. but at least i did some of my homework. LALALA.
finally 4pm came and i went home lahs.
the bus stop gate was closed so i took the foyer way.
heard the elds people singing on the second floor.
something that sounded like a beatles song. hmm was it "let it be"?
sounded like it. xD
waved goodbye to claire and suv.
dang and the bus took a century to arrive.
=.-'''
was editing my eng speech on the bus lah.
dang, i hope that jtoh would be nice.
heard that he asks a lot of chim chim questions.
so i guess it's fingers crossed till tomorrow ends.

i wasn't just editing my eng speech on the bus though.
was thinking about so many things that i thought my head would burst.
and esp, with all the songs playing on my mp3.
i put it on shuffle.
but all the songs that came out were emo-fied.
=.-''' LOL. so yeah. thought about a lot of emo things.
but i still came to the same conclusion:
love like you'll never get hurt;
but when you do, get over it and try again.
well for the time being, i shall just see how things go.
on a random note. loving someone is different from being in love with someone. right?
gah. english.

alrights. PIANO TIME.
i swear i'll prac.
xD HARD.

okay byebye!

<3 gab
7:19 PM



giving someone the benefit of the doubt can be quite hard to do for a prolonged period of time i guess.
benefit of the doubt. is it believing people for the good they are, no matter how little or how much it is?
but being able to do this would be like agape. you don't care whether person is actually more bad than good or the other way around.
you just be nice all the same.
you'd need plenty of trust and love, and faith just to do that.
ahwell. i don't know what i'm rambling on about.
sheesh.

haha. is it possible for someone to be too nice?
i've got SOME people telling me i'm nice.
and SOME people who are just SO BLIND like jasmine, who says i'm mean ALL THE TIME.
HOW UNTRUE.
just because you (jasmine) are so easily bully-able. LOL. xD HAHAHAHA.
lol cannot help it man, everyone wants to bully you. AHHAHAA. cuz you're easily agitated.
and when you're agitated, you look and sound very hilarious.

anyway, back to topic about being nice.
i guess being nice isn't about being taken advantage of.
i really do think that way.
as in, you choose to be nice or not towards people in general.
like you choose to do to others what you want others to do to you.
okay i admit i'm not always ms nice girl, cuz i've dao-ed people, suan-ed some people and snapped at people as well.
nobody's perfect yeah.
yet haha. being nice has to be genuine. at the very least.
i can solemnly swear that everytime i've been nice, i meant it.
i don't know, but sometimes i think i'm a bit too uh. soft?
as in i give in to others a bit too easily.
and i become nice, inevitably.
hoho. so that's how nice becomes too nice.
gah, i'm probably not making a lot of sense.
in general, i'm nice to people, so i'm a nice person. HAHAHA. =)
but sometimes, i don't want to be JUST nice.
maybe something more.
but that something more, not a lot of people can find it right.
dang.

that brings me to something else.
i think i've lost all hope on best friends.
good friends, possible.
but best?
i don't even know the definition of best friends.
all the stuff they keep talking about in those sappy books.
i really want to believe that, but it's bordering on impossible dude.
gah. it's like you go into a best friendship full of hope and absolutely drowned in happiness.
then you come out dejected, hurt and crying.
sigh. ahwell.
letting go is the hardest part.
took me a good, say, 2 months to accept it.
and now, no matter how alone it seems for me to be in 301, i know at least there are some people i can talk to.
so thank god for them. really.
hoho.
at least there's something to look forward to every day.

ahwell.
that's the end of my emo post. HAHA. is it emo?
lol i've had more emo ones.
but heh.
okay gtg and mug chem. LOL.

and dang, the richard hse comm results are out.
no-one's called me yet.
ahwell.
good things never do happen to me.

<3 gab
8:17 PM



i think i'm the only soul in the world now who is SLACKING.
go to hell and fryyyyy gab.
EEKS. bad thing to say. CHOY.

school again tomorrow.
i hate mondays.
for a good reason: LESSONS AND MORE LESSONS DUDE.
AH.

okay backy to worky i go.
(dang. this reminds me of ___)

<3 gab
10:27 PM



i'm feeling really bored. so here goes.

----------Have You Ever---------
1. Been so drunk you blacked out: no
2. Missed school coz it was raining: no
3. Put a body part on fire for amusement: no
4. Been hurt emotionally: yes
5. Kept a secret from everyone: yes
6. Had an imaginary friend: no
7. Cried during a Movie: yes.
8. Had a crush on a teacher: no
9. Ever thought an animated character was fit?: no
10. Been on stage: yes
11. Cut your own hair?: yes. the back and the front. but not everything. xD

------------Favourites--------------
12. Colour[s]: BLUE! black. white. light orange. xD
13. Day/Night: night
14. Summer/Winter: Summer
15.Cartoon Character: TOM (in tom&jerry)
16. Fave Food: MUDPIES : D
17. Fave Advert: none
18. Fave Ice Cream: CHOCOLATE!
19. Fave Subject: PE. MATH (only if ms neo's the teacher). BIO (only if mr lim's the teacher).
20. Fave Persons to talk to: quite a few. those who i usually talk to online and those in school. hahahaa. triyono makes me laugh like siao. xD HAHAHA. so does claire. manda is more of the serious kind. xD HEH.
21. Fave Actor/Actress: angelina jolie (seriously, i thought she looked hot in mr and mrs smith, although the movie itself sucked on its own)

------------Right now--------------
22.Wearing: my baggy orange tube ride surf bay shirt with the yellow version of the pair of shorts i wore in the UK.
23. my hair is: wet from a shower and it is brown.
24. feeling: confused
25. Eating: nothing
26. Drinking: water
27. Thinking about: two people.
28. cried: nope.
29.Worn a skirt: don't think i did recently
30. Met someone new: at the focus group thing
31. Cleaned your room: long time ago
32. Done laundry: in wales, though it was only socks. HEH.
33. Drove a car: nope. i would be a speeding at 100kph disaster. xD

-----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE----------------
34. Like anyone?: uh none of the opposite sex, no. i only know one guy, except for my primary school friends. HEH. so i think that will come later.
35. Who's the loudest:h PEIQI. 0.o
36. Who's the weirdest: uurrrhts. YAJIE.
37. Who do you go to for advice: close friends i guess.
38. Who do you cry to?: myself most of the time, but when things get too hard to bear, i can just suddenly cry in school. 0.o
39. When did you cry the most: sec 3, this year. on the 15th of may. it was really bad. over a friend.
40. Worst feeling? : knowing that the person you don't dare to talk to now used to be your best friend, and that now, no matter how hard you try not to fall for anyone else (in the friend sense), you feel like your heart is being carried away again by someone so startlingly fresh, amusing and caring.
41. Who do u like? : quite a lot of people in my life are worth liking in their own ways, some bigger than others. xD HEH. but for fun's sake, i shall list! from 301, i like (okay i am recalling in terms of who sits where. i am visual. xD HEH.) : andy, amy, char, bea, triyono, jasmine, nik, huanchin, eileen, jiayue, mag, suchin, suv, manda, shuna. from outside of 301, i like: vivien, yingjing, cheryl, claire, erin, shuting, peizhi, paul, jessica. yeah! =)

alrights. that's about it.

adios

emotion of the day: ENNUI.
1:20 PM



yayyyy. nice slacky day today.
perfect SATURDAY!
dozed off last night at 9 plus.
my darling mother woke me up at 1030, cuz i told her to.
and i decided i was too tired to continue my usual night activities of talking to manda and claire, blogging about the day's activities and listening to music.
so i literally went to bed at a heavenly 9 plus. bliss.
first time i slept so early! HAHAHAA.
treasure it gab. last time you're ever gonna sleep so early.
but ahwell. worth it since you get to talk online. HAHA. =) woot yeah.
while doing homework unproductively.
on second thought. i can finish my homework in school quicker.
so it's back to my p4 style of doing homework: in between lessons, during lessons which i can afford to not listen/cannot be bothered about (eg. physics), and for awhile after school.
and yay at home i can slack slack slack! or do revision. -.-''''

anyway, back to my slacky day.
went for piano after messaging claire online.
lol. and piano went fine. xD
ahahaha. surprisingly. xD HEH.
then i went home before going to IMM!
lol and I BOUGHT MY MP3 PLAYER! HAHAHAHA. FINALLY.
xD
YAY! then i wouldn't be bored on 190. xD
hahahahahahaha. WOOTS. I WIN AT LIFE.

came home and i am happily and enthusiastically downloading songs!
YAYYERS. xD

okay shall talk to people now...
will blog along the way.

gah.
dang.
i am feeling guilty about one major thing.
i don't know how to put it.
just that it's a relationship thing.
GAH. i don't know what or how to say.
EEEEEE. NG XIN HAN GABRIELLE, CHERYL. WHY ARE YOU LIKE THAT.

shucks.
okay dang.

anyway.
gtg and sleep now. nearly 12.

btw. claire! take care alrights. things would turn out fine. <3

<3 gab

emotion of the day: guilt.
11:56 PM



i am caught between slacking off tonight and practising my piano piece insanely.
should i catch up on my sleep?
or go plonk on the piano?
okay for the time being, until 830, i shall slack.
and at 830, i will decide if i should play the piano or slack the night away till 10 before going to bed.

listening to shy that way by tristan prettyman featuring jason mraz.
hahaha. claire sent it to me quite some time ago.
finally dug out something that could play m4a files.
quicktime player.
it's so jazzy and warm.
their husky voices..zomg.
there's always too much talking
and I wanna just keep walking
and I keep staring, baby, keep staring
though I may not know the right things to say
I'll get it out to you one day
i love it, fullstop.
and the warmness is making me miss uk insanely.
no idea why. just wish i could relive those days, happier, free-er and more positive.
if i could go back in time, i would have hung out more with other people as well.
hahaha. yup. other than just brooding around whenever reality catches up with me.
guess one other thing i should get rid of is my excessive moodswings.

today went quite slacky for me.
and fun though.
was always playing with the netball.
i never do learn my lesson do i?
broke evelyn's specs and i am still throwing the ball around like nobody's business.
but this time i CHECK that the area is clear before throwing the ball. AHHA. =)
was teaching chunyue how to catch the ball with only one hand. haha and she got it. WOOTS.
suchin also managed to. HAHA. no matter how scared she was of balls.

anyway. life's returning back to normal.
where i have no-one especially special anymore.
it feels strange.
in a class of friends but feeling lonely cuz no-one gets me like she did.
i feel out of place. to be more exact.
like i don't belong.
every day is like just any other day.
nothing special, just ordinary.
all i have to look forward to is getting home and onto the com to listen to some music.
and prolly chat till like 2 am in the morning.
(btw, it's 833 now. and i am still blogging. so i guess. it's slack and get scolded tomorrow. BLEH. i am utterly embarassed at my lack of motivation. and i am guilty. SHUCKS. i WILL practise at 9.)
nowadays the only people i chat with online are manda, claire, xiaoxi (occasionally) and some 205 people.

okay. enough of the sad stuff.
anyway. today i went for house comm interview!
i can honestly say that my magic trick would not even earn a single penny from anyone.
becky told me to perform a magic trick with a pair of chopsticks.
i spied a gap between the two tables i was sitting in front of.
so i conveniently held the two chopsticks near the gap.
and went lamely, "now you see it, now you don't!"
and dropped one of the chopsticks through the gap.
the interview wasn't a flop but i'm still keeping my fingers tightly crossed i either get games capt/level co-ord/logmanager.
hahahaha. ahwells. good experience.
kind of like my robotics chair interview.
LOL. so i'm having some hope at the very least. xD

okay i am officially tired.

cya world.

<3 gab

quote of the day
"all you need is a crush on foo ling ling."
a source who doesn't want to be identified. but funny just the same. HAHA. =)
9:28 PM



in school watching serene, serena and wenda doing their chemistry assignment, talking and whatever not.
waiting for 5 o clock to come.
house comm interview that is.
hearing people talk is quite fun and informative.
hahaha. laoshi is biased meh? lol nvm.
i don't really know but i think she's nice lah.
dang. those people in CO are making a lot of noise!
hahaha. anyway.

have to go home and play piano later.
dang. my third piece is SHIT.
but those CO people are playing worse than my worst.
dang. i am mean. but hell.
shall go now. lolz.
finish my homework in school. xD

only bio right. sigh.
alrights.

<3 gab
2:58 PM



it's been quite a reflective thursday.
i know i am nut to be up so late: 1:19am.
but anyhow.
yeah. we were talking about learning, choices and decisions when we had some free time during robotics.
it was kind of frightening i admit, to talk about those things.
sure i want to in some way change the world around me.
but the question here is how?
big dreams yeah, everyone can have them.
yet making the wrong decisions can just about screw things up or divert your path.
i'm seriously considering going to another jc other than rjc now.
the thing is, i heard other jc's are faring better, which i agree, looking at the A level results.
the A's are made up of the traditional pen and paper test.
and what are we doing now?
projects lined up one after another.
eeeks. i don't even know if we are well prepared for A's.
like weifen said, we have to get our basics right.
that would take merciless drilling.
mock papers and the mundane ordinary primary school format of whipping us into shape.
i remember finishing those papers in school so that i never have to bring them home.
but ahwell, i cannot do it in rgs now.
probably because my foundations aren't good and my basics are iffy and unstable.
so i reckon weifen has a point.

and choices. we have so many things to choose from.
this through train programme thing, which is controversially different from neighbourhood schools, where students are made to mug their asses off at this age of 15 for the O's.
i listen to my friends whine about O's; but i'm actually more afraid of the A's.
O's are like the streaming examination. A's are like the PSLE of secondary + early tertiary education.
and with other choices like taking part in this and that.
getting this scholarship to where for what for whom.
etc etc.
it's a dizzying amount of choices.
and the decisions to make are numerous and complicated.
sigh.

anyway.
TRIYONO SAID SHE WANTED TO BE A HAIR DRESSER! LOL
haahhaha amusing.
i guess i am not sure.
psychiatrist? doctor? teacher? LOL. HAHAH IDON'T KNOW.

okay i better go and sleep.

<3 gab

quotes of the day
"i HATE science centre, you know."
mrs leung. zomg!
"how do you spell 'parts'?"
"how do you spell 'C'?"
triyono's spelling and hearing are SCREWED today.
i was saying "whoever paid for some PARTS forcompetition, remember to claim money from mrs leung!" and "let's all learn C programming."

LOL ANYWAY. NIGHT!
1:31 PM



DUDE.
THIS SERIOUSLY MUST BE THE BEST WEDNESDAY.
PERIOD!
LOL.

contact time was quite fun. HAHAHA.
then it was like we were discussing the date for netball auditions.
hahahaha. quite slack.
then english. wooo. my speech outline was OKAY!
woottttt.
then physics. zomg. was falling asleep but i finished my speech first draft. HEHHEE.
WAH I ROCK. i suck at physics and i still dare to not listen for the ENTIRE lesson.
wheee i deserve the SLACK AT PHYSICS award. =)
hahahahaha. plus a 5000 cash prize.
HAHAHAA. for slacking.

recess and we were having fun in class practising the chinese script.
not exactly fun. just yeah. HAHA. xD
then chi pt presentation. it rocked in an unexpected way. cuz they found the video funny. YAY.
good i am relieved chi pt presentation is over!
then it was GEOGRAPHY.
WAH I TELL YOU. DAMN NICE BLOCK.
I THINK FLL IS NICE TODAY.
ONLY TODAY.
HAHAHA WE HAD DISCUSSION.
and we had a SUPER HILARIOUS chat about stuffs alright!
wait i am gna go have dinner and come back and blog about the niceness of FLL.
(ahahha hippo! for you. hohoho.)
FLL kindly let us have a SLACK PERIOD.
we totally slacked at the back. HAHAHA. LOL.
we were like trying to pronounce BUTTE.
then i announced. BUTT.
then maria was like BUTTER.
and they were trying some like BUTT-TAY.
LOL: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA. HILARIOUS.
and we were discussing pt's and who has/hasn't started.
EVERYONE hasn't started on ANYTHING.
COOL MAN.
mugger class hasn't started on anything LOL.
RECORD.

then it was CLE!
SLACK LAH.

hahahahaha.

okay nothing else. just that this day rocked a lot.

and uhm. thanks claire. for everything. haha. <3 you

okay will blog again tmr. xD
9:47 PM



tuesday.
hmm. i can't say it's a bad day but it's just NORMAL.
pe. lol. beanbag-rugby was a Fun Activity With Loads Of Laughing Slash Screaming.
it's like everyone was bitten by the Scream When You Get The Beanbag bug.
our team had suv, nik, maria, manda and me.
the opposing team was wenda they all.
our game was full of screaming, basically.
and the occasional typically loud "STOP" from bea.
and laughter because of goals well scored, funny moments on the field and mostly because, suv the great slipped and fell twice on the wet field. (once on the front and the other on the ground, nearly splitting.)
okay it wasn't that wet, just the morning dew.
hahahaha but all in all beanbag-rugby was fun fun fun. xD HAHA
the theory part was rather HOT though.
it was okay. 34 of us hot and sweaty from beanbag-rugby crammed on a staircase.
lol. it was the first time i actually saw droplets of sweat trickling down my legs. 0.o
my sweat glands are becoming over-active. LOL. hahaha.

math. killer period.
so many new stuff to know.
and i smartly missed out on a whole block on LOGARITHMIC GRAPHS. WOOO.
i rock baby. was away learning permutations and combinations at a math.
but ahwell. will catch up though. LOL. though i'm lazy to.

recess and i was slacking around in class.
bio and we were testing fake urine.
hehehe. how fun. LOL. we (serena + me) actually guessed correct lah please.
hahas. we are pro. =)
then it was chinese. LOL TRIYONO'S PRESENTATION IS SO FREAKING FUNNY.
i like the skit! and the pwpt is short and sweet.
i think she got like damn high for class presentation.
hahaha. but anyhow, it's good.

lunch and i was playing around with the netball we collected for netcarn.
and bleh. i broke evelyn's glasses.
i didn't completely wreck it, just that the right lense splitted into half.
so i figure if she really gets it replaced i'll pay her back via daily instalments.
note to self: don't play in class. even if you don't bring down the projector, you'll risk other people and their belongings.
situational awareness, more like.

chem and we were 15 minutes late.
pro-est ever. ms chun was kind of pissed and we can't blame her for it.
lol. the experiment was quite screwed cuz i kept missing out on some stuff.
bleh. whatever. i want to go for the make-up class but didn't meet up with her.
dang.
and rs was quite slack and stupid.
jasmine and i had a small fight.
ahem.
and cat (some friend of jasmine's) whipped out her phone and taped the whole thing down.
cuz it consisted of a humongous moronic loser (jas) yelling at the top of her 2000 hz high pitched voice and carrying a table up supposedly to whack me but failed miserably.
lol. just in case you think i'm mean for calling jas a loser. it is our trademark. LOL. she calls me a big hairy gorilla and i call her a humongous moronic loser.
or something along that line.
triyono was laughing her ass off. and so were jasmine's friends. hahahaha. comic relief to relieve stress from the accumulating pile of pt's and homework and revision.
HAHAHA.

and after school.
i successfully finished most of math assignment in school.
and i have 3 parts that i don't know how to do.
will ask huanchin the smart tomorrow.
hahahaha. xD

dang. have to go do my chi pt now.
chi pt presentation rescue mission more like.

byeee!

<3 gab

quote of the day
"ay! i will be on YouTube! i will be famous leh. YAY!"
jasmine. =.-''' WHAT A LOSER. but still quite childishly, as much as i hate to say this, cute. laugh all you want jasmine. lol. HAHAHA. =)
8:34 PM



is it a thing for us to regret about whatever we decided on only later?
is it only after we completely lose somebody we feel like we should have that person back?
bleh. feelings are so bloody confusing. piss me off.
can't things be clear-cut?
but thinking of it, nothing is clear-cut, so too bad for people like me. grarghhhh.
every day, stuff like this is at the back of my mind, stuck there like a wad of gum.
and i cannot help but let my thoughts drift to this whenever school lessons get boring.
><. dang. this is shiat.
ahwell. it's over, isn't it.
so get over it, ng xin han gabrielle cheryl / wu shan heng.
DANG. come on.

ahwell. on the brighter side.
term 3 looks better. =))
but it's passing really fast. LOL.
wouldn't hurt if we are in school for a couple more weeks than this designated 10 weeks.
okay i'm nut to say this. =.-'''
lalalala. alright. i think i should do fine.
fine without ___.
it's hard, but i'll try to do so.
concentrate on different things and people. LOL. sounds like some science experiment. 0.o
gawd. LOL. OKAY I SHALL GO AND MUG CHEM.
my chem is dying, dies, has died, died and had died. AND IS DEAD.
LOL. OKAY byebye!

and as jason mraz sings, "I WON'T WORRY MY LIFE AWAY."
so moving on..
but i'll never forget whatever you've given me
everything from that day up till now.
thank you, good bye and come again.

alrights.
chemming time.
hopefully i can stay awake. 0.o

<3 gab
10:50 PM



this term is passing like a whirlwind dude.
and soon it'll be EOYs. the horror.
and then it'll be netcarn. (yay i'm playing. xD)
then it'll be the end of sec 3.
0.o we're ageing very fast.
zomg. scary.
then it'll be sec 4, our last year at rgs.
crapzoids.
i can't help but feel damn old.
BLEH. wth lah. don't care le. LOL.
live for the moment.
><

don't know what to blog about today.
just that suchin and manda are hilarious today.
and bea, as usual, was weirdly optimistic about netcarn.
TALKING ABOUT NETCARN, WE CAN GET THE BALL FROM PE DEPT TMR! XD
yayyyy. =)
okay nut. but yeaah! that means we can play with the ball in class.
oops. cannot. 0.o later break something.
last year nearly brought the projector down lah please.
HEH.

sigh lately i've been way out of control of everything in my life.
i've been having afternoon naps.
i'm uncontrollably tired can. what's wrong with me? ><
bleh. i shall try to stay awake everytime i come home.
it's just that i'm so busted i fall asleep.
ARGH.
hai. okay got so many things on my mind now. will blog later about them.

but now. have to do my math! xD

<3 gab

quote of the day
"you said you WAS using the computer."
manda. =)) yes yes. your grammar is just so splendid. =) you need emergency classes on grammar. otherwise ms low will kill you. LOL I KID.
7:28 PM



wahahaha.
i think i'm gonna base my oral speech on blogging.
shits. after so much time wasted, i finally decided to do blogging. =:-'''
LOL. i'm proz baby.
okay at least i can like get my oral speech over and done with this hols.
and i think i gotta say my prayers for chem and phy.
cuz i seriously haven't touched them in an age.

here's what i wrote for my spd speech last year.
no less. =)
i cannot believe i was that nut about blogging.
now i think it's kind of over-rated.
hahaha. ahwell.

Speech for SPD: passions/dreams/aspirations

Recently, 5 Junior College students were suspended by their schools for supposedly slandering and defaming teachers whom they were not happy with, calling them names like "prude". This is one good example of the consequences of not WATCHING YOUR WORDS when you are writing in your online diary otherwise known as blogging. Despite all of this hooha about blogging irresponsibly, I still like to blog as if no-one is reading my posts, except me myself and I.
So now, allow me to introduce to you, the joys of unrestrained blogging without a care for the world.

Blogging is the freedom of expression, the freedom of speech, and my blog the platform from which I give my speech. In cyberspace, it is like the LAND OF THE FREE, which is AMERICA, where everyone has the right to say anything they want and express ideas that they have. When I am not happy with something or someone, I blog about it or him/her to take it off my chest. When I want somebody out there to hear my point of view about different things in life, I blog so that some blog reader would happen to drop by and read what I have to say. This makes blogging a tool for me to voice my opinions and vent frustrations.

Me, being rather outspoken and being one who often speaks without thinking, find uncontrolled blogging just suitable for me to go on and on about things in my life and satisfy my desire to air my views. I could not ask for anything more than a online diary which exists in cyberspace, the electronic version of the LAND OF THE FREE.

I don't have to be held back by the views close to the hearts of my elders. I get a new life of my own once I am online, blogging about life and everything under the sun. It helps me discover freedom and most importantly, the real me, my desires and my dreams. Time is given to me to find myself and find freedom in blogging.

The awesome feeling of freedom is just so splendidly satisfying. This freedom to talk like you are the only person talking in the world is just so overwhelming when it comes to you it bowls you of your feet at first, but in a moment you are totally, fanatically, hopelessly in love with blogging. After the first time you try it, you will soon be back for more blogging and get hooked on it just like I did.

Now, before I depart to blog about the advantages of blogging, here's one last piece of advice for you. Blogging is the expression of your heart soul and mind. So welcome with open arms: unrestrained blogging without a care for the world-the best a teenager could ever get.

hahaha. looking back i was kind of naive.
period.
people do change right.
yup. i don't really think like blogging is a ME ME ME world.
now at least. it's more about people. and stuff around us.
okay i admit i do indulge in blogging about my problems.
but who doesn't lah.
of course, i have to watch my language (haha sometimes i don't give a damn), mind my p's and q's and TRY to avoid suaning teachers.
hahaha. was caught by ms neo once before. 0.o WAHAHAHA. but i was just commenting that she missed some lessons. xD HEH.
hai. just one year and my perspectives change so much.
teenages age fast as well.
i need anti-ageing medicine.
okay i gotta admit, teenage ageing in the aspect of the thinking and maturity, thats not a bad thing.
you tihnk better you see. lol and thus you don't offend people that much.
hmm guess so. LOL. last year i really didn't care who reads. xD
so it's kind of amazing i wasn't caught. 0.o
LOL i blogged about 4 teachers i think. at least. xD LOL.
but ahwell, i CLOSED that blog down anyway. wheee.

alright i shall go attempt to bwrite a speech on blogging and flaming. HAHA.
flaming. not exactly my favourite activity.
but if if it involves some poking fun at any random teacher, it's fine with me as long as, one, it does not permanently scare his or her career, two it does not get me into serious trouble, and three, it does not include the mention of his or her name. xD

sorry for the typo's. bleh. my com is lagging.

<3 gab
2:40 PM



too serious too soon.
GARETH GATES.
as gay as he is. LOL.
he can sing quite well.
okay wait, i just rmbed.
colman cannot sing. i'm sure. xD LOLLERS.
okay before i step into the liable for sueing danger zone, i shall stop. xD
anyway.
JASON MRAZ is still the best lah. xD
wheeeee! of course baby. xD
he composes and sings his own songs.. mainly lah.
teddy geiger also composes his own songs but sadly, i don't have any of his songs. =(
i remember divya letting me listen to some of his songs. nice, but i don't know the title. =.-'''
bleh bleh. i shall go run a search...but later. have stuff to do.
zomg. okay i should run along and do my homework.
and revision.
tough cookies. or tough shit as dick lee puts it.
LOL. okay tough shit sounds so sick.
tough shit isn't even fit for human consumption. PUKE.
tough cookies! =) HAHA. the most you break your teeth when you eat them. xD
and you can get really cool dentures. okay not cool just out of the world for a youngster.
okay i am not making sense.

shall return to editing my chi pt. =.-''
heard from yono laoshi is picky.
0.o she doesn't look the kind though.
but she sure is kind and caring.
super motherly.
can win the best teacher award!
hahaha but ms neo still rocks above everyone else.
yayyy for ms neo!
and laoshi!

<3 gab
11:30 AM



boredom. ennui.
i cannot sleep. WHY WHY WHY!
watched TWO movies in a row and i'm bored.
first was holes.
second was the chinese movie on tv.
(hey it rhymes)
dang. now talking to random people online.
not like there are many to talk to anyway.
sigh. that suchin is still awake. slacking. 0.o
but her status is busy. 0.o
lol. busy slacking. what a hardworking slacker.
irony irony.
just asked her if stuff's alright.
hehs. waiting for her reply.
lol. talking about this.
am i too nice to people sometimes?
i think sometimes i can be super nice.
and sometimes when i'm pissed, ahem, i am not that nice anymore.
lalala. these few days, i've been really nice to everyone.
well. good manners! YEAH! =)
lol. claire just told me again for the zillionth time i'm nice.
okay maybe that's supposed to be good.
hmm. okay i shall continue being nice.
but it's not an act duh. it's real. =) and plus it feels good being nice!
lol so primary-schoolish. 0.0

hmm. just before i conclude.
is it a human need to be heard? to be listened to?
i guess so.
cuz i remember reading from somewhere we do need people to listen to us rant about random stuff.
lol. guess that's the reason behind the need for friends who can listen.
lalalala. yepyep. guess i was asking the obvious. =.-'''
but anyway. i shall go sleep now.
before i really get amnesia. zomg.

BYEBYE

<3 gab
1:55 AM



how does it feel to know you never have to be alone
when you get home?
there must be some place that baby only you and i can go.
so that i can show you how i feel.

AHH. MAROON 5 FEVER.
their songs are getting into my head lately.
SWEETEST GOODBYE. <3333 xD
yeah. how does it feel to know i never have to be alone?
lalala. okay shall experience THAT in the future.
hope it happens again.
hope hope hope! as emphasized by LOTR (lord of the rings) characters.
free and swinginggggggg. wheee.

but really. maroon 5's song lyrics kind of relate a lot of teenage stuff.
but in the angsty manner, especially harder to breathe.
"not fit to f**king tread on the ground i'm walking on."
0.o

ahwell. okay now, jason mraz is singing!
LOL. =) I LOVE HIS SONGS. the remedy!

i won't worry my life away.
heyy...oh.
i won't worry my life away!

WHEEEE.
okay i'm insanely high on my own right now.
0.o CALM DOWN. BREATHE IN BREATHE OUT. 0.o

okay okay.
i shall attempt to see how to do these remaining three things i've gotta do:
1. ENGLISH ORAL SPEECH. 0.0 I AM CLUELESS.
2. CHEMISTRY REVISION. (REACTIVITY SERIES + ABS)
3. PHYSICS REVISION. (ULTRASOUND. THE BLOODY PT IS ON THIS.)

maybe i should try to get out my english speech today. i mean outline. LOL.
then tmr and i can be a full-time chem-physicist. =)
YEAH! have to do this lah. PIANGS. don't feel like, but i have to.
TO WORK I GO THEN.
BLEH I AM HEARING A CHAO EMO SONG ON MY STEREO. I WANT TO CHANGE IT. 0.o

okay! BEAUTIFUL SOUL'S PLAYING NOW. jesse mccartney. he's not cute. but his voice is okay. jason mraz is better though. xD

BYEBYE!

<3 gab
9:35 PM



i cannot help but notice how i don't feel sad whenever i see something that reminds me of things we shared before.
meaning. i'm finally out of words.
and i've finally put everything behind and ready to move on.
okay, i shan't say anymore, lest all the things that could've made me cry just two days ago overwhelm me again.
hahahaha.

anyway.
PIANO WAS NOT A FLOP.
i actually expected it to be a disaster.
haven't been practising but ms chok was nice enough to help me get past my mental barrier for the third piece that i haven't been able to start anyhow.
xD she seriously rocks. no wonder she's a math AND piano teacher.
if i were her, i seriously would be hairless now (from all the hair tugging moments).
okay. i hereby swear i will plonk on the piano religiously for the months to come before piano exam, so much so that i get muscles in my fingers and a fixation with the pieces i play.
okay i am exaggerating. but ahwell. i shall not let my piano teacher down. LOLLERS.
strange thing, i started out learning music for the love of it.
now i'm doing it to not let my teacher down.
perhaps i should find that love once more.
but meanwhile, i'll practise.

ahwell. i shall return to trying to do my english speech.
and dang. i've not done any revision. 0.o
chem and physics. AHHH!
but at least i've read up on weathering. 0.o LOL. but i don't think i remember.
but ahwell, I READ.
and hopefully some of those stuffs are still in my brain.

adios

quotes of the day
"cuz you and i both loved what you and i spoke of"
AHH. I'M HOOKED ON THE SONG. JASON MRAZ, i love. lol. okay not HIM but his songs. xD
"not fit to (insert a certain f-word with the "ing" at the back) tread the ground i'm walking on."
omg angsty like hell but the way it's sung has that oomph attitude. from maroon 5's harder to breathe. xD
12:46 PM



i won't worry my life away!
you can turn off the sun but i'm still gonna shine.
yeah. jason mraz, 你唱对了！(meaning, you sang it right)
learnt quite a lot these few months.
i think i'm growing up a bit too fast, cuz the more i learn now, the older i feel.
no wonder my former sec 4 robotics senior told me perspectives change as we grow older.
suddenly things just seem so pragmatic, real and raw.
unlike all the flitty flitty little fairytale whimsical stuff we always believed in when we were younger.
but ahwell. something xiaoxi told me kind of woke the more sensible side of me up.
so yeah. taking things in my stride.
if things are to be like that, so be it.
i'll let go if it makes both of us feel better.
i feel liberated anyhow still.
so yeah. all i can say now is thankyou (for the memories) and goodbye (for now) and come again (if we have a second chance, i don't see why not).

lol okay quite corny but i hope i made sense.
anyway. i still have people to thank god for, so all's not lost.
i've been naiive. much so in term 2.
yups, life will get better.
yeah it will. =)

alright from now, gab you're gonna hold your head up and live life for what it's worth. love like you'll never get hurt. and eventually you may still do, so when it happens, take it in your stride. ah. it fits. the missing half of "love like you'll never get hurt". =)

i've been weirdly friendly online today.
1. talked to mag and cheered her up by sending her i'm yours by jason mraz
2. talked to triyono and crapped the usual stuff about chi pt
3. of course, talked to manda about random stuff
4. talked to primary school classmates
5. attempted to chat with evelyn
6. sprung a HELLO on suchin
7. talking to jasmine now
8. contemplating to talk to vivien teooo.

but i think i am too sleepy for all the talking.
strange lah.
i've been sleeping a lot lately. 0.o
to think of it, i'm still awake enough to talk. HEHEHEHE.
okay okay. shall go talk.
BYEBYE!

<3 gab
10:41 PM



weird day.
woke up at 6am cuz my phone vibrated.
slept some more until 630am before crawling out of bed.
showered ate and went out.
i let two 307's pass me by. wow. i'm so smart.
the first one i was running towards the bus then i dropped my waterbottle..so yeah, stupid bus driver just left without me. -.-
second one. woah. this can win the oscar. i was looking at the ground, thinking about chinese pt. then vroom. the bus passed by without stopping. WTF. dang. damn stupid.
finally took the third 307 and dropped off at lot 1.
and i was RUNNING after the 190 bendy bus.
bloody missed it again.
unlucky morning i guess.
woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

math trail stuff was over quite fast so i came home pretty early: 1230pm.
slept all the way until like 230pm.
HAHAHA.
woke up showered and played the piano.
sometimes i wonder if i should continue piano. but ahwell.
my pieces kind of suck dude.
the timing is all wrong.
i'm so gna get slaughtered tomrrow.
omfg, still got chi pt rehearsal tomorrow as well. 0.o
damn.

supposed to be attempting to write my eng oral speech.
shiats. ahwell.
procrastination bug. BLEH.
lalalala.
alright i should get to work.
and hope it numbs everything else not related to work.

dang it's weird writing in a private blog.
so used to writing like some narrative.
okay i should stop doing that.

shall update later when i find the right words to say.

adios.
5:17 PM



Q: NAME A FRIEND WHO'S NAME STARTS WITH A "S"
A: Serena
Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS:
A: Peizhi
Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?:
A: 'Ok. Thanks. So see you tmr. :)' - Zijun
Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: Yeah.
Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: Not exactly. Just uh. Semi-straight? LOL. Very untidy anyway.
Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOURE GOING TO?
A: I hardly go to concerts anyway. The only one I went to was Rock For Good with nik.
Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A: No coolest whatsoever. But my definition of cool is a person who does something she likes with confidence and she doesn't really care what people think.
Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY A LOT?
A: dumbass, idiot, shit, omword.
Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE:
A: fried rice.
Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: '<3!' to vivien.
Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: Those who don't watch TV don't have a life.
Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIEDARKO?
A: Nope.
Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: Nope.
Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: Fat hope.
Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, "ILOVE YOU", MEANT IT AND TO WHO
A: Months ago. To nik and manda.
Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: Writing my chinese indiv book report
Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?A: Yeah, gab/gabby
Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRSTSIGHT?
A: Probably.
Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THEFAMILY ?
A: I'm the youngest duh. But the two people above me are my parents.
Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
A: Of course, unless the drug is medicine. Smoke free is the way to be too. lol
Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: Lately yes
Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
A: HUH?
Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: When i was 10. Fell off every time i tried and never tried to skateboard anymore.
Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDES YOUR HOUSE?
A: Bus.
Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: I dont drive.
Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: Haven't seen a movie in ages
Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
A: What's a brain dead quiz? Is it this kind of quiz? LOL. hahahha. just for fun luh.

okay i am officially bored.
not that i have nothing to do.
just the thing i have to do is like 0.o

okay bye

<3 gab
9:45 PM



is this how it ends?
it's just so painful to accept.
i really thought you were the one.
seems like i did something wrong.

cut at 3.45pm

You and I Both.
jason mraz.

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice
I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive
You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

----

the pain stings.
but if you've found someone else.
that's okay, cause i'll remember everything you and i spoke of.
god bless you.
3:00 PM



okay maybe today isn't as boring as i made it out to be in the earlier post.
i watched ndp at 6, singapore idol at 815 and now i am still slacking.
i can go and die. =)
lol. AHHAA. of course i am joking.
lol. after all, i slogged my ass off for the whole day working on the grp component for chi pt. so i deserve a bit of a rest. don't you think. okay first day of the hols. so maybe i am entitled to slack.
LOL.
what do i have undone? a lot i guess.
work left
1. chi indiv
2. video! (making tmr =])
3. eng oral preparation 0.o
4. chemistry revision (time to catch up with ms chun)
5. ss pt (maybe not)
6. geography (weathering!)
7. physics (ultrasound!)

yeah. can de.
hmm maybe now i shouldn't do anymore chinese. i will go absolutely NUT.
i shall do geography and physics now!
and eng oral! woot yeah. that would be three easier stuffs down!

hahahaha.
i am updating PAUL! =) hahahahaa.
alrights. HAVE A HAPPY NATIONAL DAY HOLIDAY! =) LOL. FOR RG PEOPLE THAT IS. SLACK WEEK BABY.

amidst all these happiness, i guess there are still people like me brooding about life whenever the highness dies down. life is full of worries and changes. you have to change to keep up, to fit in with the crowd. but sometimes fitting in is hard to do and goes against all the principles you ever had. last year, i was staking out to be who i really was and i didn't really care about whoever's opinion. the thing is last year i wasn't as outgoing as i am now. last year my social circle was limited to within my class and a couple of CCA friends. lol. saded but yeah. so being myself wasn't too hard then. but this year is different. so yeah. i am still worrying about this and that. LOL. i am not making sense. HAHAHA.

anyway. i shall uncomplicate things by thinking it would just pass over me. xD yayy.

alrights. here i come geog, phy and eng!

<3 gab

ps. TAG LEH! PLEASE!
11:07 PM



another ordinary day.
can life get any duller.
worked on chi pt for the whole day. 0.o
finally finished the ppt and the script. phew.
dang.
now i'm left with indiv.
i am feeling so dead.
i need some comic relief or at least something to get my mind off work.
i do have somethign to think about, but probably i shouldn't be thinking about it anymore.
lol. i am not making much sense, so pardon me.

but bleh, nobody's been tagging.
- is sad.
TAG ME SOMEBODY.
i sound despo.
okay i am.
boo. ><

okay i shall continue blogging after dinner.
so ta for now.


OHYEAH! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! hahahaha. patriotism. xD


<3 gab
5:51 PM



today's national day celebrations are quite cool.
okay, only the community singing part was fun. HAHA.
sang the first few then my voice died on me.
but ahwell.
after that, gathered in class and went for lunch.
was okay.
marche stuff is really ex though.
bleh.
busted 17.70 there. 0.o
val char serene me jiayue bhuvan suv arina vaish went.
yeah.
ahwell. i hope the next class lunch/dinner would be better. xD

anyway.
i realised. i haven't really been doing much for a lot of things.
not academically. just things around me that i should actually care for.
used to think all the serving the community thing is darn lame.
but now to think of it, it's actually quite meaningful.
hahaha. the repercussions of flag day propaganda.
so have to put more effort into lsl and get some of the trail questions done! =)
and think of some way to bring up class spirit.
and ask for something to do for richard.
and fulfill my responsibilities for robotics!
hahaha this all sounds damn corny but haha. will do. =)

alright. gtg and do these stuffs + my homework.

<3 gab


i don't know why.
but everytime i try to do something and get my mind off you.
it just comes crashing back.
i thought i knew i wanted everything back.
yet after today, i realised, it didn't really make a difference anymore.
but if it really didn't, then why does it hurt so much.
oh help.

9:06 PM



what a helluva day.
okay not tiring. xD
hahaha just a bit hectic.
rushed to school just to give bdae letter to claire but realised she isn't in class so left it under her table.
hahaha. and her hair's short. 0.o she looks kind of grown up. 0.o
okay ANYWAY. assembly was dumb. should have asked us to sit right from the start!
becky's richard capt.
claire's vice.
and becky asked if i want to join hse comm. i said yes. so i'm waiting for something to do, basically.
lalala. geog we looked at more pretty corals and eventually saw coral graveyards.
there was one that looked like a human skull. freaky.
recess next so i went down to eat. milo cereal and milo drink. yeah i'm a milo lover! woot woot! <3
and had watermelon after that. xD HEHEHE. =)
healthy okay! (only the watermelon though.)
had physics, which was uh, quite boring.
but i felt accomplished for drawing a curve of best fit FREEHAND. AHAHAHHAA.
english nothing much. just writing of outline and waiting for the bell to go.
math. a math. lol. was okay. got back math paper. and as usual, my freaky class had 18 full marks.
bio was FREE PERIOD. woots.
and we were discussing class tee.
realised quite a lot hasn't been done.
0.o but anyway, can do it! =)

alrights. i have to go do my work. loads to do. sucks man.

<3 gab
6:21 PM



oh did i mention?
i got my hair cut.
hahaha. the spikey thing i had at the beginning of the year.
yups.
the hair i had right before OBS.

just had a funny convo with yono.
let me show you a snapshot.
she didn't know pwpt is also another abbreviation for powerpoint.
see!


















i think i should be working on my pwpt more.
hmmm. okay. i shall.
1. blog
2. work on pwpt
3. write bdae letter for hippo leader! <3

all at once. 0.o okay hahahaha. i shall attempt to. =)

but wait. what work do i have!

1. chi pt
- grp pwpt
- get the speech thinger out for the presentation
- the performance thing.hhahahaha.
- INDIVIDUAL. DIES. WHAT CAN I WRITE ABOUT REGARDING SOME MARTIAL ARTS BOOK?!

2. ss pt
- get an idea what citizenship is (cuz i don't bloody get this gist of CC's lessons)
- brainstorm for "creative" ideas

3. eng oral
- write the speech?

hahahaha yeah. THAT'S ALL.
aiyo slack eh.
no HOMEWORK!
pt's and oral. yep. can do.

lalalala. xD

homework aside.
i realise things would only be as bad as you think of it to be.
so why complicate things when things are meant to be simple?
everything in this world, complicated as it seems, if you just take a moment to think.
it can actually be quite simple, without all the little worries we have every moment.
sigh but we cannot stop worrying can we. we are homo sapiens! haha.
so heck man.
but i'll try to uncomplicate things as far as i can.
i want a simple life.
hahahaha. don't get me wrong.
simple life doesn't equal to paris hilton and her then best friend, whose name i cannot remember for the life of me, being bimbotically dumb.
yep! HAHA. =)
don't worry, be happy!
hakuna matata!
lol. disney! XD

okay that's about enough so far.

so see you world. =)

<3 gab

ps. claire's bdae tmr! so HAPPY BDAE CLAIRE MA CHERIE! =) HAHA. je t'aime lah. <33 have a rocking bdae!
10:29 PM



stupid weather.
it's giving me a bliddy headache.
and i'm feeling sick.
sucks man.
gulping water by the gallon now.
i don't want to break my record of not falling sick for more than one day. xD
lalala. by far, this year is my healthiest year.
cuz i haven't fallen sick for a prolonged period of like a week or two anyhow this year.
i hope it remains that way. hahaha.
cuz i HATE being sick.

feel so frigging liberated after geog test.
so much so i don't feel like doing anything but SLACK.
but this feeling of post-EOY-ness is just an illusion, so CANNOT SLACK.
AHHHH.
chi pt. 0.o
ss pt. DOUBLE 0.o
and my eng expo is going to die a miserable death.
so is my chem. i haven't really looked at it in weeks.
OMG.

why am i still blogging here?!

okay BYEBYE!

<3 gab
2:04 PM



friendship is a queer thing.
maybe the right amount of love
that sprinkle of wit and humour
a bucket of understanding
and a whole lot of honesty
would make it taste like honey-coated candy.

i'm still missing you.

<3 gab
10:11 PM



I THINK I AM ON DRUGS.
I'M JUST FREAKING HIGH.
SO THIS IS HOW THINGS CAN BE RESOLVED.
YEAH BABY.
THIS ROCKS.
AND FROM THIS MOMENT ON.
LET BYGONES BE BYGONES.
THINGS THAT HAVE PASSED, REALLY, WHATEVER!
DON'T CARE LE.
YEAH!
TIME TO REBUILD EVERYTHING.
EVERY SINGLE THING THAT TERM 2 RUINED.
THINGS HAVE BEEN SORTED OUT.
EVERYTHING.
LOL. THIS ROCKS.
NOTHING CAN GET TO ME NOW.
I AM GONNA GIVE MY BEST TO EVERYTHING. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

okay i shall get a good night's sleep. and wake up tmr to continue.

BYEBYE!

<3 gab
11:23 PM



when death seems like the easiest way out, please remember it is also the weakest and stupidest way out.
big lesson i learnt today.
woke up feeling like a total ass.
i was screwed in everything.
class responsibilities.
my cash flow problems.
the state of my piano skills.
the constant nagging voice at the back of my head telling me i really should finish chi pt once and for all.
and plus an additional truth that i learnt yesterday night.
i'm neutral about it; just that i feel like i've let her down still, very much.
i just felt totally screwed.
it's not easy to pretend everything's alright.
was on the bus with div this morning.
the funny chat on the highway part kind of made me forget the stuff i have to worry about.

class lunch.
kudos to char, we kind of sorted stuff out.
okay i admit i was over reacting about things like that.
just that i hate it when i am unable to suggest location where we can all be happy and eat together.
i think i over complicated things.
nobody else's fault.
i am sorry.
i admit it's my fault.
just that i had a certain bias still.
i will try to get rid of it.
i promise.
hmm and i think meanwhile we're gonna go marche.
i know it's expensive for me, so i guess i am gonna make what i eat worth my money.
money is important now.
cannot let myself or my mum down anymore, otherwise i might as well go back to kindergarten.
and i think i was being dumb for breaking down during recess.
the pressure was really intense.
people unhappy with decisions i make.
i know i make mistakes.
but my mistakes, they are costly and stupid.
so i am really sorry.
i won't find excuses.
this is one mistake i won't make again.
never.
i will NOT say that i am not cut out to be a leader just because of a mistake.
i have to learn.
i have loads to learn.
plenty.
stumble, pick myself up and try again.
even if i'm on the right track, i'll get run over if i just SIT THERE.
so yeah.
main point: i will not make the mistake of rushing into things or making uncalculated decisions.

about death.
sometimes death is a tempting option.
i am amazed that i actually thought of dying for REAL this time.
all the times i said to myself CAN I JUST DIE NOW?
i didn't really mean it and i had some element of fear.
but today, when i said this to myself, i felt as if it would really solve my problems.
that bloody scared me.
of course i snapped out of that unhealthy thought.
and that happened in the toilet when i was showering.
so thank God for the shower, otherwise i would really stuck to the thought of dying.
freaky.
there are always better ways to solve a problem.
like laoshi said, i mustn't panic, mustn't give up.
i have to presevere and carry on and do what's right.
and not make the same mistakes.
that way, problems can be solved.
no pain, no gain.
have to work for what i want.
and honestly, this year, is the first time i've undertaken a leadership position.
so i guess i have loads to learn.
yep.

alrights.
i have to return to chi pt.

BYEBYE!

good luck people with everything kay.
and last reminder: death might be the easy way out, but it's the stupidest and weakest way as well.
and damn quitter.

okay. BYEBYE!

<3 gab
8:28 PM



as my junior said, leaders are people with multiple badges and more holes in their pinafore slash shirt.
to some extent, i think i agree.
some leaders in our school are kind of power hungry, and it gets kind scary.
like three four positions to their names, plus good grades, plus huge involvement in cca and plus the P-word: popularity.
aha. talking about popularity.
some people become leaders just because they are popular.

hmm i feel like i am practising expository here.
english must have gotten into my head.
and argh, my expository SUCKS.
big time baby.
gonna fail it for sure.
okay i am swerving off track.

as i was saying, in rg.
some leaders become leaders because they are popular, loud and on the scene.
a few are real capable people who can do work in the background and make it happen, without drawing much attention to themselves.
i admire the latter.
the former, i only have a certain kind of respect but not totally kind of thing.
sure they're popular, so i should respect them a bit.
but if they're just that, maybe my respect would decrease by quite a substantial amount in that little bit of respect.
haha. meaning. little or negligible respect.
i still think silent leaders may just be the best leaders.

hmm and some people have so many leadership positions that it is scary.
makes me wonder if they really are that keen on serving the school.
i am not doubting their ability just their keenness.
i know i am threading on thin ice.
so i'll just stop here.

hahaha.

anyway.
seoul or pizza hut?
decide man.
one's ex and is a buffet.
the other can be cheaper and the cost is shared evenly.
i'll find out tmr.
meanwhile, i am keeping my fingers crossed that more than 10 ppl are able to go.
class lunch, and it's becoming lesser than a class going.
guess it's hard to get people to decide on one place.
i know certain people want seoul.
majority are fine with pizza hut. yep.
compromising is hard.
especially when disagreement occurs between an I.P. and you.

<3 gab

cut: on a random note, as i predicted, there's a bumper crop of full marks for our class for this math test on logarithm, exponential equations and indices. median for us is full marks. freakeh. but the main reason is because ms neo's a good teacher. =) no matter how good we are, we get nowhere without ms neo. haha. we should get ms neo something just before she goes on maternity leave. =)
11:16 PM