giving someone the benefit of the doubt can be quite hard to do for a prolonged period of time i guess.
benefit of the doubt. is it believing people for the good they are, no matter how little or how much it is?
but being able to do this would be like agape. you don't care whether person is actually more bad than good or the other way around.
you just be nice all the same.
you'd need plenty of trust and love, and faith just to do that.
ahwell. i don't know what i'm rambling on about.
sheesh.

haha. is it possible for someone to be too nice?
i've got SOME people telling me i'm nice.
and SOME people who are just SO BLIND like jasmine, who says i'm mean ALL THE TIME.
HOW UNTRUE.
just because you (jasmine) are so easily bully-able. LOL. xD HAHAHAHA.
lol cannot help it man, everyone wants to bully you. AHHAHAA. cuz you're easily agitated.
and when you're agitated, you look and sound very hilarious.

anyway, back to topic about being nice.
i guess being nice isn't about being taken advantage of.
i really do think that way.
as in, you choose to be nice or not towards people in general.
like you choose to do to others what you want others to do to you.
okay i admit i'm not always ms nice girl, cuz i've dao-ed people, suan-ed some people and snapped at people as well.
nobody's perfect yeah.
yet haha. being nice has to be genuine. at the very least.
i can solemnly swear that everytime i've been nice, i meant it.
i don't know, but sometimes i think i'm a bit too uh. soft?
as in i give in to others a bit too easily.
and i become nice, inevitably.
hoho. so that's how nice becomes too nice.
gah, i'm probably not making a lot of sense.
in general, i'm nice to people, so i'm a nice person. HAHAHA. =)
but sometimes, i don't want to be JUST nice.
maybe something more.
but that something more, not a lot of people can find it right.
dang.

that brings me to something else.
i think i've lost all hope on best friends.
good friends, possible.
but best?
i don't even know the definition of best friends.
all the stuff they keep talking about in those sappy books.
i really want to believe that, but it's bordering on impossible dude.
gah. it's like you go into a best friendship full of hope and absolutely drowned in happiness.
then you come out dejected, hurt and crying.
sigh. ahwell.
letting go is the hardest part.
took me a good, say, 2 months to accept it.
and now, no matter how alone it seems for me to be in 301, i know at least there are some people i can talk to.
so thank god for them. really.
hoho.
at least there's something to look forward to every day.

ahwell.
that's the end of my emo post. HAHA. is it emo?
lol i've had more emo ones.
but heh.
okay gtg and mug chem. LOL.

and dang, the richard hse comm results are out.
no-one's called me yet.
ahwell.
good things never do happen to me.

<3 gab
8:17 PM