wheee. embarking on my dnonumberwhat hiatus!
it's boring anyhow, and my life's monotonous and routine.
so byebye for now.
will post for christmas and new year's eve. =)

oh. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY dad. rawrrrrrrrr. he's sleeping.
9:30 AM



i'm watching movies at an insane rate.
i've watched: i not stupid 2, dinosaur, about a boy, HSM, step up, the way home (korean movie) and a couple of my cousin's. 0.o
AHHHHH.
i swear, i go to school just to go and borrow DVDs or VCDs, other than just work alone. xD
hahahaha, i dig the school library for the special personal movie screen thing!
ZOMG. i was so so so so THRILLED. HAHA. watched dinosaur on monitor 2.
yeah yeah whatever luh. I AM NOT SUAKOO. although this is the very first time i know there's such a thing in the school library. HEHEHE.

anyway! i have to go and sleep, really. but i am looking at the lego stuff again.
for robotics, anyhow.

okay i have to go and SLEEEEEEEEEEEP.

piano tomorrow. full day. almost.
no i can't do full day, i'll burn out.
okay, little bits here and there then.
will do for one hour in the morning. do some other stuff. one hour after lunch. go downstairs on my bike/rollerblades. one hour after my shower. then DINNER + SLACK + PCK! HAHAHAH.

woot. and for one thing, i dig cookies! chipmore cookies rock rock rock!
nanana, i better eat more now. i'll starve once i start working.
lunch hour would be spent working, so i don't lose that hour's money.
i need money, dude. short of cash.
hmm after i get my paycheck, i'll have 400 bucks in the bank to accumulate interest.
200 bucks go to my parents. 50 to my grandma.
the rest, i'll use it for belated christmas day PRESENTS!
eh, my parents don't need a present anymore. the 200 bucks are enough.
XD HAHAHAHA.

okay i should stop talking and go sleep. =.=
12:46 AM



i am back from watching error carried forward.
(correction, not am. i was back, a little more than two hours ago)
maybe
1) i was late for the play by 5 minutes (max)
2) i was just daft/dumb/dodoheaded
3) i was not in a right frame of mind to think
but i didn't really get it. 0o
i know it's about the absurdity of life sometimes, but it's quite hard to understand.
all i knew was, the sultan, his daughter and some self-important arse were in this restaurant, with dancers and a waiter who is a hell of a dancer (and initiates all the craziness that was both queer and funny).
anyway, i shouldn't say anymore. go watch it tomorrow, if you haven't. it won't be a waste of money, because it's quite funny.

quote sir david attenborough's conversation with the waiter:
waiter - the store manager and the chef are engaged at the moment.
sir dave - oh, then when's the wedding?

and sir david sttenborough's obsession with bonsai coconut trees (i remember the back only though. you'll see why.):
sir dave - 8 parts water, 9 parts hydrogenated caterpillar fat and 0 parts oxygen.

okay enough. xD

nanana, this is the second play i've been to this year and also so far in my history of being in rgs. first was after math, which was very funny and understandable to a noobie like me. this was hahaha, weirdly funny, but one quarter of the time i was like, HUH? and oh, i watched a musical this year! les mis. HAHA. HAHAHA. IN LONDON. HAHAHA. okay i'm going insane, really.

okay i realise, i'm getting incoherent.
and i'm starting to type lines again, instead of paragraphs.
before i type anymore rubbish that might clog up your senses, i shall go and read some lego stuff. can't really sleep, with all the error carried forward scenes in my head.

go watch it. HAHAHA. i sound like a publicity person. HAHAHA.
and oh, at the end, they had a sign that said: "we're tired of acting. GO HOME."
and at the end of the programme booklet, it went: "thank you. and have a nice day. you may now proceed to ski across the south china sea."

ridiculous?
RIDICULOUS.

=)
1:40 AM



i always quit what i start, hmm.
maybe i should quit doing this, because it's bad and loser.
i will do all those things, for sure.
disappointment, bugger off.

SHIT YOU GOD DAMN FUCKING SON-OF-A-BITCH BLOODY ASSHOLE
curse no more, gab.
second thing i'm quitting: cursing.
if triyono isn't around me, i can definitely do it.
for now, i'm replacing all swear words with the meaningless dang.

okay, i shall scoot and go watch tv, for one hour.
and i'm satisfied with my piano playing today. =)
8:00 PM



i can't believe i just wasted my morning away.
argh. it's 2:06 now. nanananana.
i slept in most of the morning, after realising there isn't any exco meeting.
=.-''' i can go and die.

okay. stuff i am going to do to kill my time today:
1. read the vex file
2. play on the piano
3. cycle
4. swim
5. cca stuff
6. watch AI again
7. play the guitar
8. go hunt for a pump that would pump up my basketball
9. draw/write in the notebook with the blank pages
10. watch PCK and laugh my brains out

yay. good. 10 things i can do.
now to freshen myself up.
i shall go and take a shower.
i took one in the morning, but it didn't seem to keep me awake. =.=

note to self: never sleep past 2am.
i slept at 230am last night. i think.
hohoho.
2:08 PM



just had the most dreary day of my life.
with the absence of school, everything that's normal has come to a standstill.
nothing to do, nothing to work towards.
is my life all about doing schoolwork and stuff related to school?
i hope not, but it stupidly feels so.

people shop when the hols come, but i hate shopping.
well, not hate HATE, but hate hate.
there are a few nice movies in the cinema, but.
idk, haven't been to the movies with anyone in a while (except for step up, with my cousins).

ARGHHHH.
this is the STUPIDEST HOLIDAY IN MY WHOLE LIFE!

TAKE ME OUT, SOMEBODY. ANYBODY (WHOM I KNOW).
damn, i sound desperate. but argh, i am. SAVE ME FROM THIS BORING HOLIDAY.
1:04 AM



just watched step up.
it's nice, whee.
and channing tatum is super pro, at hip hop.
this movie makes me want to go learn how to dance.
but sadly, i'm born with two left feet, so. 0.o
i'll be a running disaster. hahahahaha.
there are two things i wanna learn this holiday, even with my job and all:
1. guitar, for real
2. basketball, for real
i don't know if i can. but i shall try.
and dance. maybe. idk.

okay piano, here i come.
hahaha, piano's what i've been doing all my life and never am especially good at, not even once.
okay maybe a bit. ms chok still bloody thinks that i'm good. that's bullcrap.

gotta bounce. cya.
8:51 PM



it's an awful feeling, when something happens (not to you), and you don't know what to do, to at least make it better.
ahhh. DAMN.
9:05 PM



should i type a few more letters, to make it worth my 5 cents.
ahwell. i guess not.

okay eye candy! this korean guy from the movie my brother! won bin. xD
zomg. he's noiwon'tsayitbuthecki'llsayithot.









okay. i shall stop at four. 0o
haha, won bin > shin whatshisface.

gotta go and catch some sleep. xD
11:10 PM



better together
by jack johnson

there's no combination of words
i could put on the back of a postcard
no song that i could sing
but i can try for your heart

our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a, shoebox of photographs
with sepiatone loving

love is the answer,
at least for most of the questions in my heart
like why are we here? and where do we go?
and how come it's so hard?

it's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
i'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

[Chorus:]
mmm it's always better when we're together
yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
well, it's always better when we're together
yeah, it's always better when we're together

and all of these moments
just might find their way into my dreams tonight
but i know that they'll be gone
when the morning light sings
and brings new things

for tomorrow night you see
that they'll be gone too
too many things I have to do

but if all of these dreams might find their way
into my day to day scene
i'd be under the impression
i was somewhere in between
with only two
just me and you
not so many things we got to do
or places we got to be
we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

yeah, it's always better when we're together
mm, we're somewhere in between together
well, it's always better when we're together
yeah, it's always better when we're together

mm mm mm
i believe in memories
they look so, so pretty when i sleep
hey now, and when i wake up,
you look so pretty sleeping next to me
but there is not enough time,
and there is no, no song i could sing
and there is no, combination of words i could say
but i will still tell you one thing
we're better together.

//

ahhhh. JACK JOHNSON IS STEALING MY HEART WITH HIS VOICE.
i'll marry the man who sings like that and melts me like hot fudge on vanilla ice cream.
is it a thing for male singers with names starting with j to sing so well?
john lennon, jason mraz and now jack johnson.
JASON MRAZ STILL OWNS THEM TWO.
but for now, jack johnson, your song is going on replays on my stereo.
12:33 PM



haven't updated for two days. went down to school for three days, mainly for smp and robotics. argh. i seriously need to sleep in tomorrow morning at home, and go to school in the afternoon to return the DARNEDDDDDD LAPTOPS to mrs leung. otherwise, i will die. my nose is killing me. damn, whatever. I SHALL NOT GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW. since i'm going down to school on friday for the rs thinger, so i'll return the laptops then! whee. =)

nanana, i shall go and draw the diagrams for the robotics booklet. yayness. =)
9:56 PM



i just visited the library, and borrowed another couple of books. one on beach stories, and true to its title (the beach book), it's completely water-proof. (oh, i tried it in the bathtub already, it is water proof. drying it off was not fun though.) another one on how this woman becomes a top journalist for a music magazine, which i haven't cracked open yet. the third is called balling the jack, new york slang for risking everything on the one go, and it's about this guy called Tom Reasons (yeah right, if he were that sensible, his last name wouldn't be Reasons) who loves to bet every last dollar of his weekly salary on a ball game.

i need to go out and watch step up with somebody. AMANDA, drag some more people along and we'll go catch this movie together! hahaha, i'm insanely free this holiday, with nothing much to do, except for my CCA responsibilities, piano practices and my exercise regime which hasn't quite taken off.

shucks, i've busted my sms limit again. this time worse. bust it by 17 dollars divided by 5 cents = 340 messages. i have 300 free. I TOTALLY NEED A NEW SMS CEILING. grrr, all the sms-ing for CCA purposes + net carn + to friends that matter is taking up all my sms-es! note to self: exercise self-restraint.

i am going out soon. and argh. nobody's tagging anymore. =/ tag, somebody? anybody.

break my heart, no
i don't want to
hold on to leprechaun gold
5:35 PM



some things just feel so much like falling in love. i just looked back on all my msn chatlogs with all my close friends, from sec 1 till now. i realise how i changed. the way i talk. and the way i think, mostly. but that's besides the point, because the fact about how hyped up i was about talking to them was quite...surprising.

i don't think i'll make much sense if i carry on, so i'll just leave it here, until my brain gets unclogged and i decide that i finish this.

i have decided to return to writing in paragraphs, so here it is. goodbye to easily readable lines, and hello chunks of mind-numbing text. on a very random note, possibly born out of sheer boredom, i should really charge into my estate's management office one day and demand that they transform one of the tennis courts into a basketball court, then at least i won't be so bored at home, having nothing to do and having my monthly (but unwelcome) friend visiting me. besides, i have an old basketball which i've had for years, and it still has not seen the light of day since we moved into this cramped condo 5 years ago.

stink, i'm eating apple slices that have been placed in the fridge for the entire night. and there's coffee waiting for me on my table. i'm feeling fat, after having dinner, and chocolate chip cookies and m&m's. earlier, i had ban mian for lunch. and for breakfast, i had 1/4 of a hashbrown (because i threw the rest away) and a bar of hershey's milk chocolate. calories calories! AH. and fat. DAMN. my mum has been complaining about my weight, which has experienced a steep increment, since sec 2. i should totally go on an exercise program. but i'm lazy. ARGH. all the more the management should HAVE A BLIDDY BASKETBALL COURT IN MY ESTATE! DAMN THEM.

oh. and i'm sick. for the second time in this year. had a fever this afternoon, so i practically slept my whole afternoon away. note to self: fatigue gives illness and thus should be avoided at all cost. there goes my planned piano practice (oh yay, alliteration). it's night now, and i don't want to get complaints about my piano-playing, since it's not that nice anyway. took some panadol and took some more again, because my headache was so bad it's literally drilling a hole in my skull and causing me to haemorrhage. will i die of an overdose, i wonder.

life is idyllic, as of now, minus my sick state. it's so dreamy, with the rain, coffee and jason mraz on my playlist. all that's missing is someone to be with, physically. well, not possible, since i'm sick and stuck at home. but at least someone to talk to? people under my close friends group on msn are either MIA or too busy with their own stuff. manda's offline. nik's probably doing her cca stuff. eileen's doing something as well, i reckon. claire's in malaysia shopping like a taitai. wenyan my dear junior is offline (and i'm really sorry for my recently very lukewarm responses on msn, because i was 1. doing cca stuff 2. talking to some people at the same time 3. trying to balance it all out).

sigh. i don't want to sleep anymore. i feel like a sack of potatoes, with zero ability to sit up straight (i'm currently slouching in front of the laptop).

ahwell, i shall go back to my old old habit of reading. i have library books to finish reading.

taa. <3

//

oh. and looking at the time, and remembering kai yin (eh, is it spelt like that or did i remember wrongly?) asking me if i wanted the uk trip video, I REALLY REALLY MISS UK AND I WILL GIVE ANYTHING AT ALL TO GO BACK IN TIME. except it's impossible. double dang. okay i shall go kill some more braincells, by watching I Not Stupid Too on Channel 8. i will replenish them, when i start reading at 930.
8:55 PM



i don't think i'll be able to play the piano today.
i don't have the positive urge/motivation to.
playing just to pass an exam just suxxors.
i'm not good enough for piano, anyway.
i can never hear anything.
i can never sight read properly.
i can never be pitch perfect.
all i can do is type out the keys on the keyboard and add a bit of random emotion.
and it takes me eons to get over the initial procrastination phase for each piano piece i have a go at.
now i'm still doing my third piece, which is almost done, but not done yet, because i can't be bothered to practise the new section i'm supposed to do like yesterday.
and this year, i was more engrossed with school life and stuff, and rarely had time for piano practice.

ARGH. whatever happened to my drive, i don't know.
last year at least i had some sort of alarm inside me that would go off once i stop practising for two days.
and all the stuff i kind of learnt about personal leadership during lead camp is making me feel guilty, but i can't seem to get started.
maybe i worry too much.
i worry about not doing it right, not doing it the way it's supposed to be done.
i worry about starting off on the wrong foot.
DANGGGG. okay i shouldn't worry.
maybe i should sleep. and sleep it all my worries away.
escapism. hardly facing up to anything. bahh.
I DON'T BLOODY WANT TO FAIL GRADE 8 OR JUST SCRAPE A FUCKING PASS FOR IT.
that is nothing short of humiliating, when everyone around me is getting distinctions and high merits.
sometimes i wish i was in a neighbourhood school.
then again, that is a biased POV, which coldman would disapprove of but secretly agree on.
he's always going on about how we're elite and thus should be able to think analytically. whatever.

sigh.

i love music. i really do.
if only i can say this all without that twinge of guilt.

//

sad stuff, chuck 'em out of the window.
i will list a couple of happy things that happened this week:
1. i got my 3.82 GPA (i'm not bragging. if you decide that i'm being an arrogant asshole, go on and be immature. i'm not complaining.)
2. lead camp was enlightening. and i think i'm hopeful again for the next year.
3. i realised i grew taller again. HAHA.
4. i finally did flying fox during lead camp.
5. i now know a lot more about robotics stuff, after training.

yay. good. FIVE nice things, against ONE bad thing, which is major and alarming and urgent.
but anyhow, i can come home and practise my piano like mad tomorrow.
programming course is only until 1130.
so after lunch and all, i will be home by say...130 perhaps.
can start on piano at 200. and i swear i will finish impromptu.
and do all my appergios. HEHEHE.

=)

sometimes i think blogging is so freaking good for sorting out my thoughts.
so that should do it. no procrastinating tomorrow.
i'm super tired. so i figure today i'll put my feet up and have a good rest, since i've been busy the whole of this week.

alright. gtg and cut some slack.
7:25 PM



HOME.
camp's been fun and enlightening.
and yeah, humbling, (in shuting's words) "to see so many outstanding people".
this year is my first foray into leadership, so i have a lot to learn from these people.

day 1, i was on my way to school on 190, happily thinking about camp and what we were going to do, when i suddenly realised that i freaking left my sleeping bag behind at home! too late to turn back, so i resigned to being scolded, on the FIRST day of camp. luckily for me, mr tan was nice. xD he said i could rent a sleeping bag, for FIVE BUCKS. i was screaming RIP-OFF! in my head, but what can i do, i didn't bring my own sleeping bag.

the bus ride there was boring. and i was in a dazed, stoned mode for some of the time, until weifen and i started talking about how camp may be like. our facilitators (facils for short), shuting and shiya, were sleeping. changi coast adventure camp was quite ulu and out of the way, if you ask me. it was located right beside the airport but it looks like it's been plucked off pulau ubin and sewn on the east coast of singapore.

off the bus, and first thing we did was to RAISE OUR ARMS (#1 Memory, as of our 1 minute presentation earlier this morning during the closing ceremony) and check that our shirts were all tucked in neatly. mr tan briefed us about how life was going to be like on camp, how we were supposed to manage our own time and resources. then mr chu took over the mike, and surprisingly, did not start his speech with his trademark macdonalds story. he rattled on about leadership for quite some time and went through the 5 C's, which i seriously NEVER heard of or knew about until then. nearly fell asleep, but thankfully i didn't, because half the time chermaine was leaning back on me. heavy. haha kidding. xD

after briefing and all we went to put down our stuff and had a session with our dear facils. other groups were playing some icebreakers but we were sitting around talking. HAHA. but anyhow, the game we played as a whole camp was big fun. instead of the squirrel and the tree, it was fish and pond. and there was tsunami, hunter, bird flu and drought. tsunami: everyone runs. hunter: fish runs. drought: pond runs. bird flu: everyone goes on their backs and wave their arms and legs in the air (#2 Memory). it was literally si4 jiao3 chao2 tian1.

got ready for our high elements stations + general stations. learnt how to buckle up our whatyoucallthems, oh harnesses! all over again. our instructor was TAUFIK! hahaha, he can't sing, sadly. just the same name. HAHA. the helmets there were in pretty good condition and half of them didn't stink. okay i didn't go and smell every one, but you can tell whether it stinks or not when you put the helmet on your head.

our high element was super chicken feet. it was the one with a cable across and two other cables higher up at the sides for you to hold on to as you make your way across on the sole cable. we completed it rather quickly, yep. and oh, i forgot to mention my group mates' names! from odac we had chermaine chee and vivian gan; from weiqi we had hongchuan and wenyu; from malay cultural society we had nurul and amelina. =) nice funky people, yes.

high element done, it was on to the zipline, better known as the flying fox! haha, my first try and i didn't die. yay me. xD it might have been more fun if the flying fox was longer! HAHA. and HIGHER! HAHAHA. shuting was singing I BELIEVE I CAN FLYYYYY! all the way down. nanana, and we had to "fish" the person from the flying fox cable, meaning to position the person directly above the staircase trolley. and oh, the place where your team mate flies down is called the RUNWAY. =)

talking about runways, AEROPLANES are in abundance at the camp. we probably saw more aeroplanes than mosquitoes at the camp. there would definitely be at least 3 aeroplanes in 15 minutes. it would go ROAARRRRRRRR past the camp and initially everyone would look up and go WOAHHHH! AEROPLANE EH! but sometimes the loud engines make it hard for us to talk and to be heard. in the end, some people from becky's group were taken to looking out for SIA planes and saluting the planes (#3 Memory). they even have a song dedicated to SIA. okay correction, one or more. LOL. xD

back to topic, after the zipline, we went to the general stations, where we did the spider web. we practically carried each other across all the time. we had the round where some of us were handicapped. i was normal, except that i did not have a leg. some were blind (weifen and chermaine), mute (hongchuan and vivian) or without an arm (chermaine). there was only ONE normal person - wenyu. but i ended up trying to think of a proper sequence of getting across with only a bit of discussion, and stupidly forgot that i was missing a leg and that wenyu was perfectly normal and should be the last to go. AHWELL! nevermind, i shall remember the lesson of making decisions and taking everything into consideration and also deciding what to risk/sacrifice. and i still remember thinking about how i should have done it during the debrief later on that night. i must have looked a bit serious and down (okay i was looking down at my water bottle on the floor), because shiya was like suddenly pat me on my back and said something along the lines of cheer up. nanana, at least it's something i learnt. =)

oh, here comes the fun fun fun part that totally lifted the spirits of the entire group! WE PLAYED ON THE LOG. where we ran from opposite ends, played scissors paper stone (which later morphed into hai3 dai4) and the winner makes her way to the other end. lollers. it was super fun. loads of screaming and tons of laughter. shiya and shuting were the ones who started the hai3 dai4 thing. it caught on really quickly and soon we were all doing the hai dai thing and looking like human jellyfish on the log. hohoho, IT WAS CHAO CHAO CHAO FUN. =) chermaine and vivian were especially funny doing the hai dai thing. ame was good at hai dai, wheee! and she was on the same side as me. HAHAHA. ay, but i'm not that bad: i managed to get across twice. xD HEEHEE.

after the log, we went to play at two other stations. and we had our little debriefs, which were quite uhm, quiet. hahaha, but everyone was still thinking about hai3 dai4, i think. i know i was. LOL. okay generalisation, i apologise. xD

at night we had CCA discussions. weifen and i kind of re-wrote our comfort timeline with our workplan together. LOL. xD HAHA. it looked quite uh, messy, if you ask me. lalala, but the all the more better to have a literally, BIG picture of the year's events. =) that was basically our first day!

day 2 and it was water activities! kayaking + rafting. groups 1 to 7 kayaked first, meaning my group was going to kayak. put on our PFD's (personal floatation devices) and carried our kayaks + paddles out to the beach. it was high tide and the water was very high up the coast, threatening to drag our kayaks out to sea. so we had to readjust the kayaks again and again. i was with nurul in the same kayak. =) finally we started kayaking. i was sitting at the back, for the first time! we were separated into 3 groups, and most of our group was in group 3, which turned out to be the FUN FUN FUN GROUP! because we had Instructor 1. =) NUMBER ONE! and Instructor Sky! we stood up on our kayaks TOGETHER (EVERYONE) and sang dedication and even cheered spirit (#4 Memory). xD then we switched kayaks twice, and i ended up with xiner in the same kayak. hahaha. was a bit apprehensive, honestly. nanana, but it turned out fun. =) because we formed a circle using the kayaks and those people sitting in front (ie like xiner) had to jump into the sea within that circle. they had to remount the kayak after that. HOHOHO. grace zhang was trying very hard to get back into her kayak, so all of us kind of put our kayaks closer together so she had more support to get back in. xD xiner was being very helpful, i recall.

I MAINTAIN THAT KAYAKING IS THE FUNNEST THING ON THE ENTIRE PLANET, AS OF NOW. HAHA. canoeing might be a good idea.. hmmmmm. xD

paddled back to coast and got hosed down by the facils before we went for lunch together. after lunch, it was RAFTING! the sun was bearing down on all of us by then. and that was when my face got burnt and my lower arms became five shades darker than my shoulders. 0.o our raft was simple, but stable. we were working very well as a team, meaning everyone had something to do and helped in every way possible. because we had ODAC people, they were the ones who were telling us what we should do and how to do the knots properly. =) GOOD JOB, yayness!! after finishing our raft like 20 minutes before 345, we went into the canteen for a snack: BISCUITS! we yum seng-ed using the biscuits and decided we should do that before dinner that day. other groups had their own little cheer before every dinner. for example the sports people would do the clapping thing on the table and the prefects and psls would do the funny cheer that ended with "jia" (hokkien for eat).

345 and we went out and carried our darling raft, which we named bada boom after our group's name, which was bada bada boom. xD HEH. and we tested the raft, which actually floated! ZOMG! hahaha. but getting people onto it was quite a problem, because we had like 6 people getting on. rather difficult to balance, honestly. but we did it in the end, after falling into the water repeatedly. in the end, bada boom made it to mr tan, and yayness! OUR RAFT DIDN'T FALL APART! hehehe. i tried sitting on the barrel but fell twice into the water. and once they deliberately capsized the raft. hahaha.

after all the washing up, we went up to shower, following the toilet plan devised by ame and arathi, mainly. it was effective and everyone got out in time for dinner, which was especially filling. after that we had some extra time on our hands, so we went back, took some brooms that have the brush head and set about cleaning up the toilet we used with group 2's chess chair (whose name i can't remember for the life of me). we did quite a clean job of clearing all the sand from the toilet. yay us! lollers.

again, we had the CCA stuff, which was mainly presentation by the various groups. yeppo. i was paying attention, for once. and got some brainwaves along the way, but decided that some stuff we should consider only later. so i am shelving them for a while, before asking fen at the appropriate moment if we should implement it. then here comes the BIG BOMB. mr tan told us that sec1s and 2s were coming down the next day to do what we did on the first day. so basically we became the facilitators and the juniors were campees. initially everyone sat in their own groups to discuss the program, but becky and the other house capts took the initiative to suggest that we have a mass discussion about things, which i think was a good idea, although there were too many people to have everyone concentrate. i was quiet during the group discussion, boo. but ahwell, i should speak up more, i figure, when work is concerned. fun, definitely no problem, my mouth would move faster than a machine gun. HEH. that was when shuting announced that the facils would be choosing us randomly to talk to us. so ahwell. she took me first and we talked for such a long time. it sorted out some of my messed up thoughts, because at that point in time i was feeling rather useless in the group discussion, not being too spontaneous since one, i was literally brain dead after the kayaking (which is no excuse since everyone was into kayking as well) and two, i wasn't used to such rapidfire discussions. then again, this is my second bite at leadership, and i shouldn't bite off more than i can chew, so i shall take it easy, one step at a time. it'll come with time, like shuting says. meanwhile i'll just watch and learn and try to do what they do. HAHA. =) yeah, can de. optimism dude, optimism.

returned to mass discussion and it was quite fruitful, although the period of the discussion was rather short. grace and becky, the most eloquent of the bunch of us, i reckon, were conducting the gathering of ideas, while arathi and yiyun were sorting out the details and rotational stuff. =) spiffing job, i must say, because the mini-camp the next day turned out to be quite a success.

- i'm skipping some stuff, because i have to go sleep, real soon.-

mini-camp ended at 1045 and set about clearing up what we left behind whilst holding the mini-camp closing ceremony. then it was OUR closing ceremony, where my group did a presentation on the 8 things we would remember about camp. hahaha, there was one where i impersonated mr tan, by holding the loud hailer like he usually does with his arms crossed and legs planted shoulder width apart, and chin up. and i said the frisbee thing he told us: "Leaders, some of you were laughing at me playing with my frisbee, and you think i wasn't looking at my watch, but actually, i was. Some of you were late. And i want you to know that punctuality is very important." it was something along this line, and hahaha, it was really hard trying not to laugh while impersonating him. xD HAHA.

closing ceremony done, i went to collect my bags and hugged shuting and had a bite off her ice cream before leaving for the bus. at the mrt, i met claire, who was on her way home as well. we took the train all the way to city hall then to bishan, where claire and xiner got off to go home, and i got off to go have some pasta mania. HAHA. i had creamy chicken, a coke and garlic bread. there was a 30% discount, so HAHAHA. xD I'M PRO! i was super full after that, and fell asleep on the train on the way home. i totally looked like some hobo on the train, i swear.

HOME SWEET HOME.

AFTER 2 DAYS WITHOUT TECHNOLOGY, COMPUTERS AND TELEVISION HAVE BECOME FOREIGN CONCEPTS.
but i'm glad to have my laptop back. =)
and my handphone. and my mp3.

YAYNESS.

sleeping time. hoho it's 310 am now.
but nevermind. i slept 5 hours just now. so three more hours should do fine. =)

<3

quote of the camp:
"you're a serene leong gone wrong!"
vivian to chermaine. HAHA. NICE ONE, DUDE. LOL.
3:12 AM



MY PARENTS BOUGHT A FREAKING MAZDA 3 YESTERDAY!
and i know how much it costs (it's 50k), minus all the discounts (trust me, it's A LOT) my typically singaporean and therefore hopelessly kiasu parents managed to squeeze out of the petite sales consultant, who diplomatically complied, until they wanted a gift to go with the car.
(by then i was all WTF MUMMY DADDY SHE GAVE YOU SIX THINGS ALREADY. BE MORE HUMANE, ASSHOLES. okay i didn't say "assholes" but i was thinking "assholes".)
there's little wonder why she's the sales consultant of the month twice in a row - well-dressed check, has a glib tongue check and knows her stuff check.
and i won't be surprised if she scores a hat trick once november ends.

but I'M HAPPY. mazda 3 has a nice interior.
i like the dashboard.
i dig the seats.
i love the stereo.
this new baby is going to be galaxy grey, accelerates smoothly and gosh is it quiet.
and i'm going to drive it.
... only when i'm 21. x/

ach. but ahwell!
AT LEAST I'LL HAVE A CAR TO HAVE ALL MY ACCIDENTS IN, BEFORE I GET A SLICKER, FASTER CAR.
i think my parents would be horrified, if they ever see this.
nanana, LEAD CAMP tomorrow. and i am LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!
something like OBS, so i swear I WILL NOT DO SOMETHING STUPID / SOMETHING THAT I'LL GLADLY KICK MYSELF FOR WHEN I LOOK BACK.
and no, i don't think i'm going to try for sln. i don't see the point.

okay, got to bounce. have to pack. =)
1:40 PM



i think i'm going to change my blogskin.
last day of the school year. and it feels great not so fabulous, actually.
if i wrote great, i would be lying.
my mum had to go the national eye centre to check if she has cataract, and the chemical that was put into her eye to make it easier to do the checkup would render her a bit blind for 6 hours after that.
so i had to make my way to outram park, right after school.
there went the standard movie and lunch with any random people in class.
we had dinner out.
at the foodcourt at yewtee mrt station after the trip to the eye centre.
turns out my mum just has bit of short-sightedness and increased long-sightedness (or whatever you call it. HEH.).
and i only realised today she hates eating anchovies.
i've been dumping these icky green bits on her plate ever since i was young, and she's been eating them all up, without telling me she hates eating anchovies.
oh no. 0.o

and today, in school, after the cleanup, we sealed our time capsule.
i hastily scribbled letters to three people, and i kind of think i said some weird stuff in them. BUT WHATEVER! they'll only read those stuff like 10 years down the road. HAHA.

anyway got to go and play on the piano. impromptu is making headway.
7:22 PM



WAHAHAHA. TODAY'S BEEN A FUNNY DAY.

i stupidly left my library book in the hall after the talks, didn't know it and walked ALL THE WAY to the bus stop before realising i left it behind. i literally smacked myself on my forehead and then half-ran back to school. hurried to the hall, swung open the door and was greeted by the sight of a huge contingent of CCA leaders. î went down to the canteen, where i met my saviour, laasya. she kindly agreed to accompany me on my book recovery crusade, since she had more than 4 hours to kill before her training starts. we entered the hall by the side doors and i found out weifen kept the book under her bag. so whee! mission accomplished. xD

with nothing to do, laasya and i went up to the library to use the computers and kill time. the wireless network must be faulty at that time, so in laasya's words, the computers were slower than her grandmother. we visited people's blogs, mainly laasya's best friend in india, avantika's. zomg, avantika is a goddamnit good writer. i think her posts would make even FLL laugh her way to abs. laasya and i were trying so hard to suppress our laughter that i suspect both of us must have looked constipated. in a fit of happiness, i ran to the audiovisual resource corner and whisked the high school musical dvd off the rack to borrow it, and wait for it, it's my FIRST TIME watching this movie. cue to ROFLMAO.

after having fun in the library (for the first time in my life of boring library trips), we went back to the canteen! where we met nikhita, who looked tired but still had dance at 2pm. and we started talking about dosas! HEH. they are flat plain pancakes made completely out of starch. the simile "as plain as a dosa" would definitely come in useful sometimes. heh, especially for val, who was absolutely clueless when i said, HEY YOU'RE AS PLAIN AS A DOSA. all she said was, WHAT IS A DOSA?

ahwell! have to go for dinner! so. =)
and watch HSM. xD

lalala. happy day!
5:30 PM